Raya
It takes over an hour before my heartbeat returns to normal. Finally, the walls don’t feel like they’re going to close in on me and I can breathe again. Now, I can actually look around this room I was given.
I walk around slowly, taking everything in. There’s a large walk in closet that literally is big enough to fit a king’s size bed, but it’s empty. There’s a bathroom that has the largest bathtub and rainfall shower I’ve ever seen. I know that I’m inside a castle, but this just seems so… so… extravagant. I can’t imagine having this kind of money or a place of my own like this.
And this is just my room. Are all the rooms like this? Are some nicer than mine? How is it possible to just have this much wealth?
I guess when you’re a vampire and you’re practically immortal then you have the opportunity to have a ridiculous amount of wealth.
I walk into the bathroom to wash my face and I look in the mirror. My reflection is faded, the same way it always is at night. In a few hours it’ll look normal just like all the other humans.
I look around for a brush because my dirty blonde/light brown hair looks like a tornado went through it after having two different runs with vampires tonight. I finally find one and I grit my teeth as I work through the tangles. But as I look at myself in the mirror, I drop my brush when I notice something.
I move up against the mirror, so close that my breath is causing it to fog up. I open my mouth and I notice my fangs the ones that had been filed down with silver when I was only five years old, they have a small point to them. They’ve never had a point like that. My eyebrows furrow in confusion and I murmur, “Huh.”
My eyes flicker up, meeting my reflection, my blue-green eyes have a hint of red in them. I frown, what on earth is going on with me? This has never happened before.
My stomach is churning and I move out of the bathroom and go to the bed. I need to go to sleep before I throw up. I lie in the bed, it’s comfortable but… it’s too soft.
I roll on my side, hoping that it’ll help, but it doesn’t. I’ve never been in a bed like this before and it doesn’t feel right. How am I supposed to be comfortable if I feel like I’m sinking into the mattress and that I’ll be suffocated by all the pillows and the comforter?
I toss and turn, trying desperately to find a better position, but I’m unable to sleep. It’s too uncomfortable and my mind just keep repeating everything that has happened over the past few hours.
I throw a pillow over my face and scream into it, hoping that it will help drown out all of my frustrations. But then, there’s a knock on my door. I turn to the door, staring at it, wondering if I actually heard the knock.
There’s another knock.
I set the pillow down and push myself out of the too-soft bed. I walk over to the door and open it. He had been looking down, but lifts his head to meet my gaze.
It’s the cheeky one. That was… Luther. He smiles at me, his candy apple red eyes shining, but not in the same way his brother Adam’s did when he tried to compel me. No, Luther’s eyes seem to spark with mischief as he leans against the doorway and asks, “May I come in?”
I look at him skeptically, they own the home so it’s not like I have to invite him in to enter. So… is he doing this just to be nice? I don’t understand his motive.
I shrug and walk back towards the bed as I tell him, “It’s your home. You can go wherever you want.”
I sit back on the bed, trying not to groan in displeasure as I sink into the mattress. I try to sit up as I look at Luther. He followed me into the room, but he walks in slowly as he looks around the room. It’s like he’s never seen this place before.
Maybe he hasn’t. Who knows if he’s even had enough time to look at the entire castle since it’s so freaking huge?
He looks back at me and asks, “Do you need to feed?”
I frown, I’m not like him, he knows this. Why does he care enough to ask me though?
I ask with an eyebrow raised, “Excuse me?”
He says, “You’re half-vampire, right? Surely, you need blood to thrive. Just like we do… you just don’t need as much.”
Luther surprises me as he brings his wrist to his lips, I see a flash of his shiny white teeth specifically his fangs before they sink into his wrist. He holds his wrist out to me, taking one step towards me. I watch as dark blood drips down his arm, he’s a vampire, he’ll heal fast so I have to decide now if I’m going to accept this offer.
He gives me that charming smile. He’s handsome, he knows it, and he uses it to his advantage. My gut seems to scream at me, telling me not to listen to him that he is deceptive and shouldn’t be trusted.
He tells me in a soothing tone, “Come on, just one taste. It’ll make you feel so good.”
A small part of me is curious, wondering how different his blood would taste compared to the cup of blood my biological father had given me. But I listen to my gut, I force myself to shake my head as I say, “I think I’ve had enough excitement for one night. I would just like to rest.”
I lie down in the bed and turn away from him, forcing my breathing to remain steady, and not to turn around and entertain him anymore tonight.
I swear I can feel his eyes on me, I know I’ve confused him. My shoulders do not relax until I hear his footsteps as he walks away and the door shuts and his footsteps continue to leave down the hall until I can’t hear them anymore.
I finally release my breathe. A small part of me is now longing to feed, but for some reason I know that I shouldn’t feed from him. It feels… forbidden.
Until I learn more, I will not allow myself that forbidden fruit.
Raya“Do you know how reckless that was?!” Adam’s voice screeches for the fifteenth time. It doesn’t matter what Luther says, it doesn’t matter what I say, there’s no reason that I should’ve compelled him according to Adam.Blade watches the whole interaction with his arms crossed and he feigns disinterest. I know him, I know he’s a lot more interested than what he’s letting on.Luther snaps, “There was nothing reckless about it, Adam! You don’t get to just control everyone’s life!”“It’s my job to keep you safe!”I breathe out, letting the boys continue to fight as I lean against the counter next to Blade. I ask him softly, “Do you think we were reckless?”He shakes his head softly, “It’s natural for both of you to want to explore this new dynamic. I think Adam believes you were reckless because if our father had seen Luther when the tether broke… there’s a chance he would’ve killed you on the spot. He wants the Ambrose family to be the most powerful and with you having power over on
BlairTonight is supposed to be my Luna ceremony… I’m not entirely sure what that means, but I trust Hunter and I trust his pack. Or well, our pack.He walks into our room with a small smile on his face, his eyes flicker to look at the mark on my neck. He walks over to me and wraps his arms around my waist before kissing my mark, making tingles erupt through my body. He whispers softly, “You look perfect, like a goddess, Blair.”My cheeks heat up and I turn to look at him, his eyes shining with adoration for me. I tell him, “I’m becoming your Luna officially, I’ll be your equal, right?”He smiles, “You’re already my equal, Blair.”I comment, “I want to see Raya.”He winces softly and shakes his head, “I know you want to, Blair, but it’s dangerous around vampires.”“I don’t care.”He huffs, “You might not care, Blair, but I do, a lot, You are everything to me and if they got their hands on you.” He pinches the bridge of his nose in frustration. This has been our main argument since we
RayaI feel disoriented. I don’t know what exactly is going on, it’s like my head is spinning round and round on a ride that won’t stop. I hear Adam’s harsh voice as he asks me, “What did you do?”Something about the tone of his voice helps me to focus, although I don’t understand why he thinks it’s okay to speak to me that way. My head snaps towards him and I tell him harshly, “Mind your tone.”His eyebrows raise in surprise and I feel a hand on my shoulder, it’s a silent warning for me to stand down. I look back at Blade whose eyes are shining with concern. I frown as I look at him, I don’t know what they’re so worried about. I just went out with Luther for a little while, it isn’t as big of a deal as what they’re making it be.We went out, we came back, and then… and then… I don’t remember.My eyebrows crinkle together as I try harder to think of what happened next, but nothing is coming to my mind. I look towards Luther who also seems to be in a bit of a daze. He rubs his eyes for
RayaI’m surprised by how much I’ve enjoyed being around Luther. Things aren’t tense with him instead I feel like for once, I don’t have any worries. He doesn’t get too close to me, but I’m not sure if he’s doing that out of trying to give me peace of mind or what his motive might be. Regardless, I’ve been grateful for the night out.We get back to the Estate and he looks at me with a happy gleam in his eyes and asks, “Do you want to see what my favorite spot of the estate is? I like to go here anytime I get out of the house.”I look back where we can see the sun just beginning to peak through in the darkness. I murmur, “Is it outside? You don’t have much time.”He smirks and holds out his hand and asks, “Do you trust me?”And surprisingly, I don’t hesitate to put my hand in his. Even with the sun coming up, I don’t feel afraid. Then again, I’m not the one whose life is in danger because of the sun. He pulls me closer to him and holds me tight and his breath fans my ear as he whispers
BladeIt has been difficult to be away from Raya. I thought I made my feelings for her obvious with that kiss, yet she asked for space from all of us. She has never sought me out so I let her have her space.I watched her from a distance, still concerned about her safety even though my father seems to be less of a threat with each passing day. At this point, I’m just missing her. I miss her presence and talking to her, she was one of the only things in my life to make me feel like I have a purpose.So, after 7 days of respecting her space, I decided that today if she doesn’t crack then I will. And I hope she won’t reject me.I watched her room from afar like I always do until I heard a commotion from some of the servants we have down the hall. I sigh as I force myself to leave to help with whatever was going on. It’s rare for there to be fights around the estate, but I know no one would act up if I was around. With great reluctance, I leave Raya’s space unattended.I couldn’t have bee
RayaIt’s been a week since the Adam, Blade, and Luther admitted their feelings for me. They’ve left me alone so that I can have time to process. I haven’t seen Adam at all. Blade is always near, watching me and keeping me safe, but he doesn’t interact with me and I haven’t figured out the words to say to him. I’ve seen Luther in passing. I walk into a room, he leaves it and that’s how it’s been.I don’t know how to talk to any of them. But I feel overwhelmed with guilt for not knowing which one of them I want. For not realizing sooner that they might have feelings for me.The choice should be obvious, I should pick and want Blade. He’s been there for me the most and has made me feel valued. But I think of Luther and his charisma and the chill that I get when he calls me his toy. I think of how I haven’t seen him take a girl to his room, human or vampire, since I came here. And from the way the boys talked apparently that had been a very common thing from him.I think of Adam. I think