Red is the color of love.
Heart is the symbol of it.But how people describe and define it—sometimes,confuses me."It's a pleasure that you make time to dine with us again Ansel"my father look at the man beside my mom and infront of me.Bahagya ko siyang nilingon at nakita kaagad ang tingin niya.His charming smile appeared for the nth time as he look back at my father.I glance sideways to met my mom's radiating face.Hindi ko maipagkakaila ang tuwa sa mukha niya.Sa ilang beses ko siyang nakitang may kasama siyang lalaki,ito ang unang beses na ganito siya.I drop my eyes in between my fingers where golden utensils were placed. Sa loob ng malaking mansyon na hindi ko madalas na puntahan simula ng tumuntong ako ng highschool minsan ko lang madatnan ang sarili ko sa ganitong mga pangyayari."It's nice to be here also..I'm glad I was invited""Sana bumalik ka pa ng maraming beses"ang kaagad na sabi ng isa pang babae sa tabi ng ama ko.She held my father's shoulder as she eats her food.Clinton let's her and even gave her a pleased smile.My mom scoffed and drink her juice.Ngumisi ang babae sa kanyang ginawa at mas lalo pa ng nanatili siyang tahimik.In the middle of the grand dining area,all the luxury item that defines what standard they should have.I guess ,love isn't one of it.They have prove me that love isn't something you just gain just because you two were connected.It wasn't something that will keep you together just because you two become parents.Love is a faraway thing only a few can reach.My body immediately wait for the same cold voice that usually bounces whenever she's pissed."Azazel you've got something for us?"And there it is.I stop eating,drop the utensils on my plate and wipe the sides of my mouth.This has been rehearsed for years and it took quite an ample of time to get used to it.Never bothering to raise my head I spoke in a gently manner."I am doing fine in the school.I—"napahinto ako ng marinig ko ang marahang tawa niya.Umikot ang mata niya sa mga tao na kaharap namin sa hapag ngayon.Father is busy eating,his whore glances at us every now and then habang nakasabit ang isang kamay sa balikat niya.My brother is with his new wife for this year and silently eating ,not really minding us.Sa unti-unting pagkawala ng tawa niya ay naramdaman ko rin ang kagustuhan niyang makuha ang atensyon ng taong kinikilala niya rin na asawa.I force myself not to throw words at my father as I wait for another."You better do something Azazel"I nodded my head obediently and finally looks at her.She threw me a glare before getting more food and put it in the man's plate.I look at them briefly.You see,love is too precious that even your spouse can't always give it to you.And if they can't give it to you,you tend to seek for it to anybody."That's okay Maggie.Azazel is still young.She can do so much when she finally grows up"My mom produce the most genuine smile she can muster whenever he's here.It seems like her sour mood earlier is being washed by it.Atlast,she gained some attention,and it's coming from him.I immediately look away when I found his eyes again.Magaan lang naman ang nararamdaman ko sa kanya pero sa tuwing nagtatagal ang tingin niya sa akin hindi ko alam kung bakit mas pinipili kong mag-iwas ng tingin.He look nice.Katamtaman lang ang haba ng buhok na itim.Ang mata niya ay may natural na tingin na matalim natatakpan 'yon ng salamin at nagmumukhang sobrang bait.Katamtaman lang din ang kulay ng kanyang balat at base sa ilang pagkakataon na maikukumpara ko ang tangkad ko sa kanya ,malayo iyon.Mas malapit ang tangkad ng katabi niya sa kanya.I do understand though.I can only picture a guy I read in books.Prince that is a gentleman ,who produce gentle smile and have a gentle hand.This man right here is built and cut just like the same.Or not."Azazel will turn 18 soon Maggie.I'm sure she knows her responsibilities"My father's words pulled me from somewhere and in the real world as i realize what he was trying to say.Even under the glittery things,most expensive garments ,diamonds .Lahat ng kinang na sana nagpabulag na lang para hindi ko makita ang magiging buhay ko pagkatapos ng birthday na 'yon.I always wonder why the woman that I called mom is still staying with the man who never paid attention at her.Hindi ko naabutan ang panahon kung kailan nagmamahalan silang dalawa,nadatnan ko na silang ganito at ganito na'rin ako lumaki.Ang mga babaeng nakukuha ng ama ko hindi naman talaga siya mahal.Ang mga lalaking nali-link sa mama ko hindi din naman siya mahal.Dalawang beses ng nagpakasal ang kuya ko ,mahal na ba niya ang pangalawa ngayon?Bakit magkasama pa'rin ang mga kinikilala kong magulang kung wala din naman silang pakialam sa isa't-isa?At bakit pa ako nanatili dito kung pupwede na akong umalis?It is simple.If there's no love at all then the reason why people stay is because they only wanted something."Anyway..."ibinaba rin ni Ansel Millano ang kubyertos niya.Tahimik niya yong ginawa pero tumuon ang atensiyon ng lahat sa kanya.Ilang beses pa lang siyang pumarito pero mas wine-welcome pa siya ng lahat kaysa sa'kin.Halos lahat naman bilib sa kanya,humahanga kaya naman nakahanda na tanggapin siya palagi.Hindi exception ang ama kong mayaman rin kagaya niya.He look at me and smile again.I hesitantly acknowledge that.If isn't love that he's feeling towards my mother,the reason why he suddenly pops up here is all because he needs something.And I doubt it.Afterall he's richer than the father figure that I know.I glance at my mother ,fixing her look to try and look like a kind woman.Only,I know well enough behind those smile.I bet she's cursing at me right now I steal a little bit of attention that she's been receiving from him."I bought a school just a week ago...and I named it to Azazel"malakas na suminghap ang nasa tabi ni papa na babae.Nanigas ang ngiti ng ina ko at ang bagong mag-asawa ay gulat na bumaling sa akin bago kay Ansel.I don't know what's my face is telling them.Magandang balita ang narinig ko.Mabubuhay na ako ng walang kahit na anong makukuha sa kanila,right..I'm only here because i still need something.They're here because they need something from each of them too and so they just can't detach themselves...if that's the case for me. That's the case for everyone."Thank you Mr.Millano"i bowed my head a little then put a tight smile.I tried hard to feel the sincerity if that's what it really is but it made me doubt even more.Everyone has a motive . Everyone has a reason why they decided to stay.I wonder now what could be the reason why he suddenly did that."A school for your debut"I look at my brother smiling sheepishly at me. Gone the mask they wear at the dinner that just finished.Pagilid ang tingin niya.habang umiinom ng alak."Not bad.I'm sure you can build a castle in just a month"he holds my jaw and taps it."Your face will work for magic in months"bumaba ang tingin niya at mas lalong lumawak ang ngiti."And your body too.Finally,you will of use"binitawan niya ang baba ko at nagpasya ng umakyat ng hagdan.Tinanaw ko ang likod niya.Magiging si Dalton ba si Dalton ngayon kung nakuha niya ang pagmamahal na dapat ibinigay sa kanya?I know what he's been through.I recognize all of it.He has change into a person I never knew he could become. That's because he stay.I grip my dress as he dissappear from my sight.Well I don t wanna be like him.I don't want to live a life just like what he's been living.I don't want a life like my mom who spent her days finding what's real in her world.I want a life far from here,far from being an Aldridge,far from the crazy world they're trying to run.I want a new life before the time the world will know that I am part of the family where only wealth is being valued.Clinton Aldridge rank second in the most influential and richest man in the Philippines.His wife,Maggie Torres is a social butterfly at ang dating Miss World.She is an actress before and now an endorser.While Dalton Aldridge who followed the footstep of his father is the President of a successful Entertainment Company,kaya naman hindi na kataka-taka na marami na siyang nakarelasyon.I can say that marriage is a requirement for him to get qualified to those woman who wanted him to prove that he's serious about them and so he got married twice.They reach the top with a lot of criticism.They said it was all gained in wrongful way.They didn't think that Clinton is blessed by the heaven and made him rich.They didn't think that their good people ,that's why heaven permits them to be together.My father has done something for him to be able to reach the top that fast.I know a little but it's enough for me to have an idea what could be my role the moment i step on a legal age.I'll be of use
I didn't know that there will be a day where i won't like going out even just outside my room but I forced myself.The School Director told me that i should be in her office at 7:00 in the morning but i found myself three in the morning rushing myself to get ready just to get to there earlier without anyone knowing.Ada didn't have the time to question me the next day about why i came back with the school director and with the head mistress at kung bakit wala kaming punishment gayong naabutan kami ng curfew sa labas ng mga room namin.I know she'll ask right away but then she's out the next day dahil my group meeting daw sila tungkol sa isang project.I break two records this time,my usual 5:00 am get up and this thing about the school that Ada still didn't know.When I get in to the building and to the last floor where the Director's office are placed I didn't bother to turn on the lights.I used my flashlight to see where I am going.Ada
I can only imagine my mom getting married again.I mean,is that okay.She's still married to my father.Well,yes Azazel it wasn't okay until they got an annulment first...So Ansel will be the other man?But... that's the bad guy in books.Though my impression of him is ..not that bad ,not that good .I feel like there's still something missing from all of my ideas.So, it's really good to know that i'm not actually connected to him.My guess is right all along.They were a couple.Pagkatapos ibilin sa akin iyon ay pinauwi rin ako kaagad.Alas siyete na din naman no'n kaya naman wala na din akong naabutan.Usually ang library ang bukas pa ng ganitong oras dahil alas diyes ang sarado no'n.Doon ako naglagi at hinanap ang hiling topic sa AP at tsaka inaral mag-isa."Miss Torres magsasara na po"Inangat ko ang tingin ko sa Librarian na nagsalita.Nakahawak siya sa isang libro at nakahanda kaagad ang ngiti niya.Tumango ako at ngumiti bago tuluyang i
He isn't?but my mom thought they will?Nandoon siya para makipagdeal sa Papa ko.Probably for business.And...about my mom?That is still a question right?Why would she say something like that if they weren't in a relationship?They were..kasi halata namang malapit sila.My mom even arrange things for him.Don't tell me it was something she needs to do for an investor kasi wala akong naaalala na ginawa niya 'yon sa iba.They were in a relationship and maybe hindi muna sila magpapakasal.Tapos hindi 'yon alam ni Maggie kahit sila?O hindi pa nila napag-uusapan 'yon tapos natanong ko na?I nodded an approval at my reflection in the mirror.You guess everything right this time Azazel.I grab my cardigan before walking out of my room.It is thursday today at ngayon ay P.E namin kaya naman ang P.E uniform ang suot ko.Ada is tying her necktie habang bumaba sa third floor.Magsasabay kami sa pagbaba.Umalis sa room ko ang isang ito kaninang ala-sais.She took a bath in my
"What time we'll be going?"Ada munch her food infront of me.Tapos na ang half day na klase at nagtatanghalian na kami ngayon.Hindi ako nakasagot sa kanya.I hit the reply button yesterday saying i need to personally talk to Ansel but then,what would i say?What if this is really all part of the business?Ada's Uncle is a businessman,Ansel is businessman,My Dad too.They will going to strengthen their companies and this is the way."Is your Tito and my mom had something going on?"wala sa loob na tanong ko.Mabilis na kumilos ang kamay niya at tinampal ang braso ko sabay irap sa'kin.Umayos siya ng upo at nangalumbaba."Your one hell of a mother can't even glance at my family.I'm pretty sure that she doesn't know that Tito Raul is my Tito "natahimik ako.Right!Maggie Torres is too proud to even consider Ada's family existence."Ano na?"tanong niyang inilingan ko ulit.Sumubo ako mula sa sarili kong pagkain at sinabi ang isa ko pang naisip."I can text him"yes!I
Sa sobrang kaba ko sa pag-akyat sa hindi gaanong mataas na pader sa likod ng pangatlong dormitory hindi ko alam kung isasampa ko pa ba ang paa ko papuntang kabila.My knees are trembling i even forgot what am i doing there i can only remember the word 'outside' . Maybe that's what's give me strength to push myself up and sneak into the car before Ada even get down of the Director's Office. As soon as the warm air kiss my face as i told them to go slow when we get far from the School.I watch the trees allow itself to draw cool air in the open and let it hug the hot weather.It was a fresh air.It is a cold air.It us warm and it is ...something i don't know i would ever like.Dinaanan ko ang pakurbang daan.Dinaan ko ang matatayog na puno.Hindi sila bago sa akin pero pakiramdam ko ngayon ko lang nakita ang lahat at parang ngayon lang sila naging totoo."Why are you here Azazel.Nobody sees you leaving the school but you can't be found in the whole campus"I
Dalton is six years older than me.I was twelve when i saw my own father beat Dalton infront of the crying Maggie."He'll be 18 soon!Bakit ang tanga mo pa'rin!At your age ,dapat nakakuha ka na ng para sa'yo!Nabubuhay mo na sana ang sarili mo!At sana nakatulong ka na sa kompanya!"His voice echoed the whole place and I was too shock to even move a muscle when I saw him lying on the floor.Dalton was once kind to me.Not that kind but he treats me okay.He talk to me when he's in the mood but most of the time he's silent.He's always been alone ,not until that unfortunate day.I know that Maggie take him to the hospital after the beating.He needed to go because I saw a lot a blood on the floor.Maggie is crying hard as she pass at me.They walk out of the dining without noticing me, standing there.I was only left with the cold sweat and trembling hands watching the maids carefully washing away the evidences, Dalton's blood.I have loathed my father from the way he treated me
I'm spending my teenager years in an All Girls School.We grow along with the nature around us.I dream to have a house of my own in the middle of the forest ,beside the river.I always picture myself having a cat as my companion and Ada's visit every now and then.It is simple but that dream always leap my mood everytime I was in trouble with my mind.Beside living with the girls all around me,I only have Ada as my friend.She's my only listener and ..well..we can say an advicer kahit na madalas puro lang siya kalokohan.Hindi ako nagsabi ng kahit na anong problema ko sa kahit na sino and in just a moment, i have let someone else know what I have been dreaming all this time."Kumain na ako Caza..Mr.Millano.Bibili lang po ako ng karagdagang damit sa closet ko kaya papasok ako sa isang boutique"tuloy tuloy na sinabi ni Ada sa harap naming dalawa ni Ansel before she enter the boutique named as Genteel."Siya nga po pala hindi nila ako pinagbayad sa kinain ko kanina"iyo