ログインCHAPTER 5
Occupying the Space Between
POV: Elara
I spent most of my time looking at structural load bearings for a skyscraper in Dubai. This was the project that would fund my entire ‘disappearance’, or maybe let’s call it ‘death’.
The journey back from the border was silent, the same for the rhythmic clicking of my turn signal as we pulled over into the Crescent Estate.
My heart didn't flutter with the usual relief of coming home. It sank in, especially after seeing a stranger's car parked crookedly near the fountain. It was Ivy’s.
I walked through the front doors, my heels clicking like a warning on the marble. I was headed for the kitchen to check on dinner, but on second thought, I headed for the sunroom. I heard the bright, melodic sound of Arlo’s laughter.
I froze in the doorway.
Ivy was sitting in my armchair, the one by the window where I spent my mornings sketching. Then my eyes caught something quite surprising. my silk scarf, tied around her wrist like a trophy. As if that wasn’t enough, she was showing Arlo how to sharpen a hunting knife.
"Careful, little Alpha," Ivy purred, her eyes glinting with a feral satisfaction. "A dull blade is a coward’s weapon. Your mother wouldn't understand, but you need to know how to draw blood."
Arlo looked up, his face flushed with excitement. He hadn’t seen me yet.
[Arlo’s Voice]: Ivy is so much cooler. She doesn't tell me to be careful or wash my hands. She talks to me like I’m already a wolf. I wish the house always felt this... alive.
The "Voice" felt like a physical blow to my solar plexus. I leaned against the doorframe, my lungs hitching as a familiar, metallic heat rose in my throat. I swallowed it down. Not yet.
"The scarf is a nice touch, Ivy," I said, my voice cutting through the warmth of the room like a shard of ice. "Though I usually prefer it around my neck, not as a bandage around your lack of personality."
Ivy jumped, her silver-white hair whipping around. Arlo’s smile vanished, replaced by that guarded, defensive look he always gave me lately.
"Elara!" Ivy recovered quickly, leaning back in my chair. "We were just waiting for you. Roman said you were... 'out.' He seemed concerned you’d forgotten the pack dinner tonight."
[Ivy’s Voice]: Look at her. That suit makes her look like a funeral director. She’s already mourning her own marriage, and she doesn't even know it.
"I didn't forget," I said, stepping into the room. I walked straight to Ivy, reaching down and snatching my silk scarf from her wrist with a sharp tug. "I just didn't realize we’d started inviting the help to sit in the family quarters before the sun went down."
"Mom!" Arlo stood up, his small chest heaving. "Don't be mean to Ivy. She was helping me!"
I looked at my son, the boy I had spent years protecting from the pack's harsh realities.
[Arlo’s Voice]: Why is she always so bitter? No wonder Father doesn't want to be in the same room as her. She’s like a dark cloud.
"Go to your room, Arlo," I said quietly.
"But..."
"Now."
He stomped past me, his shoulder glancing against my hip. It was a deliberate "bump," a wolf’s way of showing disrespect. He didn't care that I winced as the impact rattled my fragile ribs.
Once he was gone, Ivy stood up, her height giving her an advantage she loved to use. "You’re losing them, Elara. The pack, the boy... the Alpha. You’re a human in a wolf’s den. Eventually, the den gets cleaned out."
"You're right, Ivy," I whispered, leaning in so close that she could smell the expensive, human perfume I wore to mask the scent of my medication. "But when a house is cleaned, the trash always goes out first."
I turned and walked toward the stairs, leaving her fuming in the sunlight. But as I reached the landing, I saw Roman standing in the shadows of the hallway. He had heard everything.
[Roman’s Voice]: She’s vicious today. Sharp. I should be angry... but why can't I stop looking at the way that suit fits her?
. Since when did my 'fragile' wife have a spine made of steel?
I didn't give him the satisfaction of an explanation. I walked right past him, my head held high, even as a fresh drop of blood escaped my lip and stained my white collar.
CHAPTER 17 Engaging The Citizen, Not the WolfPOV: Elara It was snowing. I spent the whole morning watching the snow drift past the glass. Each flake was a tiny reminder of how much I hated the cold. It was quiet here, too quiet, no psychic thrum of the Crescent Pack’s collective anxiety vibrating in my teeth. I lay there lifeless, felt like a ghost haunting my own ribcage.My chest started hitching; a familiar, wet rattling sound echoed in the room. I reached for a plastic cup of water on the bedside table, but my hand gave out halfway there. My fingers felt like they were made of dry porcelain, brittle and uncooperative. I tried to stretch out my arm again, but in vain."Dammit," I hissed, the word catching on a lump of phlegm Silas watched her from the doorway, his arms crossed over his massive chest. He didn't rush to help her. He knew Elara Vance. He knew that to offer her a glass of water right now would be an insult she would never forgive. He watch
CHAPTER 16 The Ghost In The MachinePOV: ElaraMy eyelids opened slowly as the cool air brushed my skin. Right from the ceiling, my eyes started to scan through the room.Had Roman found me? Had he taken me back to the Crescent Estate…. Oh my days!! ….This can’t be happening. Then I looked around again, this time carefully. Then flashbacks before my black out flooded in. Silas. He had saved me. He saw me weak but wasn’t frightened; he had compassion in his eyes. That look that said, ‘let me take it from here, you’ve done enough.’ That’s all I remembered before everything turned black. Everywhere was silent. No noise, no chaos. I was in the Northern Citadel.For a long time, my head had been crowded with Roman’s emotions. His irritation felt like a low-frequency hum, his lust like a greasy film over my skin, and his Alpha-arrogance like a weight on my chest. But here, I felt peace. I had almost forgotten what it was like. Even the bond was nothi
CHAPTER 15 The Empty Seat at the Head of the TableThe silence in the Crescent Estate was no longer peaceful. It was empty. The kind that would haunt you in sleep. It felt like the heart had forgotten its rhythm and stopped beating, leaving the rest of the body to wither.Roman stood in the centre of Elara’s study. Her scent lingered there, that expensive, crisp jasmine, and the faint, metallic scent of the "human" world was beginning to fade. Slowly by slowly.Roman’s Voice: She’s gone and truly gone. I felt the snap. In the middle of the training session, it felt like someone had reached into my chest and severed a silver wire. Silas. If he touched her...... I will burn the North to the ground."Father?", Arlo called out with concern.Roman turned. He was standing in the doorway. He looked small. For the first time since he’d sprouted his claws, the "Future Alpha" looked like a seven-year-old boy. He was holding the silver Zippo lighter, flicking it open an
CHAPTER 14 The Body Remembers What the Heart ForgetsPOV: ElaraI leaned my forehead against the cool glass of the window. Looking in my reflection, I saw a charcoal sketch. With no colour at all to add to its touch, all angles very sharp, and hollow eyes. The "Human Rejection" was no longer a slow leak; it was a flood that was drowning meWe had crossed the Northern Border. And for the first time in eight years, the air pressure changed. The thick, musky weight of the Crescent Pack’s territory thinned out, replaced by the sharp, biting cold of the mountain range.My lungs didn't find relief. They found a vacuum.Roman’s Voice: She’s crossing. She’s actually leaving the land. The bond is stretching………… Elara… come. back. You won’t survive the night in those mountains.I reached up and rubbed my temples, trying to massage the sound of him out of my brain. He was miles away, but the "Voice" was like a ghost limb; it hurt."Ma'am? Your oxygen levels are drop
CHAPTER 13 The Guest Who Isn't Coming BackPOV: ElaraIt was midday. The pack usually had its training session around this time. No one even paid attention elsewhere. I had mastered their patterns like an assignment.Someone sent me a letter. It didn’t come through the pack’s mail runner. Or via the gate where a subservient wolf would be bowing. It arrived via a black drone, hovering its way over the terrace.It dropped a heavy, cream-colored envelope right onto the centre of the training mats. The symbol on the wax seal was a silver mountain range. The Northern Pack. Silas’s mark. I was sure no one was watching, but sadly, I was wrong.Roman intercepted it, his fingers nearly shredding the paper as he ripped it open. I watched from the balcony. The suit jacket was draped over my shoulders like armour. My breathing was getting shallow, the "Human Rejection." It made every lungful of air feel like I was inhaling glass.Roman’s Voice: He’s inviting
CHAPTER 12 Incinerating the Human BridgePOV: ElaraThe attic of the east wing was the only place that still smelled like my life, before the fur and the fangs. It was a dusty, quiet corner.Going there reminded me that I was still human, despite everything. From the time I got married, I had lost my spark. I couldn't tell what I had become. But deep down, I knew I’d lost something. Something that was once part of me but slowly faded away, for good.In there, I kept my university degree, my first architectural sketches, and a pressed bundle of lavender from my grandmother’s garden in Florida.This place was my anchor. When the "Voice" got too loud or the "Human Rejection" made my skin feel like it was melting off my bones, I would come here. I would touch the rough paper and remember I wasn't just a "useless" Luna. I once had an identity, before all this. The Crescent Pack, Roman, Arlo. everything.But when I pushed open the heavy oak door, the scent was







