I couldn’t sleep well last night, my mind was occupied with so many thoughts that it was hard for me to concentrate and think further without having to linger back to Jessi and the things she could do to me. I know Jessi like the back of my hand and I know what she’s capable of doing, she’s not the girl that sits around and waits for karma, she fights back even if she’s at fault, and with the way I annoyed her last night, I have a deep feeling she’s planning the worst for me.
It’s Monday morning and I’ve been standing in front of the school contemplating whether I should enter the school or skip today. I’ve never skipped a day of school as I love to maintain my attendance but with the way my birthday party ended last night, I can already feel my day going bad, I have a feeling that the whole school is going to bite my ass and make my day worst than it already is. After so much contemplating, I took a long deep breath and walked into the school. I kept my gaze down, walking slowly and trying to ignore the whispers around me. I could hear a few of them talking about my birthday party and how it turned out. I could even hear some calling me names but I just refused to acknowledge them. As walked further through the hallway, my gaze landed on Jessi who was pressed against the locker kissing Nathan. My heart instantly dropped, and I felt a wave of anger and hurt just watching them. The wound is still fresh and I still can’t believe that Nathan broke my heart to be with Jessi. Watching them, Jessi must have felt eyes on her because she turned around and caught me staring. I quickly diverted my attention to elsewhere not wanting to get caught up with her drama. Jessi looked like she was about to speak but before she could, the principal bashed out of his office and growled "Jessica Hunter, I want to see you in my office in the next minute!" Jessi’s attention moved to him, her face frowned as she asked "Why?" "Ask me when you get in." With that, he walked back into his office angry. Jessi must have done something very bad for the principal who is a nice man to yell at her like that. I ignored them and walked into the class. Soon enough, the classes started and the teacher came in. After the class, I was engrossed in my reading when I suddenly felt something hit my back. I turned around and saw Nathan and his friends giggling making it obvious that they threw the paper at me. I chose to ignore them, turning back to my textbook, but then another piece of paper struck me. Determined not to give them the satisfaction of my attention, I kept my focus on my studies. However, when a third paper landed right on my book, curiosity got the better of me. I opened it and my eyes widened in disbelief—it was a crude drawing of a breast. I whipped around, my voice rising in confusion and anger, "What the heck does this mean?" Chris, one of Nathan’s friends, let out a chuckle and replied, "Isn’t that how your breast looks? Nathan told us all about it." Shock coursed through me as I turned to Nathan, my eyes stinging with tears. How could he do that to me? Nathan just smirked saying, "Oh come on, don’t make her cry now, I don’t want to see that." Just then, Jessi walked into the classroom and chimed in, "Why do you care if she cries?" Nathan shrugged a nonchalant look on his face, and said, "I don’t care if she cries; I just don’t like hearing noises. Her voice when she cries is super annoying." I couldn’t believe he was saying that about me. The Nathan I knew hates to see me cry and if anything he could never say such about me. I rolled up the paper and threw it at his face. "You’re an asshole!" I growled before turning to face my book. I could hear Jessi and the rest talking shit about me but I refused to acknowledge them. I was hurt but I wasn’t going to let them see through me. In less than a minute the teacher walked in. "Settle down, guys. You know what time it is," he announced. "Test time," everyone chimed in unison "Yes, that’s right. So settle down, and let’s start this right now," The classroom finally fell silent, and we began the test. Fortunately, it was an easy one, and I felt confident as I started answering the questions. Just as I was getting into the groove, Jessi raised her hand. The teacher turned to her, asking, "What’s the matter, Jessica?" "Someone is cheating," she declared, her voice cutting through the quiet. "Who?" the teacher asked, looking around the room. She hesitated, not saying a word at first, and I was puzzled until I realized she was pointing directly at me. My brows furrowed in confusion and disbelief. "I’m not cheating," I protested, feeling my heart race. "Yes, you are. I saw the piece of paper, Bella. You don’t have to lie," "No, I’m not cheating," I insisted, trying to keep my voice steady. "Oh really? Then explain that under your table," she said, her finger jabbing toward a crumpled piece of paper that I hadn’t even noticed, it must have been one of the papers Nathan and his friends threw at me. I quickly picked it up and said "Nathan threw this at me before the class even started." "Hmm, I don’t think so." She pouted "May I have it?" The teacher asked, I handed the paper to him, he opened it, and his expression suddenly changed "It has the answers to the questions." "What!" I exclaimed, completely shocked and taken aback. "Jessica was right, you’re cheating on the test." He said shifting his gaze to me "I can’t believe this Bella." "No, it’s not mine, I wasn’t cheating, I swear," I explained, my heart racing in my chest He scoffed "I think you’ll explain better in detention." He said leaving no room for explanation. I felt a wave of frustration as I looked at Jessica, who just smiled back at me. That smile only made me more irritated, to the point where I wanted to punch her in the face. She really messed up this time.Lucinda took a step towards Luca, and I panicked. "Don’t you dare come any closer." I pointed at her.She only laughed, taking another step. "Protective, I see. We’re going to get along really well."Her gaze shifted to Luca. His body seemed to weaken, as though her eyes alone carried too much power against him"Do you miss her?" She asked, still smirking as she moved closer. "Do you miss Madrid? Do you want her back?""No, he doesn’t." I stepped forward, voice firm. I know Luca can’t protect himself right now as he’s very weak so I just have to step up for him. "He doesn’t want her—and he doesn’t want you. So leave him alone Lucinda." My voice came louder than expected Lucinda scoffed. "I could kill you in a heartbeat. Don’t make me prove it." Her eyes flickered, and I flinched back in fear. She turned to Luca again, plastering on a false smile. "I know you miss her… and maybe missed me too. It’s great to see you again Luca.""What do you want, Lucinda?" Luca finally spoke, his to
I didn’t waste any time. I ran as fast as I could. The wind hit me hard, but I didn’t stop. I couldn’t stop. I needed to get to him as soon as possible.I wouldn’t let Lucinda near him. She’d already done too much damage. I wouldn’t let her hurt him again.I rushed into the room where Luca was supposed to be, only to find it empty. Velmira and the other helpers were there, but Luca wasn’t.My heart dropped. "Where is Luca?" I asked, panic creeping into my voice.Before they could answer, he stepped out of the bathroom. "Bella," He said, confused. "What’s going on? Why do you look so panicked?""You need to leave. Lucinda’s here." I saidThe tray Velmira was holding clattered to the floor, her eyes wide with shock. "What?""Yes, she’s here," I confirmed, then turned to Luca. "You should find a safe place to stay with Velmira and the others.""Okay, let’s go." He said urgently "No, she’s after you so you should go okay." I said "Well then come with me," He said as he stepped closer, r
I jumped out of the chair "Amaya!" I exclaimed rushing to hug her.She held me tightly. "Bella, it’s so good to see you again," She said warmly."You too," I replied. Amaya is the perfect person I needed to meet right now. Since she’s Luca’s mother, I am certain she’d know exactly what I need to do. Pulling out of the hug, she asked "I don’t know if I have much time here so tell me everything.""What do you mean?" I asked confused "Did you break out of the cell?""Oh no, I didn’t, I can’t take that risk. The cell just opened and Noah and I walked right out of it. There were no security guards around and I couldn’t wait any longer to check on you guys so I just walked out." She explained "And then someone told me you’re here so I came.""Ohh." Was all I could say "But isn’t it strange that it just opened like that?""It is but that’s not the point right now. Tell me about Luca, is he getting any better?"I sighed heartily "You need to sit for this.""What happened?" Her voice hardened
“I hate myself. I hate myself” I repeated, as tears streamed down my face. I screamed my lungs out. I did it again. And again, and again but I didn’t feel any better. My heart was heavy… too heavy that I couldn’t bring myself to stop crying or even feel the slightest bitterness. Why me? Why me God?Each time I fall in love something bad just has to happen. Am I not destined to be loved and in love? Am I not worthy of love? Am I not deserving of that peaceful love?More tears streamed down my face. I felt miserable. One moment I was happy that Luca loves me but another moment I felt awful because he can’t love me. He just has to let go…. Stop loving me. Stop seeing me and never ever love again.My heart shattered as I thought about it. My throat was closing up, and I felt as if I was losing my mind. Nothing made me feel any better. I fell to the ground crying. I couldn’t even take myself to my room to cry, that was how miserable I was.I know I have to do it anyway— I have to talk
I kept pacing around, trying my hardest for contain myself. I don’t think I can do this. But I have to…. I just have to. My heart felt heavy and my stomach twisted. I have been thinking about how I’ll meet Luca and end things with him. I don’t even know how I’ll start the conversation. How I’ll tell him I have to leave him without telling him the reason why.Velmira said I have to be as harsh as possible but can I? He’s already been through a lot of pain. I don’t think I can bring myself to hurt him. I should be the one caring for him, loving him but not hurting him. But at this point, hurting him is the only way I can care for him.I took a deep breath. “I just have to do this.” I reminded myself. Like a snail, I slowly walked up to the room where Luca was resting. I knocked before walking in. Luca’s eyes beamed with joy the moment he saw me. How do I betray those eyes?"Bella, you finally came." A smile spread across his face.His smile makes it even more difficult to do this.
~ BELLA’S POVI jerked upright, gasping like I’d just broken the surface of deep water. My heart was pounding hard like it was trying to punch its way out of my chest. My chest felt heavy and my eyes…. my vision was blurry for a while until I blinked twice and saw Aaron sitting next to me holding my hand. He looked worried and I could easily tell that he’s been sitting here for hours just watching over me. Aaron opened his mouth to speak while I turned around to where Luca is lying down only to see him stirring awake while Velmira was helping him out."How are you feeling?" Aaron asked.I couldn’t respond to him, I just pulled my hand out of his and rushed to Luca. My head was pounding with a crazy headache but I didn’t care. I just wanted to see Luca."Luca." I sighed as I got to where he is. He slowly opened his eyes and met mine. A small smile dangled on his extremely pale and dry lips as he said "Bella." His voice was barely above a whisper "Oh my god!" I sighed heavily reachin