It was the day of my death.
I woke up to an aching body. The chains and wolfsbane poison messed up my sleep. Or that was the excuse I gave myself. I was still covered in blood from the previous day, although I was in new clothes. The truth was that I was haunted by the image of the mother and daughter that I had almost killed in cold blood. Liam told me that I had killed up to twenty people. Many of them were from my own pack. I felt tears flow down my eyes. Maybe what everyone said was true. I was really a crazy monster. That must have been why my father insisted I find a mate to take over the pack. I had always had volatile emotions, but I had never killed anyone before. But now I had murdered so many. The pack numbered less than five hundred, and I had taken the lives of twenty. I slouched against the wall and tried to cover my eyes with my hands, but the chains restricted me. So I cried like that anyway. Maybe I deserved to die. That way, I wouldn't be a threat to anyone I loved. I was a disgrace to the great white wolf bloodline. I heard the jangle of metal keys. I looked up to see someone open my cell door. The room was large, and I was at the far end, so I couldn't make them out while their back was turned towards me. They turned forward and I saw them clearly. It was a man. The first thing I noticed about him was that his left arm was missing from the shoulder. He wore a guard uniform and there was also a bandage across his right eye covering half of his head. The bandages were completely fresh. That meant that I had taken his arm during my rampage. His left eye stared at me with a hard gaze. "Lady Morning." "Adriel." My eyes widened as I recognized his voice. I had known Adriel since I was a child. He was an orphan and one of the youths sponsored by my father. We often played together, and I was jealous when he had gone to become a warrior. Now he stared at me with hatred. Without his arm, his dreams of being a warrior were gone for good. I expected Adriel to keep his distance from me and curse me from afar, but he walked closer. He stopped three feet away from me, within kissing distance. "You did this to me Morning." Adriel said as he raised the stump of his left arm. I whimpered and tried to sink into the wall, but it didn't budge. He crouched to get to eye level with me. I turned to avoid the gaze of his remaining eye. "They let me come in here because I told them I wanted to spit on you before your execution this evening." Adriel said. So it was true. I was to be executed in just a few hours. My life was coming to an end and with it the great white wolf bloodline. "But there's something I want to show you." Adriel said. Then he reached for his back pocket. I cringed, expecting a knife. It would be fitting that he would come to kill me himself. Instead, he pulled out a key. "I stole this from the guard." My eyes widened. Adriel moved and began unlocking my shackles. “What? What are you doing?” I said in a panicked voice. “What does it look like I’m doing?” Adriel finished unlocking my hands and moved to my legs. “But why? I-I destroyed your life.” “Your father was a great man. His bloodline shouldn’t end like this.” He said with a smile. The cell door opened again. “Hey! What are you doing?!” Two guards walked inside. Adriel turned back to them. “Shit.” My hands and legs were free, but there was a final shackle around my neck. “No, it’s too late! Just leave me.” I pleaded, but he ignored me. Adriel ignored the guards and turned back to unlock it. But his hands were shaking, and the key fell down. He tried catching it but accidentally hit it mid-air. It flew to another corner of the room. “Adriel run!” Adriel tried to stand up, but the guards had already reached him. The first one kicked his stomach and he tried to grab the floor, but he was missing an arm. The second guard picked him up from the ground and propped him up. “Let him go!” I grabbed the shackle around my neck and tried to break it. But I was too weak because of the wolfsbane. It prevented me from shifting. Adriel was facing me, so I saw him mouth the words. “I forgive you.” The guard ripped out his throat and his dead body fell to the floor. “No!” I screamed. My vision was covered in red and I ripped the shackles apart. I had already shifted and jumped on the guards before they knew what had happened. I ripped them into pieces. But my blood thirst was far from sated. I ran out of the dungeons and looked in the direction of the village. There would be many people to kill there. And Liam would be there with Olivia. They caused me pain, so I should give them death. ‘No. Escape.’ A part of my mind nudged me to run away from the pack. It was difficult to redirect my blood loss, but the wolfsbane dampened my wolf and made it possible for me to direct it to the guards by the wall. I ran as fast as I could and killed many guards on the way out. I finally passed the gate and ran into the surrounding forest. I ran into the night and my strength finally failed. I shifted back and fell down in the grass naked. I rested against a tree. I had run for so long that it was already nighttime and the full moon was over my head. I felt so weak. I shouldn’t have been able to transform under the effects of Wolfsbane, but I had somehow done just that. Now I was feeling the result of strain like that. Then I heard a twig break. I turned back swiftly and sniffed the air. My heart stopped as I identified the smell that was stuck in my mind forever after the night my mother died. Humans. Hunters. They were approaching.Another migraine hit me.But luckily it was a lot weaker than the last one. I got off easily as I only had to push against the wall with one hand for support. After I waited for five seconds, most of the pain receded.Worry flashed through my mind. Everyday it seemed like my condition wasn’t getting any better. I was too weak to do anything and I had been in a coma for awhile.I had been a constant burden to Morning and the others, because they had to carry me just to get by.What if I never got better?It never crossed my mind to be worried for myself. Ever since the day I walked away from the church, I had been ready to die for what was right. That was no concern to me.But I was scared that I would die before I could complete my mission. Even with many months of being an outlaw, I had not gotten any great achievement. I had made little progress in my mission. Things were moving forward, especially now. But what if I never recovered. It would be a cruel joke from Sol.I was more th
Morning immediately exploded into a tirade of angry words.I cringed inwardly because I immediately recognized my poor choice of words. Morning had been placing emphasis on the need for me to take a break for awhile now. I could now confirm that she wouldn’t feel good when I ended up doing the opposite of that.“I told you not to push yourself!” Morning exclaimed, confirming my thoughts.Of course I was sorry for how I made her feel.I understood what she meant when she told me not to push myself, but it was just an understanding of the words themselves.Ever since the first day I could remember, which was about thirteen years ago, things have never been easy. From then on I constantly had to push myself to keep going.All my years in the church emphasized this. Even though all my achievements there ended up being worthless to me now, I had still pushed myself to get them. To be the best.And my current mission was the most important. I knew that it depended on me to save all the live
Earlier that evening.I made sure that my entire group were ahead of me on the flight of stairs. It wasn’t very difficult because they all seemed to forget about my condition. Of course that had a lot to do with my own efforts.Even as I looked up the seemingly impossibly high flight of stairs, my head banged. The headache seemed to come and go with unpredictable intervals in between.The innkeeper was helping carry Rowena up the stairs and Morning was focused on him.I took in a deep breath. I couldn’t linger at the bottom for long unless Morning and the others would notice. And I completely refused the idea of Morning carrying me up the stairs in her arms like a baby.I took the first step, it was difficult instantly. I gritted my teeth and pushed past the pain. I kept a steady pace so as not to alert any of them as I followed behind. Every step was difficult.I needed an anchor to escape the pain. My eyes went to Morning and I focused on her hair. It was midnight black and luscious
“Phoenix are you okay?” I said with my heart in my mouth.Oisin took a step forward but Phoenix raised his hand and stopped him.“I’m fine.” He said. I helped him stand back up.He placed on hand on his head. “I just got a little dizzy there.” He said.I remembered how I had let him climb the stairs here by himself. I hadn’t been paying attention to him, but he must have struggled and used a lot of energy to climb the steps.Anger flared up within me.“Where you pushing yourself earlier?” I asked in a low dangerous tone.Phoenix turned to me with slight surprise on his face. He hadn’t been expecting anger from me just now and I could tell.“It was nothing. How useless am I if I can’t even climb a flight if stairs?” Phoenix asked.“I thought I told you not to push yourself!” He was infuriating me now, why didn’t he listen.“Must you prove that you’re strong!?” I prodded. He had pushed himself so much. I found it admirable, but now I couldn’t bare it if it cost him so much. Why couldn’
The innkeeper examined our group.I held Rowena against my body. I had walked to the inn with her directly strung over my shoulder. It had been a tough walk but I was able to pull it off. I had a thin layer of sweat over my skin. As I entered the inn, I let her feet drop to the ground. I didn’t want to make it look too odd that I was carrying her all by myself.Phoenix stood in the front, he had dropped off Oisin’s hand after we stepped into the inn. I didn’t protest because I knew he was just going to talk to the inn keeper.Roman stood behind with Oisin. The inn keeper had a complicated expression on his face, as if he wasn’t quite expecting a group like ours.I doubted that our worn out clothes were helping his impression.He dropped the glass he had been cleaning and chewed on the stick in his mouth.I had to wonder how many glasses he had to clean. I had definitely been gone for over an hour and most of the nighttime drunks had already retired to their rooms.“What do you mean b
I followed behind Orlaith and Oisin as they moved to Phoenix. The bear was already carrying Rowena across his back. It was a sad contrast to when Rowena had been vibrant and riding on his back. But at least she wasn’t dead yet.Phoenix moved from the tree he was resting against and wobbled slightly. I wouldn’t have noticed if I wasn’t watching specifically for it because he corrected his stance almost immediately. The glimpse of his true state that I had caught was enough to tell me all I needed to know.He was still very much sick. Or whatever was wrong with him.“Alright, let’s start moving now.” Phoenix said.I moved over to him, passing Orlaith without looking at him.“Orlaith is going to carry you too until we reach the edge of the forest.” I reminded him.Phoenix nodded his head gravely. That’s fine but I’ll walk the rest of the way.“No you won’t.” I said.He raised an eyebrow. “How will we manage that? You’ll be carrying Rowena so you can’t help me.” Phoenix said.“Oisin will