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Chapter 9
#FD09 || Bethylia Monteamor
Mabigat ang loob ko nang magising sa umaga. I feel like anytime, something might go wrong. Maski ang nakababatang kapatid ay pansin ang kakaiba kong awra nang umagang iyon.
Tamad na tamad akong gumalaw ngayong araw sa hindi malaman na dahilan. Pinilit ko ang sariling ngumiti nang makita ang nagtatanong na mata ng mga kaibigan.
"Are you fine? Why do you look so down?" Blanche asked with her inquisitive eyes.
Agad akong umiling at ngumiti. Hindi ko iyon masasagot dahil maski ako ay hindi alam kung bakit ganito ako ngayon. May mga oras talaga na magigising na lang tayo mula sa payapang pagkakatulog na mabigat ang dibdib, I guess this day is that time for me.
Panay ang tukso sa akin ni Blanche para kahit papaano ay gumaan ang mabigat na loob ko. I appreciate it, I am thankful that she's doing something to lift my mood up. Sa aming t
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Flawed Desires Chapter 10
#FD10 || Bethylia MonteamorEverything went too fast. The news traveled faster than the lightning. Pagkauwing-pagkauwi ko ng bahay ay iyon kaagad ang narinig ko mula sa ina. Even Lucy was informed.Aaren went home after an hour of calming himself. Wala akong ibang nagawa kung hindi ang yakapin siya at paulit-ulit na sabihang magiging maayos rin ang lahat. The reluctance I am feeling heighten.Maybe the reason why I am feeling reluctant was that, him losing his mother. People in this province may not like their family but I know how kind his mother is. Hindi sila palalabas na tao, ang parati lang na nakikita ay ang kanyang ama at si Aaren mismo, his mother was always at home. Sometimes, I see her at the market at salungat sa matigas na ekspresiyong palaging dala ni Aaren, ang kanyang ina ay palaging may ngiti sa labi."I wonder how her child cope up with her sudden death." Mama uttered silently.
Flawed Desires Chapter 11
#FD11 || Bethylia MonteamorIlang oras na rin ang lumipas simula nang nangyaring tagpo sa pagitan ng dalawa kong kaibigan at ni Aaren. I feel like everything's a dream. Hindi ako makapaniwala.Hindi nagtagal ang tagpong iyon dahil kinakailangan naming pumasok sa trabaho. Aaren remained silent the whole walk—probably contemplating what he has done a while ago.Maski nang maupo sa palaging kinauupuan habang naghihintay sa aking matapos sa trabaho ay tulala lang siya habang pinaglalaruan ang ibabang labi. He looks adorable, he suddenly become like a tamed lion after that event."Anong nangyari kay Pedro?" Helena asked while slightly nudging my arm.I arched a brow and pouted. "What do you mean?" I snickered."Hindi ba parang may kakaiba sa kanya?" She queried.I sneak a quick look at Aaren and smiled. "Wala namang kakaiba." I ass
Flawed Desires Chapter 12
#FD12 || Bethylia Monteamor"Are you sure you'll stay here?" Blanche asked after we sat on our designated sit again.Kanina pa nagsisimula ang programa para sa pagtatapos ng mga estudyanteng nasa huling taon na ng kolehiyo. Simula rin kanina ay panay na ang tanong ng dalawa kong kaibigan kung talaga bang ipapagpaliban ko muna ang pagpunta sa Manila."Sigurado ako, Janpzy needed company and Mama's still not allowing me." I explained."Sayang, akala ko tatlo tayong makakapunta roon at magtatrabaho sa iisang kompanya." Blanche countered."Hayaan mo na, susunod rin naman si Bethyl sa atin doon. Para kang bata diyan." Samm chuckled."Mamimiss niya kasi ako, wala na siyang kaasaran doon." I laughed."Hindi porke may Pedro ka diyan ay ginaganyan mo na ako. Kapag may nahanap akong Koreano doon, hindi ka imbitado sa kasal ko." Blanche hissed that
Flawed Desires Chapter 13
#FD13 || Bethylia MonteamorHindi ko alam kung papaanong tinawagan agad ako ng opisina ng Mayor samantalang hindi pa naman ako nagpapasa ng kahit anong papeles para sa trabahong gustong kuhanin. But I know Aaren did something for it.Ayoko sana ng ganoon pero wala na akong magagawa dahil nandito na. I was accounted as a government accountant.Janpzy feels guilty knowing that she's one of the reason why I choose to stay here for a while. Wala namang kaso sa akin iyon, at mayroon pang mas malalim na dahilan kung bakit nanatili ako rito, hindi lang dahil sa kanya kung hindi dahil na rin sa pamilya ko at kay Aaren."Ate.." Lucy called after I turned my back for work.Agad ko siyang hinarap nang may malaking ngiti sa labi."Goodluck!" She exclaimed with a fighting pose.I giggled and walk towards her to tousled her hair.
Flawed Desires Chapter 14 (part 1)
#FD14 || Bethylia Monteamor"Women are the one who cooks for their husband, you don't need to learn. I'll do it for you." I bursted out unconsciously that made him look at me with amusement.Hindi makapaniwalang nakatitig sa akin ang nakababatang kapatid at si Aaren na laglag pa ang panga ngayon. Maski ako ay natigilan sa nasabi ko. That comes out naturally on my mouth, hindi pinag-isipan, kusang nasabi ng bibig at walang pinagsisisihan."Come again?" Aaren mumbled that I didn't catch."Huh?""Nothing, I'm just.. Why are you doing this to me?"I look at him confusely as I sat beside him. Ramdam ko ang pagkatigil niya nang sandaling magdikit ang aming mga braso habang umaayos ako ng upo."What am I doing?""This.. everything." He whispered at himself.Nangingiting hinarap ko siya
Flawed Desires Chapter 14 (part 2)
That statement made my heart clench in sadness. Ang pagsisising iyon ay mananatili na lamang na pagsisisi dahil wala na ang kanyang ina. Alam kong mahirap sa parte niya iyon. Losing your Mom with many what ifs is and I should have is truly heart breaking. Alam kong mahirap iyon sa parte niya lalo na't wala na ang inang dapat ay gagawan niya noon.That's why I am doing my very best to show my Mom how I love her dearly and tell her that everyday on every circumstances and if I have a chance. Ayokong may pagsisihan kung darating man ang araw na pati siya ay babawiin na sa amin. Naramdaman ko na iyon sa namayapang ama. Ayoko nang maulit pa uli sa ina."I am not a good child, I am close to her but I am not sweet, that's too far from my personality." He started. Alam kong iyon ang sasabihin niya, seeing how he acts towards people shows how he's not really affectionate and likes to hide his true feelings."I have many reg
Flawed Desires Chapter 15
#FD15 || Bethylia Monteamor"I'm sorry. "That's the only thing he could utter after hurting me. Ni hindi ko magawang makatingin sa kanya dahil bukod sa pisikal na sakit ay mas lamang ang emosyonal na sakit na nararamdaman ko.We don't even have some relationship right now but he can already do this. Ganoon ba ako kahinang babae para ganituhin niya? Siguro nga oo. Dahil hinahayaan ko siyang gawin ang mga bagay na alam kong mali at nakakasakit sa akin.Maybe this is one of the reason why I am still hiding my true feelings at him. I am afraid he'll do something more than this."Bethylia.." He stuttered.Humugot ako ng malalim na hininga bago siya muling hinarap. My face is void of any emotions but tears from my eyes are unstoppably falling in my cheeks, kahit na dapat ay magalit at sinisinghalan siya ngayon ay hindi ko iyon ginawa.Ma
Flawed Desires Chapter 16 (part 1)
#FD16 || Bethylia Monteamor "I badly want to kiss you right now." Nahigit ko ang hininga sa narinig. I felt a twist on my stomach as he slowly leaned his face closer to mine. Bahagya kong na-i-atras ang ulo at mas lalong napasandal sa sofa. His calloused hand cupped my crimson cheeks while his sombre eyes are staring deeply at me. "Fuck permission, but please allow me to." He hissed as he tightly close his eyes in frustration. Why is he even asking? It's making me feel uncomfortable and the ambiance awkward. Kailangan ko pa bang sabihing ituloy niya o itango ang ulo ko? I don't know what to do. All I know is I remarkably want to kiss him too. I can't help but gasped when he suddenly close the distance between our faces and becovered my parted lips. I clench my fist as he gently pinch my waist and carried me onto his lap, sti
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