Do I know better

MIRANDA’S POV

He stood by the entrance and just stared at me, his presence made my pain decrease a little bit but the pain that stayed the same was the pain I felt when he gave me the disgusted look he gave me every time he looked my way.

He didn’t say anything to me, he simply started undressing and I knew what that meant.it was as if Tomas was being forced to be intimate with me and he didn't want to. I knew making love to him was the only way I could get better, and immediately after he crashed his lips on mine it was like he silenced all the pain that was coursing through me. I threw my hands around his neck and savoured the pleasure he was giving me, for the first time I felt like we were actually making love and it wasn't some quickie or forced sex.

“Tomas, what the fuck did you do?” Cindy asked as she stormed into the room and Tomas got up and started getting dressed, i was just glad he had managed to bring me some kind of relief before we were distuurbed.

“Cindy what are you doing here?” he asked, he didn’t even seem moved by the fact that he had been caught with me

“She was in heat, I had to help her” he said and Cindy rolled her eyes and then looked at me in disgust

“So what does that have to do with you?” she asked him as she looked at me up and down

“She was in heat and I was the only one who could help her, I am her mate, after all, Cindy,” Tomas said and it was the first time he had ever referred to himself as my mate in her presence. When she heard him say that she immediately moved closer to him and started brushing his shoulder while whispering some incoherent words in his ear.

Thomas seemed to be stuck in some kind of a trance for a minute and then when he snapped out of it he had the same cold expression that he always wore all the time.

“You are right my love, I only have one mate,” he said throwing me a cold look and walking away as if nothing happened.

Cindy stood there and she continued staring me down before she followed Tomas to where ever they were going with a triumphant smirk. She clearly considered herself the biggest winner in her imaginary beef with me. With the way Tomas was going and treating me I had no desire to be with him or even be claimed by him.

After they left I got up and decided to take a bath, even if I hadn’t really enjoyed mating with Tomas I had to admit it did help and I was feeling a lot better now and a little stronger. After taking a bath I cleaned the room and then lay on the bed. I wasn’t expecting any food today, I knew that Cindy was probably going to spend the night in the palace just to keep an eye on Tomas and that meant that he would have no chance to show me any kindness.

I fell asleep early and woke up even earlier the following day, but I woke up feeling very weird. I woke up feeling a little full although I hadn’t eaten anything since the previous afternoon. I had been drinking a lot of water the whole morning thinking that maybe I was just bloated but nothing helped

“How are you feeling today?” Tomas asked as he budged into the room, as usual, I was so tired of his multiple personality disorder. One day he was nice to me and the other day he was being mean and unbearable

“I am fine,” I said without even looking at him

“And it’s all thanks to me,” he said boasting

“Yes thank you very much, Tomas, you are way too kind to me,” I said

“I know and don’t you ever forget it,” he said

“You don’t have to pretend to be nice to me, I know you hate me and I know Cindy doesn’t want you talking to me so why do you go against her wishes if you love her so much?” I asked him and he seemed to think about my question a little bit before he responded and then he sat on the bed next to me.

“I know I have been nice to you lately, in fact, I have been too nice and I can see that was a mistake because now you seem to have grown wings and you think you can talk back at me,” he said as he furrowed his eyebrows and got a little serious

“Don’t you ever forget how easily I can burst your little bubble, the recent events shouldn’t make you think you can say whatever you want and get away with it because you can’t. The recent events should instead show you that you are mine you are my little toy and I can do whatever I want with you and there is not a damn thing anyone can do about it” he said

“Not even Cindy?” I asked and he slammed my face on the pillow and I struggled to breathe

“Another thing you should know is never to mention Cindy’s name, do you hear me?” he asked

“Y....yes master,” I said as I begged to be released and then he let go

“Good, Sandra will come and give you your lunch a little later on,” he said and then walked off,

Whenever Tomas was alone he was his usual self, he was short-tempered but he was bearable. And sometimes I could see a glimmer of hope that he could love me someday and maybe accept me. I tried not to dwell on the thought of a possible future with him because at this point I didn’t know what my life span in this palace was. I didn’t know how long he planned to keep me alive and I had even begun doubting that the Alpha would even accept me as his son’s bride.

Tomas had done a good job in making me see myself as nothing and as unworthy of his love or anyone’s love for that matter. If I ever got away from here and managed to finally live my life and be free I doubted I would ever be able to forgive Tomas for all that he had done to me.

Whenever Tomas was with Cindy, it always felt like he was possessed by some kind of devil and he would change from being a little nice to me to being completely ice cold in a matter of seconds. I always felt like she had some kind of control over his emotions because of the way he always switched up in her presence. It was like she had him in the palm of her hands influencing him on how to act and what to say especially to me. I had also come to realize that Tomas was only nice to me when he wasn’t around Cindy and if I didn’t know better I would think she was a witch.

But did I know better?