Mag-log inDark Romance Triggerwarnung: In diesem Buch kommen folgende Themen auf, die triggern könnten: - Stalking -Gewalt/Belästigung - Mord - Depressionen - Mental Breakdown - Folter - Verstümmelung (noch nicht sicher) - Entführung - Inhaftierung - Gewalt Die Liste wird in Laufe des Schreibprozesses immer wieder aktualisiert. Ich werde versuchen, wirklich alle Triggerpunkte aufzuzählen, sollte mir das nicht gelingen, schreibt in den Kommis, welches ich vergessen habe. Danke. "Er war ihre Zuflucht und ihr Untergang." Ariana glaubte nicht an Märchen. Nicht in einer Welt, in der goldene Käfige glänzen und Dornen sich wie Versprechen um das Herz liegen. Doch dann traf sie ihn. Zac: Gefährlich, verboten, vollkommen. Mit einem Blick brachte er ihre Welt zum Beben. Mit einer Berührung ließ er sie vergessen, wem sie gehörte. Aber Liebe hat ihren Preis. Und in ihrer Welt zahlt man ihn mit Blut. Zwischen Macht und Verrat, zwischen Freiheit und Pflicht beginnt Ariana zu erkennen, dass selbst der zarteste Flügelschlag ein Sturm sein kann, wenn er für die falsche Liebe schlägt. Ein Schmetterling, der zu fliegen wagt. Ein Mann, der sie retten will oder brechen. Und ein Kuss, der alles verändert. ⸻
view more"Bend over."
The words hung in the air like smoke, curling around Marie's consciousness with an intoxicating weight that made her knees buckle. Her heart hammered against her ribs as she stood before the massive desk, her skin still prickling from the feel of his gaze on her. She stood frozen, her chest rising and falling in shallow breaths as she processed what he'd just commanded.
The afternoon Miami sun streamed through the floor-to-ceiling windows, casting golden rays across half-finished canvases and paint-splattered drop cloths, but her attention was fixed entirely on the man before her. The scent of turpentine and expensive cologne hung in the air of the studio, a heady mix that was pure Lucas Nicolas.
Lucas stood beside his desk, his dark hair slightly disheveled, those piercing blue eyes locked onto her with an intensity that made her feel like prey caught in a predator's gaze. His neatly trimmed stubble framed a jaw that clenched with barely restrained tension. He towered over her frame and the way he looked at her made her forget every rational thought she'd ever had.
"Wh-what?" she eventually stammered, her voice emerging as little more than a whisper.
Lucas didn't repeat himself. Instead, he shrugged off his black leather jacket and tossed it carelessly onto his chair, the muscles in his forearms flexing as he moved. Marie's gaze betrayed her, drifting downward to the unmistakable outline straining against his dark jeans. Her mouth went dry.
"You want it, Marie, don’t you?" he asked, his voice a low rumble that sent vibrations straight to her core.
There was no uncertainty in his tone, only a dark, knowing confidence that made her feel utterly exposed. His eyes, usually so sharp and dismissive, now burning with a raw, unmistakable hunger. He watched her, his gaze tracing the path her eyes had just taken.
Her eyes snapped back up to meet his. The corner of his mouth twitched, not quite a smile, but something far more dangerous. He knew exactly what she was thinking.
"Bend over and let me in. You ask for it," he persisted, his tone brooking no argument.
Nicolas pulled his cufflinks off one by one, the small clicks echoing in the quiet room, and methodically rolled up his sleeves, revealing the corded muscles of his forearms, lightly dusted with dark hair.
Marie's legs moved before her mind could catch up. A terrifying shiver ran down her spine as she placed her palms flat against the cool and bent over for him, presenting herself like an offering. The world narrowed to the feeling of his presence behind her, the heat of his body radiating across her skin.
Flashes of the night before filled her head, a dizzying carousel of images. The taste of his whiskey on his lips, the scrape of his stubble against her thighs, the way he had growled her name as he laid her down into the mattress, his hands on her lower back, his breath hot against her neck.
Her forbidden obsession had not disappointed. If anything, he'd exceeded every fantasy she'd constructed over the past ten years, every stolen glance, every secret dream she'd buried deep in her heart. If she'd been looking for reasons why Lucas Nicolas wasn't the right man to obsess over for another decade, entangling with him had been the wrong call entirely. It had only poured gasoline on the fire.
"This is what you want, right?" he asked again, a slight edge creeping into his voice as his hands slid beneath the hem of her skirt, bunching the fabric higher. His fingers traced the sensitive skin of her inner thighs, moving higher with deliberate slowness.
"Nicolas…" Marie breathed, instantly going weak in the knees. A shiver cascaded down her spine and she gripped the edge of the desk tighter.
"Answer me, Marie," he whispered in his husky voice, his lips brushing against her cheek as his arm wrapped around her middle, his strong hand splaying flat against her stomach, pulling her back against him.
She was drowning in him and she had no desire to resurface. She didn’t answer with words. Instead, she turned her head, capturing his lips in a searing kiss that was more demanding than pleas. Her legs wrapped around his waist without a second thought as he spun her around, her back hitting the desk.
She pulled him down onto her, their bodies colliding as they claimed each other's lips readily, opening up for one another like lovers do, their hands pulling at each other's shirts, desperate for skin. As his lips travelled down her neck, his hands grabbing through the thin fabric of her top, she bit down on her own lip, willing herself to be quiet. But a low, desperate moan escaped her.
“Please, Nicolas. Don’t stop. I want you," she whimpered.
"You have no idea how long I've wanted to do this," he growled
Her mind reeled. He had thought about her?
Being the daughter of the wealthy Allen family meant no one expected her to have a brain. She was just a pretty arm-candy. Her brother, Andrew, was her idol, not just because he was a brilliant businessman, but because he had carved his own path, taking the reins of the family’s Miami empire.
Marie just wanted to make her brother proud and prove she was more than just a spoiled brat he thought she was. But all she had ever been to the world was a "brat" who needed a babysitter all the time.
A couple of months back, she would never have imagined she'd end up here, bent over the desk of the art world's most notorious bad boy, her body aching for him with an intensity that bordered on madness.
All this started a month back…
Marie was lying on her bed in her brother's Miami penthouse. She was supposed to be studying, scrolling through her phone and desperately trying to ignore the vivid Nicolas dream that had plagued her sleep
Dreams of him.
"Marie! Get down here right now!" Andrew's voice echoed up the staircase, sounding far too energetic for a Monday morning.
Marie groaned, pushing the completely inappropriate thoughts out of her head and shoved her phone under her pillow, pressing her palms against her flushed cheeks.
“Get a grip, Marie, stop it,” she told herself. "I'm coming!" she yelled back, smoothing down her oversized t-shirt before rushing downstairs.
"What's going on?" she asked, looking between Andrew and his laptop.
Andrew looked up, his face split in a grin. He threw an arm around her shoulder, pulling her into a crushing side-hug. "Better than anything you could imagine! I just got a massive project, a new development deal that’s going to take me across three states for the next several months.”
Marie’s jaw dropped. “Months? You’re leaving Miami for months?” The excitement hit her first, but then a wave of panic crashed down. "Wait... what about me? My classes? My exams are coming up.”
Andrew's expression softened. "We've already worked it out, sweetheart. Mom and dad are in Texas and we know you can't just drop everything in your first year. So, you’re staying back.”
"Alone? In this huge house?" Marie blinked.
"Absolutely not," Andrew said firmly. "We wouldn't even dream of leaving you without supervision. You’re a brat, Marie, and you need to be taken care of. I talked to Nicolas. He has that massive house overlooking the bay and he agreed to look after you, until I get back.”
Marie's heart stopped. "Nicolas? As in... your Nicolas? Your best friend? The painter?"
"The very one," Andrew said, completely oblivious to the fact that his sister's internal organs were currently melting. “He’s got tons of space, his security is top-notch and he’s like a brother to me. I trust him with my life. He'll keep you out of trouble.”
A wicked, reckless spark ignited deep in Marie's chest. ‘Safe’ was the last word that came to mind when she thought of Lucas Nicolas. The man whose wild, evocative paintings sold for millions, whose personal life was just as messy and scandalous. Her mind immediately conjured images of his broad shoulders, his cold and unreadable stares, the dangerous quiet power he carried with effortless grace.
For six years, she had harbored a silent, desperate crush on him since she had first laid eyes on him at one of Andrew's parties. She'd hidden it behind polite smiles and careful distance, convinced he only saw her as his best friend's little sister. But now Andrew was practically delivering her to his front door.
"But why him?" Marie managed to ask, fighting to keep her voice steady. "What about staying on campus? Or with a friend? Or with Aunt Stacy?"
Andrew shook his head. "No way. You need someone looking after you, so you can’t stay on campus alone. Then Aunt Stacy’s condo is way too small and you know it. When I asked Nicolas, he said he'd be happy to have you. He's always been fond of you, Marie.”
“Fond! Right. Like a responsibility. Like Andrew's bratty little sister who needed to be babysat.” She made a face with the thought.
But then a different thought which was dangerous, thrilling and entirely wicked began to take root in her mind. Her pulse started to beat to a wild rhythm.
Staying with Nicolas.
Living under his roof.
All those years of unrequited fantasy, all those forbidden feelings locked away in the deepest part of her heart and now, her own brother was practically delivering her to his front door.
"Marie? You okay? You look a little pale," Andrew frowned.
She forced a smile. "Fine. I'm fine. Just... surprised."
"So it's settled. We start packing your things tonight. You move into Nicolas's place next week," Andrew said cheerfully, pulling Marie from her spiraling thoughts.
Next week.
Seven days.
Marie's breath hitched. Seven days until she'd be living with the man she'd spent a decade obsessing over. This was her shot. Her desperate heart had just been handed the keys to her ultimate fantasy and she was going to take it.
No matter how dangerous the game might become.
ArianaIch hatte seit unserem Streit nicht mehr mit Zac telefoniert. Ich hatte ihm nur Nachrichten mit >Guten MorgenSchlaf gut„Ich bitte Sie einmal durch das Gerät zu laufen."Ich nickte und ging durchs Scangerät. Es piept
Ariana„Was ist passiert?", fragte mich Charlotte am nächsten Tag. „Wir haben uns gestritten."„Oh nein, Süße", meinte sie mitleidig. „Wir kommen keinen Schritt weiter in unsere Beziehung. Unsere Wünsche sind anders und es klappt nicht."Sie nahm meine Hand in ihre. „Erklär mir das genauer. Vielleicht kann ich helfen."„Er gibt alles und ich bin nicht bereit, alles zu geben."Sie sah mich lange Sekunden an. „Du willst nicht alles geben?", fragte sie langsam. „Noch nicht. Es ist zu frisch. Er versucht, alles richtig zu machen und macht zu viel und ich komme nicht hinterher."Sie nickte langsam. „Dann lass ihn machen. Versuch es einmal auf meine Bitte hin."Ich sah sie an. „Ich kann seine Liebe nicht ausnutzen."„Nein, aber du hast gute Chancen, einen anderen Verlag zu bekommen, das hat Ric heute Morgen auch gesagt. Ja, Zac war angespannt, aber er hat eine Nacht darüber geschlafen und sieht ein, dass er dich überfordert."„Ich habe zu viel im Leben verloren. Ich habe Angst."„Ich wei
ArianaCharlotte hatte mich nach Hause gefahren und war kurz mit hoch gekommen, da sie das Bad benutzen wollte. Ich wollte etwas tolles für Zac und mich kochen. Ich holte schon mal Nudeln aus dem Schrank und wollte gerade das Wasser auf das Herd setzten als ich einen Anruf bekam. Es war Zara. Ich ging dran. „Hey."„Hey Ariana, ich muss kurz mit dir sprechen", meinte sie. „Ja", sagte ich völlig aufgeregt. „Leider müssen wir dir absagen, aber ich möchte dich einmal bitten morgen vorbeizukommen, über dein Manuskript möchte ich gerne mit dir sprechen."Ich war sprachlos für einen Moment, dann fasste ich mich. „Bist du dir sicher?"„Worüber?", fragt sie. „Über die Absage."„Ja, es tut mir wirklich leid, aber dein Buch hatte nicht gepasst."„Weiß Zac davon?"„Ja, ist alles in Ordnung? Ich weiß eine Absage zu bekommen ist schwer."„Nein darum ging es nicht. Er hat mir eine Nachricht geschrieben und gratuliert das mein Buch gedruckt wird."„Oh nein", meinte sie mitleidig. „Er wollte besti
Zac Die Tage vergingen im Flug, der Ball hatte mir einen neuen Millionendeal eingebracht. Ich hatte Öl für meine Waffenfabrik zugesichert bekommen und schon war der Ball das Geschäftshighlight des Jahres. Jeden Mittwoch kamen alle Manager meiner verschiedenen Firmen ins Hauptsitz der Kings Empire und gaben mir Bericht. So behielt ich den Überblick über alles. Ich schaute auf meinem Terminkalender. Zara, meine Managerin des Kings Publishing Houses wäre als nächstes dran und dann würde der Scheichs Manager aus Qatar einen Termin mit mir haben. Wir hatten und aufs Lunch geeinigt. Es klopfte und Zara trat in den Raum. „Nach dir habe ich einen sehr wichtigen Termin, deswegen müssen wir uns beeilen."„In Ordnung Boss. Es ist so, dass du mir sagen sollst welches der zwei Manuskripte ich ins Sommerprogramm nehmen soll. Die anderen Bücher haben wir ja in den letzten Wochen besprochen und jetzt muss ich das letzte wissen."„Das von Ariana", sagte ich schnell und tippte schnell weiter auf der
ArianaDa ich etwas sauer auf Charlotte war und Elvin mich so lieb gefragt hatte, schlief ich die Nacht auf seinem Sofa. Er hatte eine eigene kleine Wohnung ohne Mitbewohner, die seine Eltern finanzierten. Wir hatten alle früher auf derselben Straße gewohnt, auf dem selben Spielplatz gespielt und s
Ariana„Was ist passiert?", fragte Elvin in einem sehr sanften Ton. „Sie haben sich vertragen", meinte ich knapp. Sie hatte mir voller Freude erklärt, was für ein Missverständnis gestern entstanden ist und wie glücklich sie doch war. „Ich glaube, dass es gut so ist. Natürlich sollten die Umstände
"The world paused when I saw your face, Like my heart already knew its place."ZacMein Unternehmen zog meine Seele langsam aber sicher aus mir heraus. Frederico hatte recht, ich musste mehr Last abgeben als weitere auf mich zu nehmen. Ich wartete nur darauf, dass er endlich soweit war, auch einen
ArianaAm Abend klopfte es an der Tür und ich musste die Tür runzeln. War etwa Madame Lou R'uar hier, um die monatliche Kontrolle zu machen, wie wir ihr Apartment hielten? Sie kam eigentlich immer angekündigt. Ich rappelte mich auf, richtete mein eingelaufenes T-Shirt und legte meinen Eisbecher zur











