Positive
*click*
I positioned my body for another pose. I tilted my head while flashing a seductive look. I slightly opened my mouth and cocked my body towards the camera.
*click*
“Great job, Cian! Now move closer to your partner!”
I lifted my gaze to Jacob. He pulled me softly ‘til our bodies touched. I cleared my throat when a memory flashed through my mind.
I am wearing Ivory’s main design for her lingerie brand which will be released next month. I will be the cover for a magazine for next month’s issue too.
I put my hand on Jacob’s veined arms as I stare at him.
“Show some passion and desire, you two!”
He pulled me closer to him as he let out a soft sigh. He smirked at me. I pushed him lightly when we were done.
“Not in the mood?” He grinned playfully.
We both faced the camera at the same time.
“Nope,” I rolled my eyes as we did another pose.
“Then... can you join the party later?”
I did not answer. I am still thinking if it’s a good idea to drink after this. Because the last time I partied and got drunk... something terrible happened.
“Elize and Maisie will be there, too. They always asked me when you can find time to see them.”
I have not been myself the past few days, I admit that. I felt guilty when he mentioned my friends.
“Cian, turn your back slightly from Jacob. Jake hold her waist from behind,” Lance commanded.
He went behind me slowly. His hands touched slightly and caressed my bare skin. I gasped when I couldn’t ignore the flow of memories anymore.
I feel the familiar sensation I felt with that man’s touch that night. Every whisper, every kiss, every touch. They all come to me like a whirlwind.
I shut my eyes tightly to ease the memories. But the more I close my eyes, the more they became vivid.
“You’re mine. Mine alone,” he whispered dangerously against my ear as he claimed me over and over again.
I removed Jacob’s hand on my waist drastically. My eyes widened with what I did and went back from my reverie.
“I-I’m sorry. C-Can we take a quick break?”
“O-Oh sure. Let’s take a fifteen-minute break,” Lance said still dumbfounded by what I did. He quietly put down his camera.
My assistant went to me in haste. I covered myself with the robe and sat on the chair intended for me. She handed me a bottle of water that I drank without hesitation.
This is not me, I kept telling myself. I am always professional when it comes to my work. I don’t let my issues affect it in any way. But why is it so hard to do right now?
I massaged my temple as I tried to contemplate what I did. What would all these people think because of what I did especially Ivory? She trusted me with this and I can’t let her down. I won’t.
“What’s wrong? Are you okay?” Jacob’s worried voice woke me up from my trance.
“Yup. I’m sorry, I’m just tired.”
I managed to pull off the shoot even when my mind is in complete chaos. My mind would always go back to what happened that night and it was frustrating. I decided to go to the after-party, too. Thinking that would divert my attention and thoughts.
“We thought you wouldn’t come!” Maisie exclaimed when she saw me grace my way toward their table.
Jacob’s also there together with his friends. I smiled at them and hugged them both.
“Jacob said you don’t feel well,” Elize said as she watched me closely.
I rolled my eyes and turned my gaze to Jacob who was at another table. My head hurts a little with the flickering lights. I guess I am not that used to this anymore, huh? When it was just a month ago since the last time I got drunk. That mere thought brought back fragmented memories.
*A month ago*
“I hate you,” I whispered against his lips.
“You’re seriously saying that when I can feel you trembling with my every touch,” he smirked darkly and claimed my lips for a painful kiss.
I moaned in pain and pleasure as he pushed me against the wall.
*End of flashback*
“Cian? Are you okay? You don’t look well.”
I snapped back to reality when Elize said that. I smiled at both of them to assure them I’m fine.
“Yeah, yeah. Of course, I just remembered something,” I smiled.
We started drinking. I tried my best to remove those thoughts from my head. That’s what I should do. And that’s the right thing to do.
We were in the middle of talking and I am on my second glass of tequila when my vision went blurry. Then I became nauseous. I saw the worried and shocked faces of my friends but that’s the least of my concern now!
I hurried to the restroom and vomited. My head spun for a minute after vomiting. I looked at my reflection in the mirror, dumbfounded. I am not even tipsy yet and I am just in my second glass of drink. I can’t get drunk that fast!
A thought flashed in my mind which I dismissed quickly. No, no. I can’t possibly be... damn it! No way!
Then I remembered I haven’t had my period for more than a month now. My heart pounded out of fear and anxiety. I tried to calm myself when I heard my friends calling me outside the cubicle. I smiled at them, with no trace of severe dizziness and vomiting.
“Cian! What happened? Are you okay?” Maisie asked, almost hysterical.
“You know what? I already noticed it earlier. You don’t look okay. Are you sick?” Elize asked sharply.
I chuckled.
“Girls, I’m fine okay? Maybe I just ate something bad. It’s nothing serious,” I smiled at them and washed my hands.
“Maybe you should go home and rest. You’re probably just tired,” Maisie suggested.
That’s what I did. They even walked me to the parking lot before they left. I felt guilty. If only I didn’t feel bad, they wouldn’t be forced to go home either.
I can’t help thinking about the possibilities. As much as I want to ignore it, the idea keeps insinuating. I don’t know what has gotten into me that I bought five pregnancy tests kit. I even felt like floating while buying them.
I wanted to cry when I saw the result of the fifth one. I was not satisfied with the first one that I even tried all of them. All of it gave me the same results.
Two lines. Positive.
I might be hallucinating. I wish I were. I hoped everything that was happening is just a bad dream. I refuse to believe it. I can’t. Thinking about all the possibilities after this is weakening. I can’t possibly be pregnant. Not with his child. Not with him.
Orphan “Xander!” I smiled when he turned to look at me. He leaned into his car as he stared at me. He smiled when our eyes met. Today’s my first day as a college student. While he’s in his third year. I begged my parents to allow me to go to the same university as him. They let me in the end since they knew Xander would be there, too. Xander and I have been friends since we were kids. Our parents are friends so we became close friends as well. And since then, I have liked him more than just a friend. No, like is an understatement. I’m pretty sure I’m in love with him. I don’t see myself being with another man except him. Though I do have tons of suitors since high school, I don’t have an interest in any of them. My heart and mind are fixed on Xander. And I will do everything so he’d love me back. I hugged him. He chuckled and patted the top of my head. I glared at what he did. “Stop doing that, I’m not a kid. Can’t you see I’ve become a woman now?” “To me, you’re still a kid wh
Brat I woke up early the next morning for my first class. Xander texted me that he couldn’t pick me up early since his first class would start later in the afternoon. I decided to drive my car on my way to school. I have familiarized myself with the road so I wouldn’t have any problem going there. I shivered when the cold wind kissed my skin. The rainy season is approaching and the weather is starting to get chilly. The streets are still filled with fog even when it’s seven in the morning already. I slowed down when I couldn’t see the road because of it. Later on, the fog faded. I noticed a figure walking on the streets. He’s wearing our school uniform. My brows furrowed when I tried to see who it is. It was that man from yesterday. That Santiago Lopez. His hands are in his pockets while walking in an almost striking way. I suddenly remembered what happened at the sight of him. The mere thought of him embarrassing me still angers me until now. I was just trying to be polite to him
Afraid I jolted with the loud sound of the water when Xander jumped from a big rock. I laughed at him when his face turned red from the impact of his dive. This is what he meant when he said he’ll make it up to me – a picnic date in a waterfall within their land. The Del Rio’s owned a vast land here in Malolos. They also own the biggest Food Manufacturing company in the whole province. Most of their properties were inherited from their grandfathers who are natives here in Malolos. I heard his ancestors were not well off back then during the war. But they managed to grow their business to what it is now with the help of his grandmother, Donya Esmeralda Zalduaga Del Rio. I don’t know his family’s history. And all I know about them is everything I heard from my parents. Ever since my family moved here, we became good friends with the Del Rio’s. And as an only child, I have been close to their family ever since. Tita Alondra and Tito Thomas are very fond of me. It is maybe because th
Confess The staff greeted me politely upon reaching the stable. They have known me since I was a kid. Most of the trustees of the Del Rios have been serving them for a long time, even before my family got here. If there are new people, if they are not my age, they already know me because I have often wandered here since then. I shook my boots to get rid of the dirt then I turned to look inside the stables. The horses were eating when I went inside. The rows of cages looked like bedrooms for them. I went to Gustave's. The one feeding him immediately looked up. "Is he alright?" I asked referring to the horse. “A little, ma'am. That's why the vet said not to let him run and his legs might be sprained." I nodded and went near Gustave. I gently touched his face until he relented. I smiled. "Is senyorito going to ride with you?" He asked after a while. I was a little stunned. I remember my arguments with Santi. The mere thought boiled my anger. "No," I breathed. "Senyorito seems to
Tease His smile faded and he became serious. I got even more nervous with his reaction. This is not something I anticipated. I expected him to be shocked but not calm, like this. "Cian, I-I'm sorry," he shook his head. He stood up and went near me. I was taken aback in shock. Why is he saying sorry? "What do you mean?" I asked, quietly preparing myself for the worst. "I don't love you that way," he said disappointedly. "And I don't want to hurt you in any way. You are special to me, that's why. Even if I did notice something, I ignored it because I don't want to give you the wrong impression. I'm sorry, Cian.” My chest tightened as I tried to swallow his words. I cleared my throat to get rid of the lump in it. But I also couldn't stop shedding a few tears. I blinked them away. "Hey," he held my shoulders when he saw it. I avoided it a little and tried to smile. "W-Won't you even think about it first? M-Maybe even a little, y-you also have feelings for me?” I asked desperately.
Cry "Please?" Lance has been asking me to be his model for a while now. It's for their preliminary project in a major subject, that's why he's begging me to agree. I am in the middle of waiting for Elize and Maisie for lunch. While waiting for them, Lance found time to approach me and talk to me. I glared at him. He kept on pestering me which pissed me off. I also want to blame him because Trina's group is picking up on me. But I refrain myself. There's no point in bringing that up now. I hope they don't bother me anymore. I blinked fast when an image flashed into my mind upon remembering Trina's group. It's been days since that thing happened. To this day I still remember the feeling. I shook my head. Gosh! What is wrong with me? "I'll do anything! Everything! Just for you to be my model," Lance pleaded. I rolled my eyes and turned to him. "I said I'm not doing it," I insisted. "Why not make Trina your model? She's your girl, right?" If I give in to him, Trina's group will onl
Hate I don't know what's gotten into me and why I did that. I just felt the need to rely on someone, to ease the heaviness inside me. And he was the one who was there, in front of me. His manly scent filled my nose. It's intoxicating that I almost forgot why I am doing this. It took me a while to calm myself. He kept hugging me, comforting me. Silence filled both of us until I realized what I just did. I quickly let go and wiped my tears. "I'm sorry," my voice hoarse from all the crying. Now that I've cleared my head, I've only realized how shameful what I did was. He didn't say anything. He kept staring at me, with pity in his eyes. Seeing him pity me is insulting. But anyone would probably feel the same way. After all, he heard my confession and how I got rejected, not just once but twice. "Don't look at me like that. I don't need pity. Also, everything doesn't end here," I said firmly. He scoffed and smirked sarcastically, but I saw the anger that immediately appeared on his
Punishment I tilted my body sideways and did another pose. The wind gently blows my dress. I smiled at the camera before projecting another pose. *click* “Nice! Now a little fiercer!” Lance shouted from the beach. He decided to do his little photo shoot here in Tagaytay. And as part of our agreement, I became his model. In return for what he did for me. I don't know exactly what happened after. He didn't even tell me what happened after he successfully punctured the tire of Santi's delivery truck. Yes, I made him do that. That's not even enough of the shame I felt because of what Santi did. My feet and legs were slightly wet from the seawater. A few minutes later, Lance called for a break. I slowly walked to my sun lounger. I looked at him as I sip on my drink. "Are we not done yet?" He was walking in my direction when I asked that. "Few more shots and we're good," he smiled. I nodded and he continued looking at the pictures. It's good that we'll be done in a while. I've been