Chapter 19

I shook my head for the ninth time and tried to focus my attention on my laptop, but I still can't. Namamalayan ko na lang ang sarili kong nakatulala then the cycle repeats.

I won't be able to focus my attention in this activity I'm doing as long as Jam's image keeps appearing in my head. I still can't forget how she looked at me genuinely.

Hindi ko na rin maalala kung kailan ako huling nakatanggap ng gano'ng klase ng tingin. Everything about her is genuine. She never made fun of my appearance like everybody does. Pinagtanggol pa nga niya ako noong ipinahiya ako ni Kenneth sa kanila.

Ganito lang ako, not handsome, malabong ipagmalaki dahil mataba ako, at klase ng tao na hindi kayang kontrolin ang emosyon kaya tuloy sunod-sunod ang hindi namin pagkaintindihan ni Jam. Yet, wala na akong maisip pang ibang dahilan kung bakit niya ako nagustuhan.

I can still remember the first time we met, the way she smiled at me seemed like she was a kid—innocent. Pero noong kinausap na niya ako, para