ChristianMy brain refuses to work as I wonder why the hell Thea would send me her pictures? It takes me a while to react and shut the application off and I make sure I delete the message. There's no way I'm keeping them on my cell phone. This woman is out of my understanding. I don't understand what the hell she's trying to do. Is she the same with everyone or only with me? "Christian, will you please turn the lights off?" Ivanna's pressed voice comes as I look behind. She has covered herself with the sheets completely. Wait!Did she just call me 'Christian'? That's definitely not a fucking good sign. I toss the phone aside and turn the lights off. Then I put the small lamp beside Chrisanna. The portion that occupies our bed is pitch dark right now. Ivanna is lying at the edge of the bed. Usually she lies in the middle, too close to me. Only if she had told me what's bothering her. I'm scared to ask her anything. But the fact that I know she must be battling with a lot more than
Christian"She agreed to come", Emily's message pops on the screen. A smile of relief comes to my face.I have been worried since this morning, wondering how she'll feel after waking up. She needs to freshen up her mind. When Emily asked for a leave, she told me she would go shopping.I have been thinking about taking Ivanna to the mall lately but I couldn't gather the courage. I didn't want her to feel bad about her change in front of me. That's why I avoided doing that for her. "May I come in?" Kane's voice comes from the door as he sticks his head out through the door. "Are you new here, Kane?" I scoff. "Just come in"He shrugs, clearing his throat and comes inside, surging towards the desk."Well, you're lashing out on your employees like a strict boss nowadays", he says and it comes out as a taunt. "So, I better be careful""Shut up, Kane!" I slam my laptop shut and put it aside."Am I even wrong? Nicole had been crying the whole time and blabbing that she can never make such a
EmilyWe leave the mall after the shopping is done. I toss all the bags into the car and we walk to the coffee shop to grab a cold coffee with boba. We walk back to the car, strolling near the streets, but my brain is stuck in the same place. Why did she bring Thea into the conversation? She once told me that she didn't like the way Thea approached Christian but I thought it was a random wifely jealousy. I didn't expect her to compare herself with that woman."Well, Ivanna. I'm confused", I say."About what?""You suddenly asked about Thea. Why?" I ask her. "I mean what made you compare yourself with her"Her reaction hardens as she stutters, "nothing. I was just amazed to see her. That's it""You usually see a lot of equally attractive women. You never ask about them, you never compare yourself with them. Why with Thea?"She gulps down, not answering and it makes me more curious and worried at the same time. I have noticed Thea's unusual actions too. Especially when I saw her peeki
Ivanna"Should I talk to him about Thea now?" I think to myself. No! Not right after he's back after the whole hectic day. I inhale deeply and turn to him as he pulls me closer to him. He kisses my forehead, near my nose and down to the corner of my lips. "How was your day?" I ask."Exhausting yet good", he tells me."How was yours?""What do you think it can be?" I chuckle, wrapping my arms around his neck and lift my head, going on my tiptoes. "Let me guess", he presses his lips. "Had fun, also a lot of gossiping""Yes", I crack up, kissing his lips again. "Let me show you the dresses""Aha!" He doesn't leave me. "I know it all will look good on you. And I'll prefer to watch you instead of watching anything else"He presses his forehead with mine, not ready to leave me. It seems like he wants to say something as I'm trying to. "Come on! Get a shower. We'll have dinner together finally", I tell him. He parts away after another short kiss and smiles. "Okay"*I climb downstairs
ChristianIt's been a while since I'm back to the villa and I haven't gathered the courage to speak to Ivanna yet. I know whatever I'm going to do isn't wrong but the fact that she may take things the wrong way scares the hell out of me. I often miss Ivanna who used to understand me despite anything, who used to believe in my words, my decisions, and my suggestions. Even if we shared different points of view, she had always been understanding."I just wanted to remind you that Andrea will be unavailable for the next two days. It'll be better if you take Ivanna to her tomorrow itself", Emily says on the call.I remain silent. Even though I can hear her, I might have forgotten that I had to speak. I had to reply."Can you hear me?" She asks a bit louder."Yes!" I mumble. "Are you still not sure about it?""I don't know""That's not a convincing answer", she groans. "It's been like weeks since I suggested this to you. It was enough time to think and take a decision"I part my lips and
Emily"Bloody hell!" I hear Kane cursing behind me and turn around, finding him lying on his stomach on the bed. "When did you come?" I gasp. "When you didn't notice", his muffled voice comes as his face is pressed against the pillow. I chuckle, surging towards him, and plop onto his back on my stomach. "Lord, Em! Are you planning my murder or what?" His pressed voice comes. A soft giggle escapes my mouth as I press my lips against his neck. "You know sometimes your cheesy kisses aren't gonna when you're literally lying on my back. It's already aching!" He shrugs. "But anyway, I loved it"He looks for my hand, reaches it, and brings it near to his face. "Should I get down?" I ask him. "No. It's better", she mumbles. "I might break your back", I giggle."Not everyday you come by yourself to cuddle your husband, huh! Better if I don't interrupt that'', he husks.I can't help but laugh. "You know I would. But you're too quick to come and get started. How am I going to be the fir
IvannaI hear my voice coming out as a whisper, shaking and scattering all over when I tell him that I don't have any mental issues. I admit that I'm being too unreasonable lately but that doesn't mean I have issues. It stings when he tells me that I have issues. Even if that was someone else, I could easily digest it. But it's Christian. I have never imagined hearing something like this from him. He kept telling me that I'm perfect, I'm overthinking, I'm good for him, even the best. Was it all a lie? When he thinks I have issues, what is the need of giving me false consolation? He doesn't move for seconds. His eyes are frozen on me when he slowly parts his lips and seals them back, pulling me closer to him."Iv!" He groans. "I didn't mean that. I'm not saying you're mentally ill"Is he serious?I feel my throat aching, my eyes and my lips trembling. I'm on the verge of crying. "But that's what you feel, Christian. Don't you?" I scoff, staring at him with my eyes burning. A thick
ChristianI didn't wanna do this to her. Making her cry would be the last thing on this earth I can think of. But no matter how much I tried to keep her happy, it wasn't enough. She ended up snatching her own happiness. I wanted to say that it didn't matter. If she didn't go, that's fine. She doesn't need to do anything she doesn't want to. And I'll never be tired of ranting this same thing again and again. I can spend my entire life telling her how much I love her and how much she matters to me. I won't stop doing that.But I held back. I pushed the urge of telling her everything that was going on inside my head because that would give me temporary relief but a permanent scratch to her. I know she didn't expect me to say those things to her. She might be having questions. Enough questions that she wants to ask me.She might be thinking I have lied to her all these years. But I didn't. She needs to understand the way I have been doing. "Master, please sit. I'm getting the meals",