Mag-log inChapter Five
Maya’s POV
The arena pulses with the crowd that has managed to afford the tickets, lining every seat at one end of the rink. It is such a contrast from Eliot’s worry about being able to sell tickets, because this place is filled to the brim.
And I guess my new fake boyfriend has to be thanked for that, because more than half the crowd are ladies, waving banners with his picture high in the air.
Fake boyfriend.
I am yet to wrap my head around it.
I don’t think I can do it.
Reporters gather near the walkway, checking their mics, eagle eyes scanning the room. I catch Tara looking at me from one corner. Her lips don’t move, but I can read her without her having to speak.
It has been a week already since the last meeting with her and Eliot. It's been a week since I last saw Finn and Celeste. Too long to hold this act off. Something has to happen today to get the whole of Chicago talking.
The lights are being set up when Jax Mercer jogs out of the door at the other end of the room. He seems to soak in the attention when the crowd starts screaming his name, like he was born in a spotlight.
He is in his practice jersey, pushed up his arms, revealing the dark ink of his tattoos, disappearing underneath the rest of the jersey. I angle my head as he jogs over, for the umpteenth time, seeing what the others see.
Jax knows he is hot, and he uses it to his advantage.
He throws me a grin as he gets closer. “Hey, my stunning pretend girlfriend.” His voice drops into a whisper. It is surprising that he is into this. He should have been the first person to fight against this insane arrangement. “You’ve been avoiding me all week.”
“Don’t, Jax,” I whisper, pulling away from him. But it only makes the grin on his face stretch wider.
“You’re supposed to look at me like you’re obsessed with me, Maya. What do you think Tara will say when she finds out you don’t want to clean up my annoying identity?”
“Jax,” I sigh. “Why are you even doing this?”
He shrugs. “I like getting under Finn’s nerves…and there is just something about you that makes him throw his fist into walls.”
My eyes widen in surprise. “What are you talking about?”
“You didn’t know?” He moves impossibly closer, wrapping his arm around my waist before I can move. It feels warm. Not the crawl of ants that I think will start the minute he touches me.
And I hate it.
“Know what?”
“Finn,” he murmurs, leaning in closer just as the camera’s lights flash all around us. His lips graze my ears slightly, and I swallow the soft sigh building in my throat. My body, however, doesn’t listen, a strange warmth shooting down my back.
I am filled with the sudden urge to lean into the warmth from his breath, but I remain unmoving.
“He seemed pretty pissed about the arrangement,” Jax continues, his fingers now splayed on my waist. “When he walked out, the wall bore the brunt of his anger, and now he has made my sweet uncle incur more debt fixing it.”
“We know you don’t like Eliot.”
He laughs. It sounds like the crash of waves on a waterfall, nestled in the middle of a forest. “That is not the point.”
Jax pauses for a dramatic second before he breathes. “So, Finn.”
My breath catches, but not at the way he touches me, but at how believable this moment is. Jax's hand moves lower on my hip, warm and confident. He is still selling a story, and here I am, my brain going all over the place.
“I don’t know what you are talking about.” My voice comes out in a shaky breath, and immediately, I wish I could take it back.
“Hey,” he drawls. “Relax, PR Girl. I was just messing with you.”
I release the breath I have no idea I was holding.
“You look like you are about to bolt.”
“That’s because your hands are on me without permission,” I mutter, saying anything, anything at all, as long as it gets his focus away from the sudden red patches on my cheeks.
“Okay,” he nods, squeezing my waist. “I’ll ask next time, then. But we’re being watched. I mean, I have nothing to lose, but you, on the other hand…Tara does not dish out empty threats, and I will hate for you to be sent away because of me.”
I bring my bottom lip between my teeth, biting down on it. I have never been good at playing pretend, and I am scared. Scared that this will rock my entire world.
“Stop doing that,” he whispers suddenly.
I look up at him, realizing how close our bodies are. One more move, and we’ll be...
“Doing what?” My chest is acting weird, slightly uncomfortable, as if trying to claw its way out through my chest.
“That.” He nudges towards my lips. “I just might kiss you if you keep it up.”
My breath hitches in my throat.
“But don’t worry,” he adds quickly, his upper lip raising in a smirk. “It’ll all be a part of this grand scheme we’re working on.”
My lips part, words about tumbling out amidst the burn on my cheeks, when suddenly, Jax angles his head, planting a chaste kiss on my face. There is nothing special about it. I peck my son all the time.
Yet, every inch of me freezes.
I barely take note of the reporters inching closer, their mics getting tossed in our faces. One of them screams. “Jax, is that your girlfriend?”
He doesn’t even wait a beat.
“What do you think?” he says, his voice travelling through the arena.
“You have a harem of girls at your disposal,” the reporter continues, convincingly curious. “Is she the same as all the others? Does she know she is going to get dumped soon?”
Jax turns to look at me, his eyes the darkest I have ever seen them. “It’s different with Maya,” he says slowly. “I am not letting her go anytime soon.”
And in that split second, I almost believe it too.
“Jax,” I mutter under my breath, my hand nudging him. “You cannot just…”
Jax angles his body to face me. His fingers pinch my chin lightly, gearing my face up. “Shhh,” he whispers. “You don’t have to be so worried, because I meant it.”
God help me.
Across the rink, Finn walks in through the doors, Celeste on his arms. He takes in the scene in a second, and I see the accusation in his eyes as they meet mine.
My lips move. “Finn.”
Chapter TwelveMaya's POVAt 4 PM, Lina abandons her usual duties and helps me into the black velvet gown.Eva's gown.The one I have to return in perfect condition or we're both screwed.I turn slowly in front of my mirror, taking in my reflection.The waist is snatched so tight I can barely breathe. The off-shoulder neckline sits lower than I'd like. Not revealing, exactly, but close. The train pools around my legs like dark water. One wrong step and I'll face-plant in front of Chicago's elite.Perfect."You look..." Lina gasps behind me."I look what?" I glance at her in the mirror, smiling slightly. "Come on. Say it.""Alright." She reaches for the zipper and pulls it up the rest of the way. "You look good."I give her a pointed look. "Are you joking with me? Be serious, Lina.""I am serious!" She giggles. "Just make sure nothing happens to it, or…""We're both screwed." I finish her sentence. "I've got this. Don't worry."I pair the dress with silver earrings. Knockoffs, but they
Chapter ElevenMaya's POVThe closet door swings open.I step out slowly, one foot at a time, like I'm walking through a minefield. Heat crawls up my neck. My face is burning.This is mortifying.Jax stands in the hallway, arms crossed. His eyes meet mine first, then slide past me to where Finn is emerging from the closet behind me.Finn doesn't flinch. Just stares back at Jax, jaw set, shoulders squared."What's going on here?" Jax's voice is calm. Too calm. "Everything okay?""Fine." The word comes out too fast. Too high. "Everything's fine."Jax's eyes narrow slightly. "I told you to stay away from my girl."He's looking at Finn now. The air between them crackles.Finn scoffs. He brushes past us without another word. "We're done here."Jax watches him disappear around the corner. He doesn't move until Finn's completely out of sight.Then he looks at me."What was that about, Maya?""What? You mean Finn?" I force a laugh. It sounds hollow. "He just wanted to discuss the PR strategy.
Chapter TenMaya's POVFinn pulls me into the service closet before I can react.The door clicks shut behind us, and suddenly we're surrounded by darkness. The smell of cleaning supplies burns my nose. A mop handle digs into my shoulder blade.I yank my hand away from his grip. "What is wrong with you?""We need to talk.""In a closet?" My voice comes out louder than I intended. I force it down to a harsh whisper. "What do you think people will say if they see this? You're ruining everything for me."“I don't have to be involved with you. Do you hear me? Don't you understand?Tara made it clear that…”"I don't care." His voice is too close. Too rough. "Let them say whatever they want."I can feel his breath on my face. Hot. Unsteady.The space is impossibly small. Maybe three feet wide. Our bodies are inches apart, and every time I try to step back, I hit a shelf or a bucket or the damn wall."Finn, this is insane…""I need to hear the truth, Maya.""What truth?" I push at his chest,
Chapter NineMaya's POVI couldn't sleep at night. I am anxious about how bad things could get if Ray happens to know where i live.It felt like i was standing guard for Leo, while he slept.It wasn't a nice experience. My eyelids feel very heavy, and i find myself dozing off every minute. I suddenly wished for Leo to grow up quickly. If he was bigger, we would have taken turns.The stress is on another level.I finally fall face down on my bed by 1 PM.That is when i felt less threatened. And exhaustion has won me over.I shouldn't be going to bed by this time. I'll wake up disoriented in the morning.And I have to show up early at practice at the agency tomorrow.The practice rink smells like ice and sweat and too many bodies crammed into one space.I walk in slowly, gripping my clipboard like it's the only thing keeping me upright. Reporters line the walls, cameras already raised. Of course they're here. They're always here now.The practice session today could get messy if I'm not
Chapter EightMaya's POV"You can head home early today."I look up from my desk. Tara stands in the doorway of her office, tablet in hand, looking almost... pleased?"Really?""You've earned it." She taps the screen. "Keep doing what you're doing with Jax. We're getting the exact response we need."I nod, not trusting myself to speak.The second she disappears back into her office, I grab my bag and practically sprint for the elevator. I don't want to run into Celeste. Or Jax. Or,God forbid—Finn.The doors close, and I finally exhale.Lina's surprised when I walk through the door at three in the afternoon."You're home early!" She's folding laundry on the couch, one of Leo's dinosaur shirts in her hands."Tara gave me the rest of the day off." I drop my bag by the door. "You can go. I've got it from here.""You sure?" She glances toward Leo's room, where I can hear the faint sounds of him talking to himself—probably narrating some elaborate adventure with his toys."Positive. You des
Chapter SevenMaya's POVTen steps. Twenty. Thirty.I count each step as I walk into the agency, like the numbers can shield me from what's coming. By the time I reach forty, I know it's not working. I wanted to feel safe and let my guard down.But eyes follow me down the hallway. A woman from the accounting department.Sarah? Sandra?watches me pass, her lips curled into a smirk. Two guys from the marketing department lean against the wall, whispering. One of them doesn't even try to hide his stare. Like I've commited the worst crime and they are about to throw me to the dogs.I glance down at my pants. There’s no terrible stain. Nothing out of place.So why do I feel like I'm walking naked through a firing squad?The whispers start behind me. Soft at first, then louder. I can't make out the words,I wish i could. But I catch the tone. Judgment,Amusement,Speculation.My face burns. I walk faster.Don't react. Don't give them anything.I'm about to turn the corner toward my desk when a







