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I've never been in love before, and that's why I've never felt the pain of it.

I only accept one or two boys to be my boyfriend because I think that I want to get new things, like what Rafaella got. Experience with a lover. And it all didn't end well for me.

Kevin, my first ex-boyfriend was an asshole incarnate from hell, and I didn't appreciate a single second I spent with him. I hated him then and I hate him now.

And I got together with Jordan. I used to think that I loved him, that what I felt from him was pure love. In the past, I didn't know how to feel in love, what anyone would really feel when they really fell in love with someone. All I know when I'm with Jordan is comfort, safety and normality. He's like a friend, and everything just seems normal. What I feel for him is admiration and pride because of what he did for people in the midst of war and people in poor countries. It all touched my heart and I believe that he is the best for me.

But I know that's not real love. Eith