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“You’re going to get eaten alive.”
“Good morning to you too.” Eli Thorne dropped his bag onto the bed nearest to the window and looked around the room. Two beds, two desks, one wardrobe that was clearly already claimed, and a view of a beautiful courtyard. He loved it at Saint Aurelius from the start.
“I’m serious.” His new roommate, Noah Beckett, according to the name card on the door, watched him unpack.
“Saint Aurelius eats transfers alive, especially scholarship kids, especially the ones who show up looking like” he gestured at all of Eli, “that.”
Eli looked down at himself, his plain white shirt, track pants, and one shoe slightly untied.
“Like what?” He said, curious.
“Like you don’t know yet,” Noah replied, with the same look on his face.
“Know what?”
Noah opened his mouth and closed it, shook his head slowly, deciding that the truth would be unkind.
“Orientation is in twenty minutes. Try not to smile at anyone too directly.” He said after a moment, raising his head to see Eli smiling at him very directly.
Noah looked pained. “Yeah. You’re going to get eaten alive.”
Saint Aurelius College sat on a hill outside the city with old buildings made of stone, with ancient architecture and everything that screamed old money.
Eli had earned his place in Saint Aurelius on a track scholarship, a full ride and a conditional performance to be reviewed every semester. So he paid attention at orientation, and he tried very hard not to get distracted.
Then Lucien Vale walked into the assembly and Eli’s plans on being careful fell apart. Lucien Vale simply walked into the assembly hall and the room rearranged itself around him all pretending not to be doing so.
He was tall, with silver cuff bracelets on both wrists, a dark blazer that perfectly fitted his slim build, and the Saint Aurelius crest on the breast pocket. He sat near the front and he didn’t look around the room the way everyone else did.
Eli stared at him for the entire forty-minute assembly, and Noah noticed around the fifteen-minute mark. He followed Eli’s gaze, and it landed on Lucien Vale.
“Lord, give me strength,” he said, pinching the space between his eyes.
“What?” Eli said, not taking his eyes off Lucien Vale.
“No,” Noah said, under his breath.
“Who is he?” Eli whispered.
“No.”
“Noah…?”
“Eli. I have known you for approximately three hours and I am already begging you. No.” Noah said hurriedly, not wanting to have the conversation further.
By lunch, Eli had a full profile, and it had not been difficult to compile. Lucien Vale was, apparently, not a secret, he was the student council vice president in his second year and heir to a family whose name appeared on several Saint Aurelis buildings.
‘He is untouchable’ those were the words three separate people used, when Eli asked about him at lunch.
“Has anyone ever actually tried to approach him?”
“Yes,” said a girl who introduced herself as Dara. “It goes badly.”
“Badly how?”
She gave him a look of genuine pity. “You’re the new track kid, right? Scholarship?”
“Yeah.”
“Then take the advice for free.” She picked up her tray. “Don’t.”
Eli ate the rest of his lunch thinking about what everyone had just said, then he went back to the dorm, found the box of baking supplies, and got to work. He was gonna make a lemon tart for Lucien Vale.
After four hours of baking, he wrapped it carefully, wrote nothing on the box because he felt a note would be either too much or too little, and went to find Lucien Vale.
It turned out to be easier than expected, Lucien stood outside the main hall at half past five, speaking to someone on his phone. He looked even better outdoors, which made Eli’s heart do a backflip.
He waited until the call ended, then he walked over, held out the box, and said;
“Hi. I made you a lemon tart.”
Lucien Vale looked at him, an assessing kind of look, like he was trying to decide if it was dangerous or simply strange. It lasted long enough that a small crowd of passing students had slowed down to watch the drama unfold.
“You made this?” Lucien said, his voice exactly as Eli had imagined from across the assembly hall.
“Yes, from scratch, I would have done a full spread, but I only had four hours and I didn’t know your preferences yet,” Eli kept his voice easy.
‘Yet’ He watched Lucien catch that word, and he was glad he didn’t stutter when he said it.
He took the box from Eli’s hands;
“You’re the new track recruit,” he said.
“Eli Thorne.” Eli extended his hand.
Lucien opened the box, glanced at the tart, and then closed it again.
“You’re aware,” Lucien said pleasantly, “that this means nothing.”
“I know.”
“That I’m not interested.”
“Okay.”
“That you’re going to be deeply embarrassed about this in approximately one week,” Lucien added.
“I really don’t think I will be.” Eli retrieved his hand, unbothered, and tucked it in his pocket.
“But I guess we’ll see.”
There was a pause, and around them, at least a dozen people had stopped pretending not to watch.
“You’re very strange,” Lucien said, squinting his eyes like he was trying to see something else.
“I’ve been told.” Eli grinned at him.
Lucien looked at him for one more moment then tucked the box under his arm.
“You’ll get bored,” he said and walked away.
Eli watched him go with a delighted expression on his face.
Behind him, Noah appeared from wherever he’d been pretending not to follow.
“He took the tart,” Eli said.
“He..” Noah stopped. “He took the tart?”
“Tucked it right under his arm.” Eli turned around, still grinning.
Noah stared at him. Then he looked in the direction Lucien had gone, then back at Eli.
“Okay,” Noah said slowly. “That’s…that is actually slightly unusual.”
“Right?”
“I’m still telling you this ends badly.”
“It’s going to end great.” Eli picked up his bag. “Is the track still open after six?”
***
“You lost,” Cassian said, sitting across from Lucien in their shared living area.
“Damn it” Lucien groaned in frustration.
“Hmm…let’s see, what should be your punishment” Cassian said, with a cocky smile across his face.
“Tomorrow morning, the first person you see when you arrive on campus.” He finally said after thinking for a while.
“You’ll date them for thirty days”
The room was quiet, Lucien seemed to be thinking for more than a moment.
“That’s absurd,” he said.
“Yes.”
“It’s childish.”
“Completely.”
Two weeks.Eli had not seen Lucien in two weeks, which at Saint Aurelius was almost an achievement, the campus was small enough that avoiding someone required actual effort, and he wasn’t sure whether it was him doing the avoiding or Lucien or both of them avoiding each other.The scholarship review had been resolved on a Wednesday. Eli was lucky enough to get a probation for one semester, with conditional on academic performance and conduct. Dean Ward had delivered the terms like someone extending a grace they found personally inconvenient, and Eli had thanked her and even shook her hand with so much gratitude. The official track team tryouts were on a Thursday, Coach Harland had been building toward this since September. There were only two options, make the official roster and your scholarship had a foundation, don’t make it and the foundation got shakier.Eli had known this since day one. He woke up at five thirty, had breakfast and did his warmup. Noah walked with him to the t
Eli came back from the Dean’s office and made dinner, he didn’t want the noise and the eyes that would be on him all night, thanks to Lucien Vale. He went to the Bee’s Hive kitchen and made toast and scrambled eggs and ate them standing at the counter. The kitchen was empty, which was what he expected and preferred.He stood at the counter for a moment after, his hands flat on the surface, as he stared blankly at the wall. He didn’t know what he felt, that was the honest answer he tried to locate all day after he walked into the Dean’s office. He kept reaching for something to describe how he felt, maybe anger, hurt, or heartbreak, anything with a shape he could work with, and finding instead this flat, grey absence like it was there but he couldn’t feel it completely. Lucien had walked past him, he looked at him and waited for some sort of expla, anythung and Lucuen just walked away. No matter how he thought about it, and tried to downplay it, it made him feel shame. But what exac
Lucien’s fist connected with the side of Adrian’s face before the last word arrived and Adrian went back two steps, catching himself against the wall and the fencing hall went completely, absolutely silent.Lucien stood there, his hand already telling him what he’d done, he looked at it then back at Adrian, who had straightened with one hand at the corner of his mouth.Adrian was surprised, actually surprised, which meant he hadn’t seen it coming, and Lucien had done something Lucien Vale was not supposed to be capable of doing, which is losing control in public, in front of many people.He became aware of the three fencing team members still at the far end of the hall, standing very still. Adrian lowered his hand from the side of his face.“Lucien…” he started but Lucien walked out.He made it to the east stairwell before his legs suggested he stop, he sat on the third step… Eli’s step…some part of his mind noted.He put his elbows on his knees and his face in his hands and breathed.
The student council always met at nine on Thursday mornings in the seminar room on the third floor, which had good light, and a table long enough that seven people could sit around it without being too close to anyone they didn’t want to be close to.Lucien was at the head of the table and at exactly eight fifty-eight the agenda opened.Cassian came in at nine exactly and sat two seats down without looking at him, which was its own kind of answer about how the morning was going.The meeting started.Item one The Winter Festival Budget. Item two Alumni Seating. Item three The Conduct Review Process for the spring semester.Lucien read through the agenda seamlessly and for the next twenty-three minutes, nothing interrupted that.Then at nine twenty-four, every phone in the room went off at once.Not one notification or two, it was a consistent ding of different phones at once and their best guess was that something was going off on @saintaureliusconfessions.Lucien kept his eyes on th
Eli found a table in the back corner of the Bird’s Nest reading room at half past three and had been there forty minutes when someone sat down across from him without asking.He looked up at Lucien, set his books down, pulled out his chair, and opened his laptop. “There are other tables,” Eli said.“Yes,” Lucien said, and said nothing else.Eli looked at him for a moment, then he looked back down at his notes.“You didn’t show up until 2pm, why?” Lucien said without looking up from his laptop.“There was a time and no place, I figured you were just trying to be coy” Eli said in a low tone as he looked at Lucien through his dark curls that rested on his face. “I wondered how long it took you to figure it out,” Lucien said, glancing at him for a moment before looking back at his screen. Eli could see him obviously fighting back a smile. The reading room was the quietest place on campus, it had high ceilings, long wooden tables, most people whispered here without being told to.Lucie
Lucien told himself he was taking a different route. The south path ran parallel to the athletics track and he used it sometimes when the east corridor was congested, which it was on Thursdays, which was why he was here, which had nothing to do with anything else. He told himself that, then he saw Eli and stopped walking. The track was mostly empty at this hour, a few athletes at the far end, a coach with a clipboard, and Eli alone on the straight, just running, like really running. Lucien hadn’t seen Eli run before, this was him without an audience, without the brightness he wore like a second jacket, without any performance. Lucien stood at the edge of the path and watched him, he tried not to think much about the fact that he wasn't walking past like he planned to. Eli ran two lengths before he slowed, hands on his knees, breathing hard. Then he straightened and looked up and found Lucien standing there, they just stared at each other across the distance. Eli didn’t smile, he







