LOGINI found the lie on a Tuesday. Five thousand dollars. Every month. Going to a woman with my husband's last name. When Flynn came home and saw me sitting on the office floor surrounded by bank statements, he didn't even try to deny it. He just stood there and told me he couldn't explain. Three years of marriage and all I got was “I can't”. So I left. Three months later I met Dominic. Flynn's biggest business rival. Charming, warm, patient in all the ways Flynn never was. He made me laugh for the first time in months. He made me feel like myself again. He felt like the right choice. Except he wasn't. Now I'm pregnant, furious, and standing in the middle of two men who both claim they love me. They're both asking me to trust them. But they both already broke that trust.
View More暗闇の中。
ほんのりと淡緑黄色で照らされた部屋はどこか幻想的で、そこに立つ彼は普段とは違って見えた。
近づいて来る彼はとても整った顔をしていて……。口元には赤い血が付いていて、それを指で拭った。
そんな仕草も妖艶でつい魅入られてしまう。 「なぁ……俺の秘密、知っちゃった?」そう言って弧を描く口元に視線が吸い寄せられる。
ドクドクと心臓がうるさいほど。 「俺とヒミツの関係、なってよ?」 ***あたし、倉木灯里(くらきあかり)は悩んでいた。
高校一年になった四月の終わり。GW直前の土曜日。
鏡の前でうんうん唸りながらどうしようか悩む。 「いっそぶっちゃけて本気メイクで行くか……地味子を通すためにナチュラルメイクで行くか……」 悩んだ末に、あたしはナチュラルメイクで行くことにした。 今日出かけるのは遊園地。外を歩くことが多いだろうから、日焼け止め下地は必須。
肌のトーンを明るくするリキッドファンデーションをポンポンと塗って、仕上げに化粧筆でパウダーをサッと撫でる。
アイブロウは目立たないように薄めに描いて、アイメイクはしないでおく。
最後にリップクリームを塗って唇を保湿して、軽くティッシュを当てる。
リップライナーと赤みの少ないタイプのルージュを塗り、もう一度ティッシュを当てた。
鏡を見直して、おかしいところがないかチェックをする。 「うん、こんなもんかな」メイクに納得したので、他の準備を始めた。
なんであたしがこんなに悩んでメイクをしているかというと、今日はクラスの校外学習で同じ班になった子達と一緒に遊園地に行くからだ。
中学までは同じくメイクが好きな友達とわいわい普通に楽しんでいた。でも高校に進学するにあたってその友達とも別れてしまい、しかも今の高校は今どき珍しいくらい校則が厳しい。
髪を染めるのはもってのほか。
メイクなんて色付きリップですら指導が入る。
違反したら容赦なく内申点が削られるとか。 校内でメイクは楽しめないと早々に諦めたあたしは、休みの日にめいいっぱい楽しもうと決めて学校ではいわゆる地味子で行くことにした。少しでもおしゃれをしようと考えると本気メイクをしたくなってしまうからだ。
まあ、そのせいで特に仲の良い友達も出来なかったのは痛手だったけれど……。それでも班に誘ってくれる人とかはいたし、そこまで不自由は感じていない。
で、土曜日で休みの今日。
休みの日だからメイクを楽しみたいところだけれど、今日会うのは学校の面々。
別にメイクが好きなことがバレても構わないんだけど、それで学校でもメイクの話をするようになったらあたしの我慢が限界に達しそうだと思った。
だから今日も地味子で通すことにはしたけれど、休みの日だから少しでもメイクは楽しみたい。その結果が今のナチュラルメイクだ。
パッと見はメイクしてるなんて気付かないだろう。ちゃんと見ても、色付きリップ塗ってるかなってくらいだと思う。
中学の友達くらいメイクに精通していれば肌のトーンとかでリキッド塗ってるのは気付くだろうけれど、多分普通の女子高生なら気付かない。それくらいのナチュラルメイクだ。
ある意味力作なナチュラルメイクに合わせたのはボーダーTシャツにピンクベージュのパーカー。 そして明るめの色合いのジーンズだ。肩までの髪はいじらずそのまま。
寝癖だけは気を付ける。最後に学校で使っている地味ーな黒縁メガネをかけて今日のコーデは完成だ。
メガネはもう少しオシャレな可愛いフレームのものもお年玉で買ったのを持っているけれど、学校では地味子に徹(てっ)すると決めたので小学校の頃から使っているものをかけている。高校生になった記念にと言ってコンタクトもワンデイのものを買わせてもらったけれど、こっちは本当に休みの日用だからまだ二回くらいしか使っていない。
そんな感じで準備を終えた頃にはそろそろ家を出ないといけない時間だった。 「あ、ごはん食べる時間微妙……」でも美容のためにも朝食を抜くと言うのはありえない。
簡単にヨーグルトにフルーツグラノーラをかけたものだけ食べることにした。 「それだけ? いつもはサラダとかハムとかも食べてるのに」休みの日だからとゆっくり朝食を食べているお母さんに言われたけれど、そんなに食べている時間はない。
かき込めば食べれるかも知れないけれど、美容にも健康にも良くない。
そういうのがクセになって、いつもそんな食べ方してると肌も荒れてしまいそうだ。そう、肌も荒れる。
つまり、化粧ノリが悪くなる!!
それだけは絶対にさけたい。 まあ、こんなだからお母さんにはメイクオタクとか言われちゃうんだけれど。 「時間ないからしかたないよ。これ食べたら出るから」「そう? じゃあ用意しておいたサラダは夜に食べる?」
「うん、取っておいて」
朝は食べれなくても一日の栄養分として摂取しておきたい。
ちょっと遅くなったけれど、待ち合わせには何とか間に合いそうだ。あたしは小走りで待ち合せ場所に向かいながら、今日出かけることになった経緯を思い出していた。
VIVIAN’S POVSix weeks had passed since Dominic transferred out of my care. I kept telling myself I was fine. I filled his old Thursday slot with a new patient who was struggling with anxiety after losing his job. My schedule stayed full, my notes were clear and on time, work felt steady. I had thought about him only a manageable number of times. I had not opened his file once since I sent the referral. I was fine. Or at least I tried to be.I had just finished with my last patient for Tuesday and I gathered my things to go home. The office had gone quiet and everyone else had left for the day. I turned off my computer, checked that the lights in the hall were off, and walked through the waiting room toward the exit.Then I stopped dead.Dominic was sitting in the chair by the window. He stood up the moment he saw me. There was something different in the way he held himself. No careful composure trying to manage the space around him. Just a man getting to his feet because the person h
DOMINIC’S POVThree days had passed since that last session with James and his words would not leave me alone. I kept hearing him say that fear of my own feelings was not the same as healthy self awareness. I had spent the last three days walking around my penthouse and asking myself the same questions again and again. Was I really different now? Or was I just delaying the same mistakes with a different face?The doorbell rang and pulled me out of my thoughts. I opened the door and found Mia standing there with two bags of groceries in her hands.“Hi Mia… what… what are you doing here?” I asked.“I have come to cook for my brother,” she said, stepping inside without waiting for an invitation.“Mia, I am fine. I can cook for myself.”“I know you can but I want to. Let me take care of you would ya?”She walked straight to the kitchen and started unpacking. I followed her and helped put things away. We moved around each other the way we used to when we were younger. For a while we worke
DOMINIC’S POVI arrived early for the fifth session with James but stayed in my car until the exact time. I had spent the entire week turning over what I said in his office last time. The words had come out before I could stop them. *She makes the room feel different when she is in it.* I had not planned to say that. I had not even planned to admit it to myself in that way. All week I kept hearing James’s response in my head. I had wanted to argue with him. I had wanted to insist that it was just another version of the same problem. But I could not make the argument hold even if I tried.I walked into his office and sat down. James gave me his usual nod and waited. He never rushed the beginning of a session. He let the silence sit until I was ready to fill it.“I have been thinking about…what I said last week,” I told him.James nodded again. “Tell me about that.”I looked at the plant by the window. The leaves were now slightly uneven on one side.“I said she makes the room feel di
DOMINIC’S POVDr. James Sterling’s office felt different from the one I had left behind. The walls had warmer colors. More books lined the shelves, a large plant sat in the corner, its leaves reaching toward the window like it had been there for years. James himself was fifty-two. He moved with the kind of stillness that came from decades of sitting with other people’s difficult truths without being shaken by them. I sat down across from him and felt the weight of starting over.This was my first session with him. I had transferred because I needed a different approach. I told him that much. I said I felt the previous work had reached a point where I needed fresh eyes on things. James nodded without pressing for more details. He simply asked me to tell him what I hoped to work on.I talked about the patterns I had been fighting. I told him about Aria and how I got obsessed. About how I had turned love into control and scared her. I used plain language because he was a stranger and str


















Welcome to GoodNovel world of fiction. If you like this novel, or you are an idealist hoping to explore a perfect world, and also want to become an original novel author online to increase income, you can join our family to read or create various types of books, such as romance novel, epic reading, werewolf novel, fantasy novel, history novel and so on. If you are a reader, high quality novels can be selected here. If you are an author, you can obtain more inspiration from others to create more brilliant works, what's more, your works on our platform will catch more attention and win more admiration from readers.