I constantly put food in my mouth, chewing and swallowing without caring what it tasted like. My mind was a blank. Mom's appearance made it impossible for me to enjoy life the way I did. Even though I knew I had to be strong, I couldn't get rid of the accusations Mom made against me.Suddenly, the arm that was relentlessly putting food into my mouth was blocked.“Lia, don't trouble yourself,” Ivor's voice was deep and gentle. His eyebrows curled, his brown eyes gloomy. I could feel his heavy breathing.“Don't worry, I'm fine,” I avoided his gaze. “My mother said she came to your company, did she bother you?”“No, don't worry,” he confirmed. “I won't let her find you again.”His words softened the negative emotions that were rippling through me. I laughed, “Will you hide it from me?” Then I said gravely when I realized how cruel reality was, “It's no use, I won't be able to get rid of her.”I felt Ivor's hand on the back of my right hand, which miraculously comforted my wounded soul.
I opened my eyes and realized that it was already morning. I fell asleep while I was watching a movie and Ivor was working. I didn't think I could have slept last night, at least not before Ivor was with me.I slowly sat up and someone adjusted my sleeping position to be more comfortable while I was sleeping. Because I remembered, I fell asleep leaning my back against the head of my bed.I looked around the room where no one was, but I looked around it again and again.The sound of birds singing at the window reminds me that the air outside was very fresh. I went to the window, opened it, immediately I felt the cool and fresh air. My soul was soft and for a few seconds I looked forward to a new day.‘Knock, knock,’ the knock suddenly rang out, and I instinctively looked at the door.Someone knocked on the door again, but this time I heard a familiar voice behind the door.“Lia, are you awake?” Anna said, her voice soft, like she was probing whether I was awake rather than trying to w
“I-Ivor- why are you here?” I stammered. Ivor was looking at me, his gaze as deep as the ocean. I felt trapped in those eyes.Ivor blinked, his gaze became like a winter night sky, I heard his slight laugh then, “Why can't I be here?”“Oh, no, I mean you always work all day and only come home in the evening,” I said and backed away unconsciously.Ivor calmly said, “Don't be so nervous. I just went home to retrieve the forgotten documents.”I frowned. He didn't have to go back to the mansion to do it, his assistant would help him.I suspected but didn't show it.Ivor sat down on the sofa and poured a glass of water, “Who did you just talk to on the phone? You look uncomfortable then.”I sat across from him, hesitating to tell him the truth because he didn't seem to like me contacting Mom.But-why should I care about that? I would leave next month. What I had said would come true, I would become a single mother and never forget Ivor, while he would marry another woman, became the father
“Mom, I'm listening,” I said and was then answered with sobs. My mother was crying. I felt my eyebrows furrow, "Mom, are you listening to me?" I still only get sobs on the other end of the line. What is she doing? Did something happen to her? I jumped to my feet, the legs of the chair rubbing against the floor making a shrill sound. I want to go find my mother right now. Just then, my mother's voice came from the other end of the line: "Why? Why are you treating me like this? Do you want to mock me by re-enacting my goddamn role? Then All in all, I just want the best for you." Friend. I did all I could to feed you. You know that, don't you? You know why you have the money to attend a private university, right? You know what I have to do so you can live comfortably in New York City while you're a student, right? Why? Why-" Each reprimand of my mother was like a knife to my heart. Of course, I knew what it felt like to live alone in this thriving, unfamiliar city as a student. My m
Days later, I felt like I was living under Ivor's control. Anna, as a supervisor he sent, followed me around all the time. I understand my mental health is not stable, I need to have someone around but not the whole time. Sometimes I needed space, but they didn't give it to me.I felt stuffy but every time I told him that it was no use to worry about me like that, Ivor ignored or redirected the conversation to another topic. And even though I felt better, I still couldn't get my smartphone back.One day, Anna received a notification that her mother's illness suddenly got worse and she went to the hospital immediately.I still paint according to the plan that she and I made. The mansion was empty without Anna, I walked around the mansion to find something fun, but felt lonely when I realized how large the mansion was.Maybe the air in the garden would make me feel better.The warm sunshine, the flowers emitting a gentle scent, those scents mixed together, made my soul relax quickly.
I dedicatedly enjoyed our comfortable time without expecting that the god of luck didn't smile at me.Bruce was talented and gentle. He had bought some saplings earlier and we planted them in the afternoon. As the soil enveloped the roots of the trees, a hope of the formation of a new life softened my feelings.I unconsciously embraced my pregnancy curves, imagining that a little angel was waiting for the day to come to this world.Warm sunlight shines on the young leaves, promising the appearance of beautiful birth flowers.“It's good that you're feeling better,” Bruce approached me.I smiled, feeling the peace from deep inside my heart. I breathed in the sun's scent, the scent of the soil and the scent of the foliage, feeling the breeze gently pass through my skin.Bruce touched my hair, I was startled but immediately realized he was just grabbing the leaf from my hair.“Lia, what are you doing?” Ivor's cold voice awakened my relaxed nerves.Ivor's appearance at the time was unexpec
“You are my personal assistant,” Ivor said. He killed my hope.“Is that all?” I heard my sarcastic laughter.“We've been working together for years,” he said, his eyes not exuding consistency.He didn't even know what he was talking about, did he?But I had no interest in patiently seeking answers and I didn't want to be hurt again.“Lia, I-”"That's enough. I feel tired, leave me alone,” I said sluggishly.I went back to my room, sat down in my chair, bored by what was happening.Ivor always acted as if he was protecting me, but he was overdoing it. And after all, he still saw me as his subordinate.I shouldn't have kept hoping. I was leaving next month and I would never come back to see him, it was all set.In the evening, Ivor called me down to dinner.“I'm sorry,” he said as we walked down the stairs.I looked at him, not understanding what was going on.“I was so rude to you this afternoon,” his eyes were sincere. My heart became soft. I wasn't angry with him in the first place,
Although leaving Ivor was a way of liberating me and helping me start a new life. In fact, I still couldn't bear to know I had to leave him.That's all I felt this morning, when I woke up on the bed in my room after falling asleep in his office.“Either way, you have to leave, Lia. Accept that and don't hope any more,” I said to myself.I didn't have much time left to be with him, so I forgot about our previous conflicts, treated him tenderly to have the best final time.I started this wonderful time by making breakfast for him. I was not very good at cooking, although I did enjoy cooking at first.When I was a child, my mother always forced me to prepare meals for my family, she thought that husbands would never give up on a good wife.I was happy with this simple task. Then my mother destroyed my passion with her harsh criticism.Whether or not I did it well, she would find out my mistake.Gradually cooking for me became a nightmare, it was so scary that I had to cry every time I co