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I didn’t know my marriage was officially dead until I saw the balloons.
Pink and gold. Cheap foil. Tied to the mailbox like they belonged there. They looked wrong against the house. Too bright. Too cheerful. Like someone had tried to decorate over a crack in the wall instead of fixing it. Lily was already unbuckling herself in the back seat, humming under her breath. Five years old and excited in a way that made my chest ache. She had on the dress she picked herself. Too much tulle. Glitter that would end up everywhere. She’d insisted on wearing the crown too. “Mommy,” she said, leaning forward between the seats. “Daddy said he’d be here early.” My hands tightened on the steering wheel. “He did?” I asked, keeping my voice even. She nodded. “He said he had a surprise.” Of course he did. I forced a smile and got out of the car, smoothing my shirt like that would smooth anything else. The house looked the same as it always had. Small. Modest. A little tired. I’d cleaned it top to bottom the night before, scrubbing until my fingers hurt, because cleaning was something I could control. The balloons were new. That should have been my first warning. Inside, the house smelled like cake and sugar and the faint chemical tang of the cleaner I’d used on the counters. Lily ran ahead, crown crooked, shoes abandoned by the door. “Daddy!” she yelled. I stepped inside and froze. Evan was standing in my kitchen like he still belonged there. And beside him, leaning casually against my counter like she’d earned the right, was a woman I had never seen before. She was younger than me. Not by much, but enough. Long dark hair, styled carefully. A tight smile. One manicured hand resting on Evan’s arm. The balloons weren’t for Lily. They were for her. “Mara,” Evan said, like my name still fit in his mouth. “Hey.” I stared at him, then at her, then back at him. Lily skidded to a stop beside me, her small hand slipping into mine. She looked up at me, confused, then at the woman. “Daddy,” she said slowly. “Who’s that?” Evan hesitated. Just long enough. “This is Vanessa,” he said. “She’s… a friend.” Vanessa smiled wider. Too wide. The kind of smile that wanted to be admired. “Hi,” she said brightly, bending slightly at the waist. “You must be Lily. I’ve heard so much about you.” I felt something cold settle in my stomach. I didn’t scream. I didn’t cry. I didn’t throw the cake sitting on the counter in his face, even though for half a second, I really wanted to. Instead, I leaned my free hand on the kitchen counter and breathed. In. Out. Because losing control in front of my daughter wasn’t an option. “You brought her here,” I said quietly. Evan frowned like I’d offended him. “It’s Lily’s birthday. I thought—” “You thought,” I repeated. “You thought bringing your girlfriend into my house was appropriate.” Vanessa’s smile slipped, just a little. “I didn’t realize this would be such a big deal,” she said. “Evan said you were… mature.” That did it. I straightened slowly and looked directly at her for the first time. Really looked. She was pretty. That wasn’t the problem. The problem was the way she stood there, unbothered, like she hadn’t just walked into someone else’s life and started rearranging furniture. “This is my home,” I said. “You don’t get to be here.” Evan stepped forward. “Mara, don’t do this. Not today.” “Not today?” I asked. “You cheat on me, leave, and then show up with her on our daughter’s birthday, and you think I’m the one doing something wrong?” Lily’s hand tightened in mine. “Mommy,” she whispered. “Why are you shaking?” I looked down at her and forced my voice to soften. “I’m okay, baby.” I wasn’t. Evan sighed like I was exhausting him. “Vanessa and I are together now. I wanted to be honest.” Vanessa nodded like this was all very reasonable. Honest would have been not sleeping with another woman while you still shared a bed with your wife. Honest would have been not bringing your mistress into the space where your child felt safe. “You need to leave,” I said. Evan’s jaw tightened. “I’m Lily’s father.” “And I’m her mother,” I replied. “And I’m telling you to leave. Both of you.” Vanessa glanced at Evan. “Maybe we should go.” For a second, I thought he might argue. He had that look. The one he used to get when things didn’t go his way. Then Lily spoke. “Daddy,” she said quietly. “Is she the reason you don’t sleep here anymore?” The room went very still. Evan didn’t answer fast enough. That was answer enough. Lily looked up at me, her eyes too serious for her face. “Can we still have cake?” My throat burned. “Yes,” I said. “We can still have cake.” I looked back at Evan. “Get out.” This time, he did. Vanessa followed, her heels clicking against the floor, her head held high. She didn’t look back. The door closed behind them, and the house felt louder without them in it. I sank into the chair at the kitchen table and pressed my fingers to my eyes. Lily climbed into my lap without being asked and wrapped her arms around my neck. “I don’t like her,” she said matter-of-factly. I huffed out something that might have been a laugh. “I don’t either.” She rested her head against my shoulder. “Daddy used to be nicer.” I closed my eyes. “So did a lot of things,” I said softly. Outside, the balloons bobbed in the breeze, bright and stupid and wrong. I watched them through the window and made myself a promise. This was the last thing Evan Collins would ever ruin for us. I just didn’t know yet how much harder he was going to make that promise to keep.~ Lily ~ Mom cries while she laughs in the kitchen three days before Christmas because Oliver threw mashed bananas at the dog while she stands there with food-stained fingerprints on her shirt. “I give up,” she says, laughing harder while Oliver slaps his hands against the highchair tray like he invented comedy. The dog licks the mess off the floor. Cole I mean..Dad walks in, takes one look at the mess, then quietly walks back out. Mom points toward the hallway. “See? Even your father abandoned me.” “I went to get paper towels,” Dad calls back. Mom snorts. I sit at the kitchen counter watching all of them while pretending to do homework. Oliver notices me staring and immediately starts yelling gibberish at me. He likes yelling at people. Mom says he got that from Dad. Dad says he got it from me and Mom combined. Honestly? That feels fair. The house smells like cinnamon candles and coffee and the weird baby lotion Mom uses after Oliver’s baths. Outside,
~ Cole ~ I’m in the middle of reviewing dealership numbers when Mara calls me sounding two seconds away from homicide. “Your favourite person is at Lily’s school.” I lean back slowly in my office chair. “That bad?” “He’s arguing with the front office about custody,” she snaps. “Apparently now he suddenly wants to act like father of the year.” I run a hand through my hair. “What exactly happened,” I ask “He showed up during lunch,” Mara says. “Lily got excited because she thought he came to actually see her, then he started questioning the staff about pickup permissions and legal rights.” Yeah. That sounds like a man spiralling. “Where’s Lily now?” I ask “In class. She’s okay,” she replies “And Evan?” “He left before I got there,” she says I stare at the paperwork on my desk for a second. Old me would’ve handled this differently. A lot differently. But lately, every time anger starts climbing up my throat, all I can think about is how I don't want Lily
~ Cole ~ Marriage changes absolutely nothing and somehow changes everything at the same time. Mara still wears my clothes. Lily still talks too much before breakfast. Oliver still wakes up crying like he’s personally offended by sleep. But now there’s a wedding ring on my hand. Now Mara signs her name differently. Now when people look at us, they don’t look at us like a fling anymore. I didn’t think paper would matter. Turns out it does. Monday morning starts early. I’m already dressed by six while Mara sleeps upstairs with Oliver curled against her chest. Lily has school in an hour. The house is still dark except for the kitchen lights. I’m halfway through coffee when my phone buzzes across the counter. Elijah. I answer immediately. “What?” “You got a minute?” His tone makes me straighten slightly. “Yeah.” “I ran the plate from the car outside the wedding.” My expression hardens automatically. “And?” “Private investigator,” he answers That
~ Mara ~ I wake up before everyone else. Not because I’m nervous. Because Oliver decides five in the morning is the perfect time to start making tiny angry noises through the baby monitor like he personally pays bills in this house. I groan into my pillow before reaching for the monitor on the nightstand. Beside me, Cole shifts slightly but doesn’t fully wake up. His arm slides across my waist automatically. “Got him,” I whisper. His eyes stay closed. “Mhm.” I stare at him for a second. Messy hair. Half asleep. Think to myself today's our wedding day and this man still somehow looks intimidating while unconscious. Life is strange. I slip out of bed carefully and head down the hallway toward Oliver’s room. The house is still dark except for the soft lights near the stairs. Everything feels calm for once. No chaos yet. No wedding planners. No Rhea screaming about flowers. Just me and the sound of my son complaining to the universe from his crib. “Okay,”
~ Mara ~ “I swear if you put motorcycles at the wedding entrance, I’m cancelling the whole thing.” Rhea looks offended from across my kitchen counter. “You’re being dramatic,” she says “I’m being sane,” I reply “Those are not the same thing,” she argues while flipping through flower samples like she’s negotiating a hostage situation. My mother sighs into her coffee. Jax looks exhausted already, and it’s barely ten in the morning. Meanwhile, Lily is sitting beside Oliver’s baby chair showing him pictures of dresses on a tablet even though he’s four months old and literally cannot care. “This one is prettier,” she tells him seriously. Oliver drools on himself. Cole walks into the kitchen halfway through the chaos wearing a black t-shirt and jeans, Oliver’s bottle in one hand and his phone in the other. “What’s happening now,” he asks carefully. “Your future wife hates joy,” Rhea replies instantly. “I hate stupid wedding entrances,” I correct. Cole glances a
~ Mara ~ “You’re getting married again?” My mother’s voice comes through the phone so loudly I have to pull it away from my ear for a second. I lean against the kitchen counter, watching Cole hold Oliver while Lily sits on the floor with a notebook full of wedding ideas she’s been forcing on me since breakfast. “Yes,” I answer carefully. “That’s usually what happens after someone gets engaged.” My mother ignores the sarcasm immediately. “Mara, I’m serious.” “I know.” There’s silence on the line for a second before my father speaks in the background. “Ask her when.” “When?” my mother repeats. I glance toward the living room. Cole is standing near the windows with Oliver against his chest, slowly patting his back while talking on the phone with someone from one of the dealerships. It still catches me off guard sometimes. That this dangerous man walking around my house with a baby in his arms is going to be my husband. “Soon,” I tell her. “Probably in a few







