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Nightmares
Next morning I woke up late.I tossed all night on my bed thinking.I touched my lips still shivering from the memory.
Why would he do that? He don't even like me.I danced with a non-Mehram.Allah g what have I done.Last night I prayed Nawafil Toba along with Namaz Isha and kept begging Allah to forgive my sins.I'm still too weak and my Imaan still quivers like a fragile feather moved by wind.
But Allah says he forgives who repents and beg mercy for his sins as He is
Ar-Rahman (All Merciful)
Today is sunday so I can lay down more.After mustering up courage,I try to act normally like nothing had happened I move towards kitchen and started making breakfast.
I was beating the eggs for omelette when I heard footsteps nearing myself,I turn around and was approaching the spices when felt the presence,seizing my all movement.I gazed upwards and tried to give a smile.
Good Morning
I tried to act normal.He just smiled at me.His eyesRelated chapters
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