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I know I have fallen again.Would you rise me now"
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When I reached near the tall white building a.k.a Hospital, my face was contorted into fear.
ALLAH TALLAH!!! Just save me this time.I promise I would be a good girl!!
I thanked young soldier, he smiled and left.
Ok Hayaaat! BE CONFIDENT...Show like everything is cool whether you're shivering inside.
Actually I was.I introduced myself to lady at the counter and she told me that, I should talk to Dr.Abdullah about my duty who was currently in ward.
I went towards the ward,my nose hitting the typical-hospital-scent.I always hated it.But once you spend a while, you get used to it.
Entering in, I notice several people in bandages, injured on beds.I just hate those white sheets.I always thought why can't hospital bed be colourful.
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