EXQUISITE DESIRE

“I asked you to stay away from me, but you didn’t listen. Now you deserve a sweet punishment, sweetheart. ”

I tied her up on the bed. I saw fear and lust in her beautiful and angelic face. I feel her body trembling. Her innocent face is lingering on my mind. I stared at her beautiful body. She is gorgeous, no doubt about that.

“Are you blushing, Liyah, or should I say Mayah?”

I asked her, and her face turned even redder. Ang sarap lang tingnan ang inosenteng mukha niya. My heart is so stubborn not to recognize how amazing she is. Like the first time I saw her at the university. But I ignore the strange feeling she wants me to feel in the back of my mind. I buried it already. Hindi ko maatim na makapanakit na naman ako nang kalahi ni Eva. I live my life miserably.

I have learned my lessons when I hurt Daniyah. The moment I knew she died, my heart died with her. She’s the most amazing woman I have ever met. Our relationship started when my brother asked me to manage our hospital. I agreed because this woman declined my courting proposal. I have loved her, and having children with her was the best thing for me. Regrets and guilt consumed me.

Ipinilig ko ang ulo to disregard that thought. I was badly wounded, and I don’t know if I could love again the way I have loved her. But this woman in front of me is so persistent and stubborn. Everything went back to my reverie when I first met her school. Ilang beses ko pa itong dapat pag tabuyan. She was seducing me, and I couldn’t resist. Or let's say I don’t want to resist.

She awakened my coldness and turned it into something hot with burning desires. Every time I looked at her, her mesmerizing eyes, I was hypnotized, my defenses fell, and my body was excited every time our skin touched.

Every session was a death to me. She is my therapist. I couldn’t move and feel my lower legs, but I feel my buddy between my legs, and hell, I am fucking horny every fucking time.

Kaya madalas sinisinghalan ko to hide her effect on my body, especially my buddy down there. But the more I push her away, the more she pushes herself to me. I was fully recovered, but I pretended I still couldn't walk to be with her. I want to know why she’s doing this after she ran away and left me dumbfounded.

Now she’s in front of me, with her lacy bra paired with lacy red underwear. Her eyes were burning with anticipation and desires as I do. Her smooth and flawless skin is making me horny as hell. I run down my fingertips on her skin. I feel the heat and lust. I saw her face begging. I don’t know exactly if she is begging me to stop or to continue and rip those two pieces that cover her precious jewels.

I want to torture this woman. I want her to beg me to claim her. After running my fingertips on her skin, my palm stops on the gems between her legs. Napasinghap ito, I heard her moaning, whimpering, and she arched her body, showing her sexy curves. I heard her calling my name, and it was like music in my ears.

“Ah—ah, Clint.”

I ripped her underwear and claimed her lips roughly. I bit her lower lips and tasted her blood. It’s making me wild like an animal. I couldn’t stop myself. My lips run down on her neck, sipping and licking simultaneously. My hands roamed around her body, pressing it. I was busy on her neck when I slowly moved my lips down to her mounds. I cupped her right breast. It was a perfect fit in my hand. While my lips sucked her left breast, it was so soft.

Her body is shaking, and it is hot. I took my time playing with her mounds, and my other hand ran down from her waist to her belly until I reached my final destination. I cupped the gem; very soft and well shaved. I played with her clit, and rubbed my two fingers on her jewels, and it was soaking wet for me already. I pinched her clit, and I know she felt a tingling sensation after that sweet pain. I flick my tongue on her gem, licking, sucking at the same time.

I felt her hand on my hair. Lalo pa niyang pinag duldulan ang mukha ko sa pag kababae niya not that I complaint but I obliged. I insert my middle finger on her opening, ramdam kong natigilan siya sandali ngunit unti unti nitong, sinalubong ang daliri ko na nag labas masok sa bukana nito.

“God, you’re f*cking so tight, baby”…

“Mmmmm”

I heard her moaning. Lalo kong binilisan ang pag labas masok ng daliri ko sa nag lalawa niyang bukana. Mas lalo akong nabaliw nang sabay niya nang indayog ang balakang niya sa darili ko. I heard her long moan and she almost reach her climax, I licked her clit harder and I inserted another finger on her opening, she open her legs wide open .I thrust my fingers deep, fast and hard while sucking her clit. Alam kong malapit na malapit na siya, mas lalo kong pinag iigihan ang ginagawa ko sa kanya. Until her legs tightened, her toes curled and he arched her body more.

“Ahhh—ahh Clint….

She screamed my name in pleasure. I sipped every juice she released. Wala akong may itinira kahit isang patak. And it had the sweetest juices. I am addicted to her sweet scent and her taste. After that mind-blowing climax, I gave her. I licked my fingers in front of her, and her face reddened. Fuck, her eyes were so innocent and naive. Ramdam ko na nahiya na ito akin. She even looked away, not seeing what I did.

I went to the bathroom and took the white towel for her. Kitang kita ko ang gulat sa mukha niya at pagkapahiya. Hindi agad ito nakakilos. Napayuko ito and I saw a tear in her eyes. But I ignored it. I have to do this.

“I tasted you already, now get the fuck out of my room.”

I shouted at her. Alam kong nasaktan siya sa ginawa ko but I don't fucking care. Gustong suntukin ang sarili dahil sa kagaguhang ginagawa ko sa kanya.

“Clint—clint”

Her voice was trembling. Ngunit pinatigas ko ang mukha. I showed my emotionless face to her so that she would leave my room because if not, I would claim her right now. And I don’t want that to happen.

“Get the fuck out, Maliyah, or would you like me to drag you out of my fucking room !”

Dumadagundong ang boses ko. I was confident that no one would hear me shouting at her. Because my room is soundproof. Gusto ko siyang halikan at yakapin ngunit pinigilan ko ang sarili ko. I want to push her away. Hindi dapat ako nakaramdam ng ganito sa kanya. Not now , not fucking ever, what he had before it was gone. “Sinong pinagloloko mo Clint my mind hissed at me and I ignored it.”

I saw her slow walking naked and fucked. I was doomed. She covers herself while she’s picking her clothes one by one. She run towards the bathroom to get dress. I heard her sobbing . Alam kong pinipigil nito ang sarili na hwag umiyak nang malakas. Ngunit wala akong pakialam mas mabuting kalimutan niya ako kesa masaktan ko siya. Kong ano man ang meron kami noon, kong meron ng aba, tapos na yun. She rejected me.

I wear my Gucci fitted t-shirts. Lumabas ako ng silid ko na hindi ko na siya hinintay pa. Alam kong nahihiya ito at nasaktan ito sa inasal ko but I don't fucking care. Then image of Daniyah crying appeared on my mind. Mas lalong nag rebolusyon ang utak ko. Pabalibag kong isinara ang pinto alam kong marinig ni Maliyah yun. I don’t give a damn about it. I just want to get out of here. Away from her. I have to push her away. If not I will inflict pain on her and I don’t want that. She deserves someone better. Someone who will love her wholly and fully. I know it wasn’t me. But fuck, thinking of that, makes me crazy.

I was too broken to mend. I was a monster. I deserved these, all the pain. I deserved all of it because of what I did. The past haunts me. Daniyah is haunting me. And it is killing me every single fucking time she crosses my mind. I am troubled, and no one can fix me. Not even Maliyah. Looking at her a while ago ripped my heart from my ribcage. Fuck sake, what I have done. Napa-hagulgol ako. I punched the wall; the pain radiated from my fist. I felt it. Ang bilis ng tibok ng pusok ko, ang bilis ng paghabol ko nang hininga ko. I saw blood on my knuckles.

My world stopped, my mind went blank. My senses numbed. Gusto kong mag wala at sumigaw ngunit hindi ko magawa. I was stupid to hurt her like that.

“Daniyah”… I whispered her name, unti unti akong napaupo na parang nauupos na kandila. Hindi ko alam kong ilang oras akong nakaupo sa sahig naka sandal ang likod sa mahabang sofa. I heard the door opened but I didn't bother to look who was it. Nanatili akong nakapikit at naka upo.

“What the fuck Clint, What the hell happened. What did you fucking do this time”.

It was Chlyde shouting. I didn't bother to answer him. Dinig kong napabuntong hininga ito at alam kong nakatingin siya sa akin, naawa ako sa kanya because he did everything to save me, a second chance to fix everything I did. Hindi ko nga matingnan ng mata sa mata ang asawa niya. Hindi ko nga alam paano humingi ng tawad sa kanila. I shut them too. I pushed them away, I pushed Maliyah away. Kahit mga anak ko wala akong mukhang ihaharap sa kanila. I was so ashamed.