LOGINCrawls out of hiding with a sheepish smile 😭 First of all, I am SO incredibly sorry for the radio silence and the month-long hiatus! Life completely took over. For those who don't know, I just officially moved all the way from the Philippines to the UAE! ✈️🇦🇪 Between surviving the absolute hell-bound mountain of visa paperwork, embassy attestations, and passing through the terror of immigration with my heart in my throat, it’s been an absolute whirlwind. But I made it! I’m finally settling into my new environment and starting my new job as a kindergarten teacher assistant (wish me luck with the little chaos monsters!). Thank you all so much for your patience, love, and for sticking by this story while I relocated my entire life. We are officially back on track—enjoy the chapter! ❤️✨
//VESPER//I woke to a feather-light touch on my cheek.It trailed down to my jaw. To the column of my neck. To the hollow of my throat. Down to the valley of my chest. I kept my breathing slow and even. Eyes closed. Refused to flinch, even though my skin was on fire everywhere he touched.His thumb dipped into the hollow of my belly button. Circled once, and then twice.“Your pulse just changed luv,” he murmured into my ear. “You’re awake.”I didn’t answer.His lips found my jaw. Then my throat. His thumb pressed down hard into my belly button, and began to drag slowly through the thin cotton of my shirt, over my stomach, down to the waistband of my underwear.I bit the inside of my cheek, refusing to give him a sound. I would not—He slipped his hand beneath the elastic. Two fingers slid through the slick heat between my legs, spreading me open. He found my clit with his thumb and pinched.My back arched off the mattress before I could stop it. A high and broken sound tore out of my
//VESPER//The examination room was at the end of the hall.White walls. White floors. A single metal table bolted to the ground, a chair beside it with leather straps hanging from the arms like sleeping snakes. The air was cold, sterile, smelling of antiseptic and chemical that made my eyes water.I stopped in the doorway.The wire, I thought. Under my pillow. Recording nothing but silence.I had walked away from it. Left it behind. All that careful defiance, that illusion of control—gone the moment I closed my bedroom door.Dr. Aris moved past me, unconcerned. She busied herself at a small counter, arranging vials, needles, things I didn’t have names for. Her movements were unhurried, practiced, the movements of someone who had done this a thousand times.“You can sit,” she said, gesturing to the chair. “Or stand, if you prefer. The choice is yours.”The choice.I looked at the straps. The needles. The cold white walls.No one was listening. No one was recording. I was alone with a
//VESPER//The device sat in my palm like a dead thing.I had been staring at it for an hour—maybe longer. The black metal casing was warm now from my skin, the tiny light dormant, waiting for my thumb to bring it back to life. Detective Nora’s last message still glowed on my phone screen, unread for three days.[FROM: Detective Nora—Vesper. Please. Just tell me you’re alive.]I should have felt something reading that. Guilt, maybe. Gratitude. The ghost of the woman I used to be would have wept.Instead, I felt the hollow space in my chest yawn wider.The West Wing was silent. No cameras here—or at least, none I could find. Azrael had given me this room deliberately, isolating me from my mother. Not as a kindness. As a test. He wanted to see what I would do with space he couldn’t watch.I turned the wire over in my fingers.The morning light slanted through the windows, catching the dust motes floating in the air. My room was beautiful—all pale gray walls and white linens, a vase of f
//VESPER//I stood before the empty frame until my neck ached from looking up. The spotlight carved a perfect circle on the wall where my portrait would hang—where my soul would hang, according to Azrael’s whispered promise. He had left me there with the weight of that intention, my wrist still bearing the ghost of the handcuff’s pressure.The basement breathed around me. Stone and copper and something darker—the accumulated scent of lives ended with surgical patience.“You’re still here.”I didn’t turn. I had heard his footsteps on the stairs, had felt his presence fill the room before he spoke. Azrael moved to stand beside me, close enough that I could feel the heat of him through my clothes, close enough that I could smell the sandalwood clinging to his skin.“I’m still here,” I said.I looked at him then. At the pale eyes that held no mercy, no guilt, no hesitation. At the hands that had killed for me, drugged for me, built a cage around me so beautiful I had walked into it mysel
//VESPER//The handcuff clicked open, but I didn’t move my wrist. Azrael stood beside the bed, the small key still between his fingers, watching me with that patient, ancient gaze. My arm ached from the position, yet I let it hang there, suspended, unwilling to be the first to claim freedom.“Your mother is asking for you,” he said.The words hit my chest like a blow. Right, my mother. I sat up too quickly, blood rushing, the room tilting. Azrael’s hand steadied my elbow—dry palm, precise pressure, no more warmth than necessary.“She’s awake?”“For several hours now.” He released me and stepped back, straightening his cuffs. “I’ve told her you’re recovering from a minor illness. She believes it. The fiction pleases her.”I swung my legs over the edge of the bed. I smoothed my shirt automatically, a futile gesture as I tried to make myself presentable, then followed him through the doorway.The East Wing smelled different. Sunlight poured through windows that faced the rose garden, and
//VESPER//I reached for my clothes with hands that wouldn’t stop shaking. The fabric of my shirt felt foreign against my skin. I pulled it over my head without looking at him, my fingers fumbling with the hem. The jeans came next, and I stepped into them, swaying slightly as I zipped it up, the sound too loud in the enclosed space.The car started moving. I didn’t remember him starting the engine. I stared out the window at the passing darkness. My reflection stared back at me—hair disheveled, lips swollen, eyes too wide—so I looked away. The silence between us felt heavy, textured, like something I could reach out and touch. It pressed against my eardrums, filled the hollow spaces inside my chest.I tried to count the seconds. I lost track somewhere after two hundred. My body felt detached from itself, moving through space without my conscious direction. When the car finally slowed, I blinked and found us approaching wrought iron gates that loomed against the night sky. They opened
//VESPER//I stared at the empty doorway for I don’t know how long. One second, ten maybe. A minute? My brain wasn’t working right. All I could think was that he was just here, his fingers still ghosted on my face, and I let him touched me.I’ve been so paralyzed I didn’t even blinked.Then my sens
//VESPER//The box smelled like someone else’s secrets. Rotting ones.I sliced through the tape, already regretting every choice that landed me here. Thirty-two thousand dollars a year to digitize trauma in a concrete coffin. My mother would be so proud. At least her daughter is finally useful, con
//VESPER//“Wait!” I yelled, finally strength to move my feet.“Vesper, don’t!”Frankie’s shout faded behind as I sprinted outside, immediately lashed by the rain and blurring my vision. I looked left toward the alley, right toward the main street and to the sidewalk. No car or sprinting figure, n
//VESPER//I’d been staring at the bullet for ten minutes. It was small enough to fit in my palm, but that didn’t make it less catastrophic.Taking it to the police station was the smartest thing to do. To file a report that someone broke into my place while I was sleeping and left me a bullet wit







