IT'S NOT ME, IT'S YOU

Cleaning up the broken mirror and making myself look pretty again for him, because he doesn't like when I looked bad. I know what he did was to show me, remind me that he loves me. If he didn't care then he wouldn't react the way he did.  Blake comes in to the room and says "you know Ana, I just want you to be the best version of yourself, that's why sometimes I have to do what you make me do. I love you but you need an adjustment",  I silently agree nodding my head, that was his apology or what I justified as one, he shouldn't have to tell me twice.  Growing up, I always dreamed of falling in love, finding the man who would keep me safe from the world and its harsh realities, someone who would be my person because I have always believed that on this earth we have one person who we are meant to meet and spend sharing the rest of our lives. I would plan my future wedding, practice my signature with different last names and spend hours making up my futur

Planning an engagement party and help run a business was very time consuming and sometimes stressful but I was feeling confident about it all. I heard back from some of my friends, not all of them understood but my Best friends Dee, Toni and Megan replied with understanding and love, they were just as excited about the engagement as I was, we planned a lunch for the middle of this week to start planning the engagement party and go supply shopping.The girls hadn't met Blake yet, I've told them how wonderful, kind and loving he is. I have decided not to tell them about the last couple of arguments after all Dee suffered domestic violent relationship and as a result of her trauma she tends to see red flags in almost everything and I didn't want them to judge Blake on a couple of human errors, after all I knew that wasn't my Blake, he was under stress, he had the pressure of living up to Bronwyn's expectations. We met up a little cafe in the main street