Cruel Heart

Dad's car had just arrived. Stopping in front of the lawn, he got out of the car alongside his men of honor. Or Doormats. The same looked even more serious than yesterday upon receiving a call from one of the Death Knight's men. All dinner stopped at that moment, as well as my appetite that went from 100 to 0 in a few seconds of conversation. My heart was racing and my hands were pounding even more when Dad could only say, "yes," "sure," "um-rum." Never making it clear what would really happen.What would happen to me in this final stretch.I cross my arms and stop looking at the window, turning around and seeing Celina, my younger sister, sprawled on the couch. She knows what I think, maybe even what I'm going to say. If I go."He won't tell you if he doesn't ask." — Celina contains no speech from him. She gets up and walks towards me."He won't say even if I ask." - I do. It's a truth I've come to know since everything I wanted to build was demolished before it even became a real

He was totally different from what I had known years ago. Kaanadan had a full, well-groomed beard. His hair grew longer, going in wavy layers halfway down his neck, the color still the same, light brown. Besides being even stronger.I am impressed by its visual youth. The weather was good, even.I was still staring at him tense and surprised by the misfortune of finding Kaanadan Salvatore soon, the future husband I wanted to escape from. He was looking me straight in the eyes, and his lashes are still way too perfect for a man."So you're not going to answer me?" Kaanadan broke the silence and I took a step back, taking a deep breath before looking back at him.— No, it wasn't lost... I came to see the place.He doesn't seem to be convinced, but he doesn't contradict my speech either. I look around and curse myself for not being 100% focused in front of me. My pulse quickened as I realized I had again missed my chance, but it was even more tense as I turned to Kaanadan. Her gaze

The walk took forever, and still too fast for my liking. Handing me over to Kaanadan's arms, my dad gave me a serious look, while Kaanadan didn't look much different than I'd seen him before. Serious and without any emotion on his face.The priest greeted everyone, before finally starting the celebration. The guests sat down. All the hundred or so guests fell silent.With each word my heart accelerated like never before. I was grateful for the veil on my face, which covered the many times I felt my face flush. I was shaking too, and I really wished Kaanadan didn't realize how uncomfortable it is to be where we are.The ceremony is long and drawn out, making me think of several things I still intend to do, giving me a certain relief to maybe get this out of the house, but giving me great discomfort when I realize that much of it may be an illusion, and Kaanadan is well worse than I imagine it to be.The first prayers began and I took a deep breath, feeling the dress suffocate me. A

The sunlight hit me. I stretched sleepily, feeling my body a little sore from the sleepless night and I sit on the bed. It takes me a while to think through where I am or who I'm with, what happened yesterday, but when I remember, I swallow hard."I thought you were dead." - The serious voice sounded through the room.I remembered clearly. I turned my face to the side and saw Kaanadan, sitting in an armchair while looking at me. The sun beat down on him too, but lighter than on me. Just as he swore yesterday before going to sleep, Kaanadan did not consummate the marriage, nor did he touch me — I know because I barely slept and his body always had his back to me.I scratched the back of my neck and ran a hand through my clearly disheveled hair. - I wish. - I murmur and I hear him sigh heavily.Kaanadan gets up and walks towards the bed. I watch him, seeing him sit down next to me. I turn away, but he looks at me even more seriously."Why are you still running?" Kaanadan asks and w

A terrible buzz filled my head. I sat up and massaged my temples, easing the immense pain in my head. My blurred vision slowly clears up, and so I observe where I am, not recognizing anything. It takes me a while to remember about the escape attempt, so when I remember... it was a failure.I look down at my lap and see myself still wearing the orange one. I drag myself out of the big bed and my body feels heavy and exhausted. I don't go back to bed, getting to my feet and heading out of the room.I walk along the corridor until I reach a staircase, I go down slowly, seeing that everything is silent and empty. I wonder where I am, but it looks like it's Kaanadan's house. I don't say this for pictures — as I don't have any — but because I was on the move when I blacked out, so I assume they didn't let me say goodbye to my brothers. A type of punishment.I walked to the side of the room. The huge glass wall gives a beautiful view of the city at night time. The lights vibrates and dazz