It's been two weeks since the pizzeria's incident and I have been ignoring Ezra completely. I have two reasons to push Ezra away from me, one being him seeing me as an only friend and the second reason! It has some time for it but it was the main reason I am being distant with Ezra.
He is not good for me, I just can't be just a friend to him other than being someone's girlfriend. Ezra is the reason I never dated. When I was in school he threatened every boy in my school and fought with some and from then I decided to never try.
Some may wonder why my world revolved around Ezra. When I met Ezra he was this lonely silent boy with hard features on his face. I didn't understand why he is like that but as time went I understood why he has to be mature at an early age.
He comes from a toxic family where the parents always fight with each other and don't care for him. He doesn't have anyone in his life other than his parents and he doesn't know what true love is.
I was always with him, no matter what. Ezra is so goal-oriented, passionate, and hard-working. I love these qualities in him. These things made me fall for him but now I need to get away from him to keep my heart safe.
" Fay! Ezra is waiting for you downstairs. Come on." My mom knocked on my door. Everyone knows that I am avoiding Ezra and they didn't ask me the reason why.
" Ask him to leave mama, I am not feeling well." I collapsed my body on the bed and covered it with the duvet.
I was avoiding him at the University too when he came to pick Mitch up. I don't want to see him, if I see him then I will melt easily. It's better to be like this and I feel somewhat relaxed because of not feeling anything other than numb.
" Baby girl? Are you in?" I heard Ezra's voice in front of my room and I sat upright in my head hearing him after this long. I have never been away from him ever. Tears pooled in my eyes hearing him, maybe I am being hard on him and myself.
Am I too selfish to think only about myself? He doesn't know how to love, why I am being so heartless now just because I love him more than a friend. I don't know what to do but now I know what I have to do.
I slowly took steps towards the door, tears streaming down my eyes and my hair is in disarray but I don't care about my looks now. I just want to hug the hell out of him and inhale his deep rich chocolate scent which I crave.
I opened the door and launched myself into his arms hugging him so tight like my life depended on him and yeah in a sense it is dependent on him. He is my first and last love and I'll never love someone as I love him.
" I...am so...s...orry Ezra, s...sor...ryy." I cried in his arms hiccuping and I don't care if I am ruining his shirt, what means is me being in his arms surrounded by his scent and warmth. He is my home, this is enough for me for now. I don't want anything for now but what I am gonna do is hard on me and him. I just hope everything will be fine at last.
"Shhh…..Baby girl, it's okay. It's okay." His arms were around me and he buried his nose in my neck inhaling my scent and I know I am the calming effect for him but I don't know if I am his home or not.
" I will never push you away Ezra, I am sorry, and I….I missed you so much." I cried out some more, uttering those words and meaning them. His arms around me tightened some more making me feel warm and relaxed.
" I know baby girl and I missed you too and I am sorry for that day. I know you are embarrassed that day because of me but my intention was not that." He released me, looking at my teary-eyed face which is red due to crying finding answers for my actions.
" It's okay Ezra and please forget about it. I don't want to talk about it." I moved towards my room after saying that it's okay for whatever happened that day.
"Hmm, okay." He hummed following me inside my room and sitting on my bed. My mind always plays dirty scenarios in my head whenever Ezra sits on my bed. I have to cleanse my head with holy water. I grumbled inwardly at my thoughts before taking the chair to sit in front of him.
" so, what were you up to?" Ezra asked, looking at me with those Unique green eyes which are so deep and mesmerizing. I cleared my throat before answering.
" umm, nothing! Just university stuff, what about you?" I asked knowing that he is busy preparing for one of the events held by his company. His family owns an Ad agency and they manage every brand and the upcoming fashion event is them launching the winter clothes collection.
" Same work and planning the event which is going to be on the 14th December." He removed his phone from his pocket which is vibrating non-stop.
" Oh, yeah I forgot." I lied to show him that I don't have any plan to attend or interest. His face changed seeing the contents of the phone and his head is not here but on the person who sent texts and called him.
" uh! What?" See I already guessed it right.
" Nothing, I said nothing Ezra," I said, giving him a small smile. Covering my hurt behind it. Maybe it is just a worktext or calls and not from the person I am thinking of. Still why I am bothered by it. I already made up my mind that I don't care anymore. He is just my friend and nothing more. I will stick by it.
" Okay but you are coming to the event and I am not going to listen to any excuses and if you want to bring your annoying friend then bring her too." He grumbled the last part before standing, ready to leave.
" But Ezra, I have tons of work and I can't come." I pleaded knowing it's not going to work but still a girl can plead to save her life, haha note my sarcasm.
" No way baby girl, I have already selected your dress and it will be delivered on that day and we are going to wear the same color." He hugged me before hurriedly running out of my room downstairs, not giving me any chance to say No or give him any excuses.
Ughh he is so annoying, why do I have to get a best friend like him? It's so tiring to attend Ezra's rich events. I can't even fake a smile at these events but this time I will have Joanna with me. It's going to be fun with her and I can't wait for it. I squealed before going into my room and launching myself on the bed and slept the day away.
I hope everything goes as I think and smoothly without any problems. I am looking forward to this event.
EZRA'S POV: (##Contains Mature Content##)18+I feel so guilty right now, I was supposed to be with Fay right now making up for the last two weeks which I lost because of my behavior but still, I am on my way to Mitch's house. What is wrong with me, why I am so addicted to her and can't get enough of her. If I try I can resist Mitch but I don't want to. If I start resisting other girls then I will start to crave the only girl I don't want to hurt or ruin with my stupidity and toxicity.Fay is everything for me and it's my responsibility to keep her from bad people and bad things and I am one of them. I may look like a simple guy who runs a multimillion company but I am into so many dangerous things and I need to keep her from those things and myself too.I was supposed to be with Fay watching a movie and having dinner together but when she ran into my arms and her body perfectly fit with my body, I lost control and buried my face in her neck inhaling her rosy scent which I love. I
Finally, this is the day I am waiting for so eagerly. Today is the 14th and there is going to be Ezra's event which he invited me to and we are going to wear the same color. When Ezra left my house that day I called Joanna to inform her about it and invited her on behalf of Ezra.First, she is reluctant to accept the invitation because she and Ezra's enemy bond but I begged her to come with me and finally she accepted. We decided to get ready at my house because it will be easy and Ezra called me to inform me that he is going to send someone to pick us up. Joanna and I are currently sitting in my room doing a skincare routine before the party and I am still waiting for my dress which is to be delivered by Ezra." Fay! Do you think Mitch is going to show up today?" Joanna asked, massaging her face with something I don't know. This is one of the reasons for making someone's mood horrible." Don't you think joey that I don't want to think about anything right now because I am in a good
I and Joanna sat in awe inside the lavish limousine with big eyes and mouth agape because of its smell and richness. We took two glasses of champagne which tasted sweet and bitter. I hesitantly took the glass when Joanna poured it for me. I don't know if we are supposed to touch anything. “I think one glass is enough Joanna and I don't think we can finish the entire bottle from someone’s car without their permission,” I said, putting my glass aside.“ Why are you so bored? Fay this is not someone’s car and this is not a car but a freaking limousine so we have to have champagne.” she gulped the entire contents of her glass before going for some more.“I think that is enough joanna for now and we have to be on our best behavior so we can't embarrass Ezra in front of everyone.'' I gave her a look saying it's final.“Okay mom whatever you say.” she mocked me before sulking and pouting. She sometimes behaves like a child and she looks so funny. We sat in silence until we reached the place
I can't see them all lovey-dovey with each other on the stage. I placed my plate on the table and stood up to run away from there, from them and this damn town. I never knew this hurt this much. I am embarrassed because of his lie. I look like a fool in front of Joanna. She always warned me about him, about him making me a fool every time but I never listened. I am a damn fool." Fay! Are you alright?" Joanna enquired seeing me sitting still."Y...yes...s…" I choked out before running from the hall without looking behind and I can hear Joanna calling me but It feels like I am being choked there and I can't breathe properly. I have to get away from them. I heard footsteps following me but I ignored them and ran faster to get away. I can't stay there for more than a second. It is choking the life out of me.How can I be a fool, how can I be played by Ezra? It is so embarrassing thinking that I had a chance with him and making my hopes high. I am just his friend nothing more and just a
I know this is stupid but I still waited for him, my doom. Yes, he is my doom because nothing gets to my head when it comes to Ezra. I don't know when he became my life or a reason to breathe but he became everything to me. Some may say it is insanity to think like this or some may think that I am obsessed with Ezra but I don't heed to those words or thinking. I changed my clothes into PJs and hid that dress and chain at the last corner of my wardrobe so I can not see it and get reminded of my humiliation. I am not crying for him, no I am not that weak to very for someone. I am much stronger than that. I lay on my bed thinking about today's event and how they were both looking like a happy couple and how I didn't see an ounce of guilt on Ezra's face when he kissed me. Ugh, that Damn kiss! I am trying to push that thought from my head but I am unable to do that. Why did God choose every single bad thing and bad luck for me? I received a text from Joanna that she has reached home s
We were still standing kissing the hell out of each other. Ezra's hands were all over my body squeezing and pulling me closer to his body. I have never felt this good and the main reason behind me feeling more intensity is because of Ezra. I always dreamed of us together, I am his first and he will be mine but he didn't wait for me as I waited for him. My heart broke when he told me about how he lost his virginity to his then-girlfriend. " You feel so good, baby girl," Ezra murmured between kisses and pulled me from the sad thoughts. Ezra slowly pulled my t-shirt and tossed it somewhere in the room. I am not wearing a bra but only standing in my panties in front of him. I covered myself with my hands feeling self-conscious and shy standing in front of my best Friend practically naked. " Don't cover yourself, Fay, not in front of me. You are so beautiful and I love to see you like this every day." He huskily whispered before removing my hands which are covering my boobs from his
I am bobbing my head up and down tasting his sweet and salty precum and my saliva. He became a moaning mess too, I am on my knees giving him my all taking him to hell and heaven at the same time. It's my first time doing this but I have seen many videos so I know one or two things about how to make your man a puddy in your hands.Seeing Ezra's Expressions and his groans coming out of his mouth made me throb so painfully for him to fill me up. I clenched my thighs to make some friction between my legs desperate to feel that orgasm which he has given me before." Yes, baby girl don't stop." Ezra moaned out while guiding my head deep, making me choke. He didn't let me finish before pulling me up and made me fall on the bed." No, baby girl, I want to finish inside you." He said making eye contact with me, I can see his desire shining through his eyes. I bit my lip feeling so turned on by his words that my hand moved down on its own wanting to play with my happy button and relieve myself.
I woke up feeling sore and happy at the same time, a smile on my face and warmth spreading throughout my body. I opened my eyes to blinding sunlight creeping into my room. The curtains were opened, indicating someone opened them. The place beside mine was cold, making me confused because Ezra will never leave without saying goodbye, especially when we shared a bed last night. I checked the clock for time, making my eyes go wide, it was already noon, and no one woke me up! Maybe Ezra is in the kitchen making breakfast for me. I got up from the bed butt naked and dashed to the bathroom to take a long warm shower to soothe my muscles. After taking a bath I took out jeans and a hoodie to keep me warm in the chilly weather and applied a thin layer of makeup before going downstairs. I didn't hear anything in the kitchen making me halt in my steps, what if Ezra left me way before I thought! Is he in guilt? Did he regret it? Every kind of thought entered my head making me feel dirty in my