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2020-11-12 13:22:18CHAPTER FOUR(SINKING ALONE)
Lillian sat on the couch in Jemima's house, she carried the baby. She was curious,she wanted to know how Jemima found out that she couldn't have a baby.
" I didn't tell anyone that I was going to see a doctor, how did you know that I can't have a baby? Lillian played with the baby while talking.
"My sister in law told me that she saw you at the hospital,she was concerned, so she asked me if you are sick. I would have visited you if you didn't come today. But you came and you look healthy. When you looked at my baby and you cried, I knew you were worried so I made a dangerous guess and I was right". Jemima sat close to Lillian and held one of her hands.
" The doctor said I can't have a baby,that if I get pregnant, the baby will die,he said my womb is too fragile " Lillian said as she walked to drop the sleeping baby in the baby cot. She walked back to the couch and sat down,still close to Jemima.
"That is what the doctor said, not God" Jemima spoke seriously though she smiled while pronouncing God but Lillian laughed. Jemima would never change, she has been like this since their childhood days. She always depended on God even on her tough days.
" If God wanted me to have a child, why did He give me this fragile womb?"Lillian tried hard to control her emotions but she couldn't hold the warm liquid flowing from her eyes. Even Jemima cried too.
Mark came home earlier than he normally comes back from work. He was alone for awhile before Lillian came back from Jemima's place.
"Work was hectic? You came really late today,how was work?Mark asked Lillian.
"I took a leave from work" After Lillian visited the doctor, she took a leave from work and she made the decision herself without telling her husband.
"Since when? Nowadays I don't really understand you,you are always moody and lost in thoughts,now you took a leave without telling me,sweets,you really need to talk to me,I think I'm invisible to you. After Mark's statement, the house became quiet,just like a home where there's nobody.
Lillian would have cried but she controlled herself, she wanted him to know that he wasn't invisible, that her guilt is the problem,she couldn't stare at him,she looked at the corners of the house to prevent her eyes from meeting his.
" sweets, let's have a dinner for two on our anniversary day. I've been busy these days,its my wrong. She wanted to tell him that "that" wasn't the only reason she was apologizing for. Though Mark wanted to ask his wife what she's been busy with, the only word that came out of his lips was "OK".
Lillian's phone rang,Mark's mom was the one calling. The call was unavoidable so she answered and mark's mom wanted to have dinner the next day,just both of them alone
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