ログインElara's point of view
The moment the CEO stepped out of the elevator, the air snapped back into place like it had been holding its breath.
I realized I had been gasping silently only after my lungs started to burn.
I didn’t get the chance to move, process, or even properly panic before a woman in a pencil skirt and a perfectly neutral expression turned toward me, her eyes sharp with disbelief, like she’d just discovered a security breach disguised as a human being.
“Who are you?” she demanded. “How could you take the CEO’s private elevator?”
I stared at her.
No movement seemed to work. My brain was still stuck somewhere between What just happened? and Did I really just ride an elevator with him?
Private.
Of course it was private. Of course the one elevator I chose in a moment of desperation belonged exclusively to the most powerful man in the building. Because why wouldn’t the universe add that to my already impressive list of bad decisions?
“I… what?” I said, sounding exactly as intelligent as I felt. “This was the CEO’s elevator?”
I tried to look innocent. Professional. Like someone who definitely hadn’t just committed a corporate sin.
She looked at me the way one looks at a person who confesses to licking office furniture. “Yes. Obviously.”
“I didn’t know,” I said quickly, recovering enough to straighten my posture. “The elevators downstairs were crowded, and I thought I could take this one. I apologize if...”
She cut me off with a tight smile that didn’t reach her eyes. “Next time, think less.”
Right. Duly noted. Don’t accidentally share oxygen with gods.
“I’m sorry,” I repeated, because politeness had always been my survival instinct, then ducked past her and made a swift retreat toward the stairs.
By the time I reached my department, my heart was hammering so loudly I was convinced everyone could hear it. The back of my neck burned faintly, not painful, just warm enough to be unsettling, like my body was replaying something it hadn’t fully understood yet.
In the whole world, why did everything feel like it was happening to me at once?
My department occupied an open-plan floor filled with glass partitions and quiet efficiency. This was Corporate Strategy and Operations, the reason I’d worked myself half to death for the past two years. The headquarters handled high-level planning, acquisitions, and long-term expansion projects. This was where decisions were made, not just executed.
I’d been hired as a strategy analyst, entry-level but fast-tracked, which meant data analysis, presentations, market research, and assisting senior managers with reports that could change the direction of entire divisions.
Real work. Serious work.
I took my seat just as my composure began to fray.
My coworkers barely noticed my arrival. They were clustered together near the coffee station, buzzing like I’d walked into the middle of a fan club meeting instead of a workplace.
“Did you see him today?” a woman in a red blouse asked, eyes bright.
“I swear he looked straight through me,” another said, sounding far too pleased about it.
“I heard he’s single,” Red Blouse added.
“Of course he is,” someone else sighed. “Men like that don’t settle.”
Ah. Workplace gossip. Spreading faster than internal memos.
I slid into my chair quietly, powering up my system, hoping to disappear into the comfort of spreadsheets and numbers.
No such luck.
“Oh my God,” a woman exclaimed, finally noticing me. “You’re new, right? Did you see the CEO?”
I hesitated for half a second too long. “Unfortunately.”
They laughed, assuming I was joking.
“You’re so lucky,” someone said dreamily. “No one really knows him. He’s like a myth. Handsome, rich, mysterious. Every woman in this building wants to sleep with him.”
“And be Mrs. Blackwood,” another added with a sigh. “Imagine.”
I smiled politely, even as my stomach twisted.
Imagine, indeed. I had imagined a future once too. With my boyfriend. With stability. With trust. That fantasy had imploded spectacularly less than twenty-four hours ago.
Before I could escape, a woman in her early forties approached, tablet in hand, expression efficient but not unkind.
“You must be Elara,” she said. “I’m Margaret. Your supervisor.”
Relief washed over me. An anchor. Reality.
She walked me through the department calmly, introducing me to team members, outlining ongoing projects, and assigning me my first task: reviewing market expansion data for a regional acquisition proposal.
“You don’t need to finish today,” she said. “First days are overwhelming. Focus on understanding the framework.”
“Thank you,” I said sincerely. “I appreciate that.”
As I settled into work, my phone vibrated.
Once.
Kit.
Of course it was.
I flipped the phone face down, but the buzzing continued, persistent and invasive, like he still believed he had access to me.
During a break, I stepped away and checked.
Missed calls. Voicemails. Messages.
Please talk to me.
I made a mistake.
It didn’t mean anything.
I love you.
I laughed softly, the sound brittle.
Love. Right.
I typed back once.
We’re done. I’ll contact you later to retrieve my things.
Then I blocked the number.
The silence afterward was heavy, but it was the good kind. The kind that came after finally closing a door you’d been holding open with bleeding hands.
I returned to my desk and forced myself to focus. Numbers didn’t betray you. Data didn’t lie.
Ten minutes later, Margaret appeared beside me again.
“Elara,” she said gently, “the CEO would like to see you.”
My heart dropped straight into my stomach.
“Now?” I asked, even though I already knew the answer.
“Yes,” she replied. “Don’t worry. Just be yourself.”
Every instinct screamed at me to run.
Instead, I stood, smoothed my blouse, and followed her directions toward the executive floor, the faint warmth at the back of my neck returning like a quiet, unwelcome reminder.
Whatever waited behind that door, I knew one thing for certain.
This was only the beginning.
Elara's point of viewBy the time Margaret told me the CEO wanted to see me, my brain had already reached its own verdict. I was in trouble.The kind that came with carefully worded emails and phrases like “not aligned with company culture” and “we wish you the best in your future endeavors.” The kind that made you regret every life choice that had led you to stepping into the wrong elevator on the wrong morning with the wrong man.I nodded like a professional adult and stood up like someone walking toward a firing squad.The walk to the executive floor felt longer than it should have. Each step echoed too loudly, my heels tapping out a rhythm that sounded suspiciously like you messed up, you messed up, you messed up. My mind replayed the morning without my permission. The elevator doors. The quiet. The way he’d looked at me. Not angry. Not amused. Just… aware.Too aware.I stopped in front of the CEO’s office and hesitated.This was ridiculous. I had presented to directors before. I
Elara's point of viewThe moment the CEO stepped out of the elevator, the air snapped back into place like it had been holding its breath.I realized I had been gasping silently only after my lungs started to burn.I didn’t get the chance to move, process, or even properly panic before a woman in a pencil skirt and a perfectly neutral expression turned toward me, her eyes sharp with disbelief, like she’d just discovered a security breach disguised as a human being.“Who are you?” she demanded. “How could you take the CEO’s private elevator?”I stared at her.No movement seemed to work. My brain was still stuck somewhere between What just happened? and Did I really just ride an elevator with him?Private.Of course it was private. Of course the one elevator I chose in a moment of desperation belonged exclusively to the most powerful man in the building. Because why wouldn’t the universe add that to my already impressive list of bad decisions?“I… what?” I said, sounding exactly as inte
Elara's point of viewTerror is inconvenient like that. It doesn’t arrive with clarity or structure. It doesn’t wait for you to sit down and process it properly. It scrambles things. Erases details. Leaves you with fragments instead of memories, like a badly edited film that cuts out the most important scenes.I remembered the crash... I remembered hands grabbing me. Too strong. Too fast. I remembered a voice telling me not to look, and then nothing at all.When I woke up, I was staring at a ceiling that was not mine.For a brief, disoriented moment, I wondered if I’d finally lost my mind and teleported into a stranger’s apartment. Then I noticed the faint lavender scent in the air and the aggressively cheerful throw pillows.It was Emily’s place.My head throbbed as I shifted, every movement reminding me that my body had been through something it hadn’t signed up for. Emily appeared almost instantly, hovering over me like a worried mother hen who had definitely judged my life choices
Elara's point of viewI drove home like my foot was personally offended by the accelerator of my car. My breatsh were painful from all the things I was thinking at the moment.I don’t remember deciding to go back. I just remember thinking, very calmly, that I’d forgotten my jacket. Or my pride, maybe my entire sense of self-respect. Something important like that.The apartment building loomed ahead, too familiar, too normal for what my gut already knew was waiting inside. I parked crooked, didn’t bother fixing it, and took the stairs two at a time because the elevator suddenly felt like a luxury I hadn’t earned.The hallway was quiet. It was unsettling. I unlocked the door as softly as I could, out of habit, out of instinct, out of years of not wanting to disturb anyone. The irony nearly made me laugh.The smell hit me first.It wasn't any food or a strong detergent. Not even the faint vanilla candle Murphy insisted helped her “heal.”Sex. I could smell it in the air, literally! Never
For two years, I lived with the comforting delusion that my life was stable.Not happy, necessarily. Not the kind of life people write inspirational captions about. But stable in a way that felt safe, like a chair that hadn’t collapsed yet, so you assumed it wouldn’t. Kit and I shared an apartment, a bed, and the mutual understanding that love didn’t have to be dramatic to be real. We argued about stupid things. Whose turn it was to cook? Why he never replaced the empty milk carton? Normal relationship stuff.I thought that meant we were solid.Apparently, it just meant I was spectacularly naive. Three months ago, Murphy showed up at my door.She didn’t knock like someone who belonged there. She knocked like someone asking permission to exist. The kind of knock designed to tug at your conscience before you even opened the door.When I did, she looked exactly like Murphy always had. Beautiful in a way that made people forgive her before she spoke. Blonde hair falling just slightly out







