Dirty White

The gasps resounded in her ears. The stares, she could still feel them burn through her, and she had broken down, had shrieked instead of howl, but no one laughed.

There was nothing to laugh about.

She had dashed through the crowd, the ground feeling uncomfortable under her feet. It was the most vulnerable she ever felt, the most useless, the most naked, the most empty.

Empty, that was the word.

It had been years of being the strong and young budding alpha female, and in one night, it seemed all of that had been taken away.

The wolves of the Craw pack were black and strong, their eyes a variety of colors that changed based on their mood. The wolves of other packs had similar characteristics and sometimes you could only tell the difference based on scent and markings.

“Other packs” however, did not include the Decent pack, the pack of the white wolves. They were the outcasts and had gone into hiding for many years now because as Isha had always been told, they were a mistake to the werewolf lineage.

She had just discovered that she was a mistake.

It hurt and she was thankful it hadn't taken too long when she blindly rammed into a tree and turned into her human form.

She had itched to shed the wolf form off her and all the training she had received had escaped her mind. If one looked within her mind at that moment, one would find a massive hole, she was certain.

If it weren't for the ongoing kidnapping of wolves, she would have fled the territory that night. She knew better, and so when she was sure everyone had dispersed from the open hall, she made her way back to the royal quarters, walking as stealthily as possible.

She got to the confines of her room and there, her eyes rained with tears.

The realization of her being a white wolf meant a lot of things. One, she was not going to be alpha. She had trained her whole life for nothing. Since the existence of werewolves, there had only been one female alpha, and of course, she had been from the Craw pack. She would be the second as her mum hadn't been able to conceive after giving birth to her.

It also meant her mum had been unfaithful in her marriage. Her parents were mated at a very young age and had developed a strong bond no one could break, or so they had thought.

The royals of the Craw pack picked their mates from within the pack. It was to prevent issues such as this and to preserve the Pack's secrets. 

It meant Craw was left without an alpha to rule, and it meant for the first time since its formation, the Wells family would not be seated on the throne.

The knock on her door was so soft. She instantly knew who it was.

Her first thought was to swing the door open and run her fangs through the neck of the person standing on the other side but she needed answers, and that was her mother, even though she saw her differently now, it didn't change her love for her.

She got up and walked to the door.

“You have five minutes” She showed a full palm for emphasis as soon as the door came open.

Sapphire Wells walked in, but her countenance was as Isha had always remembered; proud, head high, and there was not one change.

“Sit” she commanded

“You lost the right to tell me what to do” Isha pointed out “You lost it when you decided to make me a fool in front of every member of this pack.”

“Do not make me repeat myself” Her blue eyes twitched and Isha knew her wolf was about to reveal itself and Luna's wolf was a rough one.

Isha swallowed to keep herself from spewing words she would end up regretting. She walked gingerly to the bed and sat, her back facing her mother.

Sapphire knew her daughter was hurting. She also was hurting because she knew what was to come, her wolf had sensed it, but a Luna was not to be scared, and even if she was, she wasn't to show.

She didn't know how to put the words together, but she was going to have to tell her daughter, she deserved to know. It was time.

“You're not a Wells” she began

The tears were tugging at Isha’s lids but she blinked them away “That's not news, who am I then?”

“Dredger” Sapphire swallowed “Aaron Dredger is your father.” She took a side glance towards the door to make sure no one was listening “If I were you, I wouldn't let anyone else know.” She moved from where she stood for the first time since she came in and as she got closer, Isha moved backwards. She found it hard to recognize her mother, she felt disgusted too and all she wanted to do was to be left alone at that moment.

“Why?” She asked when she could find her voice “I thought you loved dad.”

Sapphire smiled “Sometimes love is never enough. I pray you never get to understand that.”

Isha shook her head in disbelief “what will happen to me? Will I still be alpha?”

Sapphire's heart broke. It was the first time she was seeing her daughter this hurt.

She closed the distance between them and this time, Isha let her. “You will be fine. I don't know what Wells has in mind but if you ever realize it's time to go home,” she paused and waited till Isha looked into her eyes “you go. You go my love, and you never look back. And when you find Dredger, tell him Clear Skies sent you.”

Isha raised her brows “Clear Skies?”

Sapphire’s lips spread into a smile as she nodded but there was pain in her eyes. “He always called me that.”

The realization dawned on Isha and she scoffed “no, this wasn't just a one night stand or a fling. You loved him.”

The Luna's face held no expression. She was not much of a speaker. “Be careful,” was all she said as looked around the room as if searching for something.

“What did Dad say?” Isha pressed on.

“Nothing, haven't seen him since then.”

Isha nodded “anything else I should know?” She didn't mean to sound rude but she couldn't help it.

“I love you, and I'm sorry. I know you waited to be alpha all your life.”

A minute of silence passed while they stared at each other, unsure of the next thing to say.

“Try to get some sleep” Sapphire said as she made for the door.

“A white wolf? Of all the people to fall in love with, really mum?”

Sapphire didn't turn or stop. She pulled the door open “Patience and silence are two different things. So many wolves are blind, it doesn't mean you should be too.”