Mending challenges

Mending challenges

   LILLIAN

      I remember my childhood days,an average family, fighting strong could be used to define my family then. There were times when it was just too hard and my mom would cry all night,she would pray to God from mid night to morning. She was a single mom trying to save her kids from this harsh world. I was very angry while growing up,I didn't have a dad,he died when I was four years old. I let the fact that I didn't have a father border me,"things would have been better if we had one".

         My mom tried her best playing dual roles,it wasn't easy taking care of three children single handedly. My younger sister always said she wanted to be like mom. I thought life was so unfair to us,at some point, I was so ungrateful. One day while coming back from church, I saw my classmate and her family being thrown out of  their house,I remember how the landlord locked the door and pushed them out. My eyes met hers and she was ashamed, the moment I realized that she was ashamed, I felt guilt and then I realized that everyone had their own problem.

       I got to know her more and we became friends. She made me know that everyone have their own challenges and problems, but what matters the most is how you deal with them,she taught me how to be courageous,though I'm losing all the courage I've stored in me.

           I always told her to take things slowly,one at a time,patiently but being unable to have a child have disrupted me.

    

       

   It was an ordinary dinner with my mother in law so I wore a little black dress,on other days,I felt angry whenever I was going to meet her but today,I feel nervous. Only the doctor and Jemima knew of my situation but it always feel as if the whole world knows.

       Though I don't know why she wants us to eat outside but the restaurant was small and nice,it looks classy and I like it. She came late but  I told her "it's okay" when she apologized though I was surprised she did. Her speech was calmly nice.

      " I was wrong,judging you because of where you came from and sometimes, you are rude,she smiled. But I like the fact that you're smart and bold. I was so pissed because of you,I didn't like you but my son still dated you for six years,I thought you were playing with him and wasting his time but recently I realized that you weren't and if I give you a chance,a space in my heart,we can be happy. Don't hate me anymore,let's get to know each other too,I know you are surprised we are eating outside, it's how I really want to know you . She smiled,again. I want to be with you when you have your babies."

       Her apology and speech was nice but I felt really bad and I felt hurt,when I got home,I thought about it, Her speech wasn't meant to make me feel sad or angry but I was,at some point even provoked. I couldn't help myself, I cried a river