I sit annoyed at myself for letting it happen. More that I did, I was the one who leaned forward and kissed him.
I'm even more annoyed at myself that I then freaked out and shouted at him, which makes me look like some crazy woman. I need to keep my distance from Diesel, I have no idea what he is trying to gain or wanting to gain from me.
He wouldn't be the first man to proposition me since my dad died, and most of them just wanted in and to gain power. To lose their debt and forever have immunity. None of them actually wanted to be with me. Sure, they liked that it meant they got to share a bed with me, but not one took their time to find out who I am.
No, they went straight to business talk, asking about things they had no rights to. They tried to find out information from my point of what they would do if I was to accept their proposal of marriage.
I can't let just any man in, I would rather marry someone who I hated and wouldn't have a relationship wi
I watch amazed, while some people see Serena as weak and nothing more than a woman. So many respect her. So many follow her rules and see her as a woman of power.A woman. Those words scold me.I'm not a woman, not to Diesel. I am seen as a child. So maybe if I follow Serena's lead, that will change?Okay, so coming to Serena was partly because I knew she got into Diesel's head. So, if I spend time with her, surely, I will learn how she did it?She made Diesel want her. Not want, crave, and need. I hadn't seen Diesel that affected by a woman before. All my efforts were thrown in the trash.His words are still in my mind. Selfish, whore, child. I tried space, I tried to be cute, I tried to act badass. I tried to pursue him by stripping. Nothing works!I keep telling myself that maybe I am wrong, but if I was wrong and he really doesn't like me, why would almost fuck me twice? Somewhere in his mind, he likes me.That makes me think of m
I woke to a headache; I drank too much last night, but it was a fun night.The way Diesel is and everything he said to Jessie made it sound like she is childish. She isn't. I could tell that last night.She is wild and crazy, sure, but not childish. I guess her wild and crazy side just comes across as that to him.It was a good night, she spoke a lot about Diesel, and it gave an insight into him that I didn't know. To her, Diesel is a man who is looking for love but has a dark past that no one knows.She has no idea I know the guy she means is Diesel. Yet, she wouldn't mention his past, which has me wondering just who Diesel is?She told me he never does serious relationships. Just fucks random women for fun and a release.Everything she said has me wondering if he pushes Jessie away through fear? Then uses the excuse he sees her as his little sister? He tried getting me into bed using his charm and directness.Is that also a cover? D
I storm out of the building, my body shaking.I'm more than hurt by her words. Everything she said is wrong, she assumes she knows the truth, but not many people do know the truth.Climbing onto the bike I kick it started and ride to the club. I need a drink, I walk straight through and grab a drink, before sitting opposite Rooster. His head instantly shakes and I know the look on his face."What did I say?" His words are harsh although I know he doesn't mean them to be. "I told you." He looks at me smugly, and all I can do is nod."It's nothing. What is the plan with Jessie?" I look at him waiting."No idea I can't find out anything it is like whoever she works for holds enough power for no one to say where she is working."I nod while considering it my eyes glancing up to him. "You don't think she would work somewhere stupid again do you?""No! Come on Diesel, you know Jessie." His words are loud yet there is doubt in th
I still can't believe what happened between me and Diesel. I hurt him, the words I said were cruel. sure he is a whore. The issue is I mentioned his past, I said he is punishing women because of his ex. I was wrong, I saw the pain. I saw the tears, I don't blame him for ignoring my apology. The knock pushes me from my thoughts. "yes" I call out and watch as Dwayne walks in. "Have you seen Jessie? She didn't come in today." "No, she had mentioned having today off, I'm guessing she decided to. It's her dad's birthday. She spoke to me last week. I told her she could have today off. She was reluctant." "Let me guess, she is still avoiding them as much as possible." He laughs and I nod. "Other than a quick check-in to say she's alive she doesn't see them. Seems she has realised that working and having her place, gives her freedom, she's no longer restricted by her dad and Diesel's rules." She has changed these past few weeks. Grown-up. "Yeah, but it didn't work. She's still going thro
I watch as she rushes past me. Grabbing my phone, I hit the number.“Anything?” I hear Rooster's worried voice.“No sight yet. Rooster, she has been working for Jessie!” I hear him swear, moving I walk to her desk. Maybe there is something here that will help me find her?“Don’t leave there without Jessie, whatever you had going on with Serena clearly fucking came at us!” He hangs up, I don’t blame him, I did something and Serena wanted revenge, is Jessie the revenge?I look at the screen, and as I go to close the file I stop seeing Serena’s name. I have two options. I search for something about Jessie and hope I get lucky, or I read this. Maybe there is something I can use to get Serena to tell me where Jessie is?Closing my eyes, I click the files, slowly flicking through the images I stop. It is the same picture of Serena I saw. The guy, the ring everything is the same. I keep scrolling, stopping at a picture, and my eyes widen.“Shit.” I know I should stop, fuck, this is too close
I walk back into my office and sit down. I freaked out, I saw that file open and my heart burst into flames. He had no right to look at it, even if it was his name! No, he didn’t. It is my personal stuff, and he just went straight ahead and opened the file and looked through it all.Even in my annoyance and anger for Diesel, I couldn’t just ignore Jessie. I saw the panic and worry in his eyes, I know she is missing. So I plan to do everything to get her back safe. Hell, I have every single person looking for her and helping in some way.I removed my own guards so that there would be more people to help. Foolish, especially Diesel mentioned Rooster is on his way. I just hope he can see past his own bullshit excuses and beliefs to see I wouldn’t ever hurt Jessie.My head falls forward onto the desk, I need today to end. I need a break. Glancing back up I look at the image, guilt, and sadness flood through me. Slowly I scroll through the photos my hand stopping as I see one.My dad and J
I stay quiet, just waiting. Then I hear him, the sound of his boots hitting the floor, he isn’t going slow. Moving, I glance to look up. My eyes met his. “Look, she has everyone searching, literally everyone Rooster, it isn’t her.” I hope, hell I can’t even say it and be confident. “Someone has her Diesel, and that is my little girl.” He stands glaring at me. I go to speak but he stops me. “Weird isn’t it? You get caught up with Serena, right around the same time Jessie goes awol, no one willing to tell us where she worked, where she lived nothing. Can you say with one hundred per cent confidence Serena has no idea where Jessie is, or what is happening?” He looks at me waiting. “I can tell you Rooster, I had a glimpse into Serena’s past, the truth, and I don’t think she is anything like her father.” “You didn’t answer, so you’re not sure, there is still some doubt left?” He looks at me waiting. We turn hearing the smashing, followed by Serena’s screams. Rooster looks at me confus
Silence has filled the room since Rooster’s last statement, and he is right, Jessie isn’t hiding. If she wanted to scare her dad and Diesel, she could have just hidden in her apartment.The door swings open, and Dwayne stood with papers.“We have this, it is her phone records, she was meeting someone the night she disappeared. Also, the footage shows someone coming back with her, but we can’t see who. They are looking for anything from when they leave.”“Do you know the number?” I look at him, taking the papers.“No, some guy she called Rob, the number is just ringing.”My eyes glance down at the paper. “Shit.” I feel sick.“Shit? What is it?” Rooster looks at me annoyed.“Mr Prent is Rob. The number though, I can’t explain. I know it, but the person is gone.” I thought he had gone.“So this Mr Prent, where is he?