What If One Of Us Still Has Feelings Left

Tomorrow was the weekend and Eiran slept in before heading for his appointment in the afternoon.

“Is it possible for a bond to break even if one of them still has feelings?” Eiran looked at Uriah.

“It is possible since one no longer has feelings for the other there is less chance of this happening." Uriah looked lost as he saw Eiran’s face.

“And what if the one who has feelings tries his best to suppress his feelings?”

“It’s about the connection between the two bodies and emotional flow through that connection. If there are no emotions being delivered then yes it’s possible.” Uriah placed his hand beneath his chin. “But in such a moment one is bound to lose control over their emotions. And pheromones in that moment deliver the emotions. So as I have said multiple times it’s almost impossible.”

He looked at Eiran contemplating. “Why are you asking? Do you have any feelings remaining?”

“Not at all.” Eiran looked flustered. “I just don’t believe that bastard. I don’t want to get swept up in his trap.”

He stood up. “Then see you later doctor.”

He got into the elevator. I have a feeling that I can’t get over my past emotions because of one reason. Although those emotions feel distant from me. It’s not like I am feeling them but it’s more like I remember them and I don’t want them to come back to me.

He got out. That’s why I need to get rid of this bond, it’s the only reason that I can’t severe my connection to those past feelings. I want to break that connection and progress with my life.

His feet felt heavy and he stopped at the side of busy road filled with traffic. In other words I feel for him because I am bonded to him not because I still like him.

The next day Eiran was sitting on the bench in a quiet place in the University.

He looked at Knight approaching him and his chest tightened. Am I doing it right? When he stirs the ruckus inside my chest like that.

6 YEARS AGO

Eiran moved to Morvane when he was sixteen. It was his first day at Morvane High School. He took a deep breath and walked into his classroom, settling in the third row beside the window as he had been instructed earlier in the teacher’s office.

“Are you also in your second year?” A boy with red hair approached him. “I saw you in the teachers office earlier. I am Antin the class president,” Antin extended his hand and Eiran grabbed it for an awkward handshake.

“I am Eiran, I’m in your care.”

“You can drop the formalities, we are in the same class anyways.”

“Thanks.” Eiran smiled cautiously.

Antin walked away and Eiran let out a deep breath. He was not good at conversing with strangers. He barely talked in his previous school.

Then his gaze drifted to a long haired guy who just entered. Long black hair covering half of the emerald green eyes.

Don’t teachers say anything about his hair. Eiran stared at him, who sat down in the front row in the middle section. He is as tall as me. Eiran supported his chin with his elbow over the desk. His eyes are beautiful!

“Already in love with him?”

He flinched and got startled by a short haired girl who whispered in his ear sitting behind him.

“Isn’t he too handsome?” She continued and Eiran’s eyes drifted back to him. “He is Knight Victor.”

Eiran dragged his chair ahead to avoid her and she pouted.

“Handsome people are always obnoxious,” she whispered to herself but Eiran heard her as if she meant for him to hear it.

Eiran once again looked at Knight. “She is right he is extremely handsome.

A moment later, a girl approached Knight with a box of coloured pencils. “I like you. Would you like to go out with me?”

Eiran eyes rounded. In front of everyone?

Knight stood up and walked out ignoring her completely.

“Aweeee!” The class boys screamed in union. “Another heart is broken.”

Eiran looked out of the window, “exactly, why would she confess in front of everyone.” He mumbled.

“Because he wouldn’t go out even if she asked to hear her confession.” The girl behind him leaned forward.

“Can you please stop snooping at me,” Eiran’s voice was gentle and low. “It’s uncomfortable.” He bowed before looking away.

From that moment on Eiran has been stealing glances of Knight from time to time during their classes. Later he walked out for lunch break and saw Knight being confessed by a boy in the alley and froze for a moment.

Knight listened to his confession until the end before walking away nonchalantly without giving an answer.

Eiran walked into the cafeteria and got his lunch before settling down on an empty table. The girl that was sitting behind him settled across him.

“I am Emery and you?” She took a bite looking at him who just looked back at her coldly.

“I think I didn’t make myself clear enough,” his voice was gentle. “I like to be alone so can you please leave me alone?”

“What a jerk!” She almost yelled and grabbed her plate moving to the next table.