My heart raced as I heard the bone-chilling cries of a baby. I threw back the covers and rushed out of my room. Where’s the crying coming from? I felt like I was in a haunted house or horror movie as I opened door after door in this endless hallway, only to find a dead end. There was only one door left. I ran as fast as my feet could carry me and threw the door open. I finally reached the crib, but it was a pool of blood as I pulled back the blanket.
I sat up with a scream, my hands immediately reaching protectively to my abdomen. What did that dream mean? Are the babies okay? I moved my shirt higher and slowly ran my hands over my stomach, trying to feel each of them. I felt the faint kicks of babies A, B, and C. My heart was in my throat when I couldn’t feel Baby D.
‘Don’t start to panic. The doctor already said we have high blood pressure. Just remember what they said about being patient and doing something that usually stimulates movement.’ Helia reminded me.
I nodded and tried to get out of bed, and it was time to get up anyways, as it was past seven in the morning. I rubbed my stomach again, once more checking for movement. I frowned when I still didn’t feel Baby D moving. I’ll raid the fridge. D tends to move when I eat something spicy, and there are bound to be some pickled jalapeno peppers.
As I went to make the bed, all thoughts of munching on some pickled jalapenos died as I screamed. Blood was on my sheet, and as I reached past my belly to my pajama shorts, they had blood on them. It took less than two minutes from when I screamed to my bedroom door in the guest apartment being thrown open.
“DELILAH!?” André shouted before letting out a scream of his own.
“Delilah? Are you all right? What’s… oh shit….” Darren started to question till his eyes saw the blood.
“It’s going to be all right.” Darren went into his military control the situation mode.
He’s such a great daddy. Even facing the very real possibility that one of his babies I’m carrying is in danger, he’s keeping a calm head. André, he’s a great Papa too, but more emotion-driven. For example, while Darren made a phone call and got a bag for me, André hugged and kissed my temple before kissing my belly four times, whispering it would be all right.
“The doctor is going to be waiting for us. André, help her change and bag the clothes and bedding in case they need to know how much blood it was.” Darren instructed.
“What’s going on?” Lando asked, yawning as he came to see what the shouting was about.
“Oh, Goddess. Delilah, are you okay? Are the babies all right?” Lando asked as his brown eyes went wide in worry.
“It’s going to be fine, Lando. Don’t worry. Your siblings and Delilah will be fine.” Darren assured him as he walked him out.
“I… I’m so sorry. I don’t know what happened. Maybe this was what my nightmare meant.” I sniffled as André helped me change from my pajamas into a maternity dress.
“Hush, now Zia Delilah. It’s going to be okay. I can still hear them.” André promised and kissed my forehead. “Now, what do you mean nightmare? Walk and talk if you can. Or I’ll carry you if you can’t walk.”
“I… I can walk.” I assured him, though I did lean on him as we left my room.
“I was having a nightmare. There was a wailing baby, and every door I opened was dead. And when I finally got the crib, there wasn’t a baby, just blood.” I recapped my nightmare, shaking as I tried to hold back tears.
“Well, that’s freaky. I’ll give you that.” André nodded. “And you woke up to find the blood?”
“Well, not at first. I tried to feel for the babies and couldn’t feel baby D. I got up to eat pickled jalapenos to see if she’d start moving. She always moves when I eat something spicy. And that’s when I saw the blood.” I explained as he helped me into the back of Darren’s Subaru.
“It’ll be okay. D might not have moved as much as the others, but I can hear all four heartbeats.” André assured me.
“We’ll get to the hospital and make sure you and the babies are all clear. It’s going to be fine, Delilah. Carrying multiples is never easy. Ask my mom.” Darren assured me with a smile as he glanced in the rearview.
I nodded and sniffled as André kept me in a one-arm hug on the drive. It didn’t take long for us to get to the Madonie hospital. And given that I’m the surrogate for the Alpha and Aleph, I was immediately taken to a room where the obstetrician quickly hooked me to all sorts of monitors and put four monitors on my belly.
It felt like an eternity before they had anything to tell us. I don’t know who was more nervous about what she had to say, me or André and Darren. André had been holding my hand the whole time, and Darren had been holding his. Doctor Damiani sighed as she looked at the chart before looking at us.
“It would appear the bleed has stopped. Baby D is still alive but in danger. What occurred was a placental abruption.” She explained.
“And that means? Talk to me like I didn’t pay a lick of attention to any medical words my Zio or cousin have ever said.” André insisted.
“It… it means the placenta detaches from the wall of the uterus. It means baby D may not get enough oxygen.” I explained.
“What?” I asked as everyone looked at me.
“I did a lot of research about pregnancy before becoming a surrogate. And I did pay attention to things Al… Beta Petridis said.” I explained, quickly correcting the amount of familiarity I used with speaking about Alexander.
I haven’t seen or spoken to him in over two years. Not since the night that snake Lia announced her pregnancy and that they were officially a couple. I know it was childish of me to cut him out of my life. I regret it, but that time away from him strengthened me. I became more independent and outspoken. That led me to offer to be André and Darren’s surrogate.
“So, what do we do?” Darren asked, looking back at Doctor Damiani.
“As the bleeding seems to have stopped and we have confirmed that baby D is not actively in danger, Signorina Delilah can return home.” She explained.
“But I want her on bed rest, and I’ll be prescribing medication to help the heirs’ lungs mature and to protect their brains if something was to force our hand to an earlier delivery than planned.” She outlined, handing Darren a prescription.
“Is there nothing that can be done to, I don’t know, fix the placenta?” André asked.
“No, Alpha. I’m afraid not. At least not that anyone here could.” She shook her head.
I knew the look in André’s eyes and started to shake my head. He’s thinking about having Alexander return to Madonie. I’d prefer him to ask Damon, but he can’t issue orders to Damon as he’s not Madonie’s Beta. I haven’t seen Alexander in years, and being pregnant is NOT what I want to be for that reunion.
“Don’t even think about it, André Marcus D’Amore.” I waved a finger at him.
“Zia Delilah. I love you. You know I would never want to cause you discomfort.” André held his hand over his heart.
“But?” I narrowed my eyes.
“But I love my babies more than I care about your discomfort.” He shrugged as he dug out his phone.
“I’ll be fine. I’ll have to be on bed rest. Baby D will be fine.” I tried to convince him.
“I’m not changing my babies or your safety. Your sisters love me, but if anything happens to you, it won’t matter that my papa is mated to Crista. I’ll be as good as dead.” André shook his head as he stepped just out of my reach with his phone to his ear.
“You need to come home immediately,” André greeted.
I strained, wanting to hear what Alexander was saying. Goddess, I’m pathetic. I don’t want him here. I don’t want him as my doctor. I’m not prepared to face him after all this time. I don’t want to meet him while carrying André and Darren’s heirs. Yet despite how much I don’t want him around, I’m straining to hear his voice.
“Our surrogate has experienced a placental abruption. General medicine can’t do anything beyond telling her to rest and take some medicine to ensure the babies are developed enough if we need to have an earlier delivery is needed.” André explained.
“Exactly. Now get your ass on a plane. We’ll see you in roughly twelve hours. Bye, cousin. Send my love to Zio Damon and Zoe.” André ended the call and pocketed his phone.
“I don’t like you right now.” I pouted.
“I know, but you still love me. And you love your future nieces and nephews and want what’s best for them.” He smiled and gently placed his hand on my belly.
“Delilah, we know you don’t want to see Alexander. What happened was years ago, and I believe you are mature enough to put your issues aside for the sake of the babies.” Darren sighed.
‘It’ll be okay, Delilah. I’ll be with you. Together we can handle facing your old crush.’ Helia promised.
“Okay…” I sighed, giving in. “It’s the best option to ensure baby D is safe and that I can carry all four babies till the thirty-week mark when we have the planned c-section.”
“Thank you, Zia Delilah.” André grinned and kissed both my cheeks. “I promise Alexander will be on his best behavior.”
“Don’t promise something like that.” I sighed. “You can’t make him not say or do something that will upset me.”
“I’m his Alpha. I can command him to do a headstand while pedaling a unicycle with his hands.” André scoffed.
I laughed softly and shook my head. André has always had a way with words and painting pictures. Now I’ll have this image of Alexander doing a headstand on a unicycle with the blood rushing to his face and blue eyes focused as he tries to control his breathing to maintain his balance stuck in my head.
I don’t know if the image will be enough to get me through the uncomfortable reunion and having to face how I abandoned him when he probably needed friends the most. At least I’d have half the day or possibly longer to think about what I will say and how to react when I see him again.
I knew that André and Darren had found a surrogate that met all their requirements in November. By December, she had successfully undergone IVF with an embryo fertilized by André and another by Darren. To the surprise of some, except medical professionals that understand how genetics can behave, both embryos divided, and the surrogate went from carrying two babies to two sets of identical twins. I haven’t kept tabs on the progress beyond what I’ve heard from conversations with André. I trust Annamaria to handle things. She’s an excellent obstetrician. I’d considered telling André to trust Annamaria regarding the surrogate’s care. However, the words died on my tongue when he told me the surrogate had suffered a placental abruption. Medically speaking, there isn’t anything Annamaria could do about it. She could only put the surrogate on bed rest, monitor the babies, and prescribe medicines to help the development of the babies to increase survival chances if it was to get worse and
Why did André call Alexander? Okay, I know why. With Alexander’s gift, there is a high chance he would be able to repair the placenta issue that caused the bleeding and put Baby D in danger. And I wouldn’t dare try to put my comfort over the health and safety of these babies. It’s just, why did it have to be Alexander? It would have been easier on me if he’d asked Alec to recall Damon. It’s been over two years since I’ve seen him. I thought I’d changed. I thought that I’d overcome this crush. Yet the butterflies were back when André called him. And I know these aren’t the butterfly feelings I get when the babies move. Nope, this feeling is reserved only for Alexander Petridis. I both love and hate it. How can he still have such power over me? I may have taken the suggestions of my Bloodmoon friends and gotten Alexander out of my system by dating. It isn’t like there was a lack of cute males between Bloodmoon and Silverclaw. However, many were apprehensive about flirting with me. I
‘Get it the FUCK together, Alexander!’ Lucius growled. ‘Don’t you think I would if it were that easy?’ I growled back as I held the side of the garage for support. I know he’s pissed at me. I’m pissed at myself. But this isn’t something I have control over. It’s not like I wanted to have this reaction to Delilah, let alone to her being my mate. Why didn’t anyone tell me she was the surrogate? It would have been nice to have some warning before finding her like this. Pregnant with my cousin’s babies. I choked back the vomit as I tried to control my reaction. Seriously, why do the actions of that damn bitch still mess with me? Wasn’t it bad enough that I haven’t been able to touch a woman since I lost all trust in their gender? Now the ripple effect of what she did has me throwing up after meeting my mate. I don’t think anything in my past made me deserve this. I closed my eyes and let myself slide down the garage wall to sit on the ground. I groaned as I pulled my legs up and pl
What is this strange feeling? It feels familiar but foreign, like lounging in a field of flowers on a sunny day. I feel so safe and warm. That’s why it feels familiar. This feels like every time Alexander held me or at the least hugged me. But there’s something else that makes it feel foreign. This electricity makes every cell in my body buzz in response. And nothing responded quite as much as my nipples and vagina. ‘Mmmm… mate.’ Helia practically purred. That was enough to make my eyes fly open. All the feelings of exhaustion and heartbreak from when I went to bed were gone. I felt energized, hopeful, and, I’m embarrassed to admit it, horny. I’m not unfamiliar with that last feeling, especially when associated with Alexander. I won’t ever admit it aloud, but he was the first man I fantasized about. So opening my eyes to see Alexander sitting on the edge of my bed with his hand under my dress felt like a scene from one of those fantasies. Maybe I am dreaming. That would be my luck.
I usually don’t mind when I’m wrong, and Lucius is right. But I hated that he was right about having to touch Delilah to heal her. Mostly I hated that he was right about how it would affect me. I don’t know why I thought I could fool myself. I’m not above the mate bond and its magnetic pull. Even if she weren’t my mate, I’d still have rushed to help her. It doesn’t matter that she cut me out of her life. It doesn’t matter how bad she hurt me. There was no way I could stand by and do nothing to protect her or keep her safe. And that included having to touch her to heal her. I thought I was prepared for what would happen when I touched her. I thought it would be minor as I was only checking her pulse on her wrist. I’ve touched her wrist and her hand in the past. It shouldn’t have been a big deal. Yeah, I was wrong. No amount of being told about the mate bond can prepare anyone for the intense feeling when you touch your mate, especially for the first time. I had to close my eyes and b
A part of me felt like I deserved this. I deserved Alexander to treat me as just another patient. I am the one that went no contact. I’m the one that ended our friendship. So why should I expect his feelings to change suddenly? The mate bond can do much but can’t erase the past. He was hurt by my pulling away from our friendship. He wouldn’t be acting like this if he wasn’t unless he’s like this because I’m a surrogate for André and Darren. And if that’s the case, well, too bad. André is his cousin, maybe not by blood, but still. They are family, and more than that, André is his Alpha. He should be supportive of anyone offering to carry the heirs for Madonie. Then a part of me says Alexander can go to hell. I don’t deserve to be treated so coldly. He knew why I stopped talking to him. I couldn’t stand around while Liar played him like a fiddle. I couldn’t stand by and watch the train wreck. Plus, she was pretty clear that night I needed to stay away and went so far as to point out th
The run from André’s villa to the pack hospital didn’t help clear my mind. It felt good to be home, however. Spending nine months away had been hard. There’s a reason that rogues tend to be more aggressive and unstable. They have no connection to a pack and a territory. They can’t ever feel ‘home.’ It’s similar, but to a lesser extent, when a wolf spends extended periods away from their pack and territory. It explained why the three of us had grown increasingly agitated the longer we were gone. I’m amazed Papa hadn’t cracked being so far from Incubi and Mama. Then again, maybe that’s why he’d been the more level-headed of us. He may have been far from her, but the bond remained. Meanwhile, Zoe and I didn’t have that. I feel bad for the packs they still had to visit, mostly Ironfur, as it was next after Silvermane left a bad impression on all of us. I can only hope the males of Ironfur aren’t sexist Neanderthals that try to talk down to her. If they are well, I hope Alpha Finn is cool
I wasn’t sure how I would get through this with Alexander acting this way. How am I supposed to handle him touching me, but only in a professional manner? How is he able to separate the feelings of the bond like that? I’m struggling to separate the effects of the bond from my feelings. I admit there is still part of me that cares very much for him, not a result of the bond. There is still hurt in my heart from how he’s been acting. ‘You love him, and you know it.’ Helia commented. ‘That’s why this is so hard for you. And we don’t know why Alexander is acting like this. We can find out more when we talk to him alone.’ She assured me. I’m not sure how much of a silver lining that is. Goddess knows when or if I’ll get to speak with him alone. After I’ve been medically clear, there isn’t any guarantee he won’t try to run off and avoid me. I’ll have to show him I’m not the same old Delilah that will let him sit me on the sidelines of his life. I’m a strong independent woman who can and w