LOGINThe sun was already setting. The feast for the night had been laid because no one could bear being idle. I had taken charge of the hunt for tonight because I needed to subdue. To take my anger out on something.
And yet... they were still not back. "Mummy? Aunt Mila and Aunt Lily are still not back. Is it because of my butterfly?" I swallowed hard and looked down at Amanda. She was looking up at me with wide, innocent eyes, her other hand playing around with the tiny cutlery in her food. "Maybe. You know, butterflies are hard to catch. But nonetheless, they will be back soon enough." She nodded but leaned closer. "I miss Aunt Mila. I miss Aunt Lily. They promised that they would show me the pink dress they made for me." I held her a little tighter. I had no answers. If by morning, they weren't back, we all knew. Something had happened. Alpha Cole would have struck again. "Jackson!" Alan, who had been guarding the territory entrance, said, causing the rest of us to straighten. "Grandpa?" Amanda said, and I immediately nodded, a wave of relief flooding through me. They were back. They were really back. I ran forward to the entrance, where Jackson slowly walked through, his smile small and forced. Behind him... behind him was no one. My brows furrowed, and I turned to him. Everyone else checked, and no one said anything to welcome the four other people who had gone to Blackmoon with him. "Where are the rest?" Alan asked before I could, his voice low, expectant. I nodded as if it would somehow make the answer come faster. "In Blackmoon," Jackson answered simply, as he took a seat. He suddenly looked older, more fragile. "Grandpa Jackson, are Aunt Mila and Aunt Lily coming back soon?" Jackson gave her a forced smile before his eyes fell to me. I turned to one of the younger girls. "Take her in." The girl immediately accepted Amanda from me. She clung on to my dress for a second, and I held her hands. "Mummy will be there soon, okay?" She nodded, but once the girl turned away, she started to cry. I hated it. I hated that I would most probably have more bad news for her little, pure heart after. "Talk to us, Jackson," I said, my voice low. "Why did you come back alone? Why are the rest in Blackmoon? What exactly are they doing there?" He sighed and leaned back. "They are in prison. I saw them escorted to prison." All colours immediately drained from my face. I had, for a split second when Jackson's arrival was announced, felt a bit of hope that the Alpha Cole I had desperately been in love with five years ago was still somewhere in there, hanging on. Now... "How did you come back?" Alan asked. "I may understand why Gabriel is imprisoned, but what if Mila, Lily, and Sarah?" Jackson bit down on his lips. "We met Alpha Cole. At first, he was... very understanding. He even praised us for coming forward. All of a sudden, one of his officials came in with a woman. Turns out one out of the two soldiers who were injured succumbed to his injuries. The woman was the soldier's widow, and they demanded justice. Alpha Cole gave it to them, but he picked only Gabriel. Sarah said she wouldn't leave Gabriel alone. Mila and Lily too. Alpha Cole asked me to leave so that if Gabriel had any family, they could be present for his public execution a day after the full moon ball. The ointments I took were useless." I gasped, my hand covering my mouth. "A... a public execution? Gabriel is only eighteen!" "It is a matter of honour for them. Alpha Cole has something to prove to his subjects, and this is the best way for him to show them that he is on their side. It is unfortunate, but can we really blame him? He lost two soldiers." "That is bullshit!" I yelled, my chest heaving hard. My heart was breaking so loudly I thought pieces of it would fly right out of my ribcage. "Gabriel is barely of age." "But he is still of age! He killed two people and the other is hanging by a thread." Jackson swallowed hard, and I caught a glint of tears on his eyes. "Maybe this is the best for all of us. If Gabriel gets away with murder once, he might not have any qualms..." "You know Gabriel, Jackson," I said, stepping forward. "He is the sweetest boy. He can be a little reckless..." "Exactly." Jackson stood up. "Would you say the same thing if you were still Alpha Cole's bodyguard and all you see when you look at Gabriel is a young, untamed killer?" I swallowed hard, tears filling my eyes. Because I knew, if I was with him, Gabriel would be punished by my own hands. "He is protecting his people. Why aren't you protecting yours, Jackson?" "Selena," Alan said, holding me back, but I was too far gone. Jackson's eyes met mine, and the vulnerability in there slowly curdled to anger. "Don't you dare say that to me, Selena." "No, you go there, hoping to come back intact, and you come back alone, like a coward, after leaving all four back there. Mila and Lily are more of men than you will ever be because you let that bastard Cole get in your ear and now you wish your own..." The slap landed on my cheek hard, causing me to stumble back, tears running down my cheeks steadily. My hand slowly came up to cup my cheek, my chest heaving hard. "I did everything I could to protect Gabriel. Gabriel was troublesome, and always beat up the younger kids. He had anger problems that Sarah refused to address and had trouble controlling his wolf. I told Sarah not to let him go on a hunt just yet and she snuck him out with Mila and Lily. I am not surprised he killed someone. What the fuck are you going to say to the woman who has to go to bed without her husband? Will you explain to them that because Alpha Cole betrayed you, you feel entitled to justify anything wrong that happens to him and his pack?" My lips quivered as I turned to face Jackson. He was barely holding back his rage. I had never seen him like that. "I am going to go there," I said simply, my chest heaving. "I am only going to return with Mila and Lily." Jackson took a step back. "Fine, then. Go. Do whatever you want. If Alpha Cole decides on a punishment for Gabriel, maybe you can take it up with him then." My eyes darted between both of his, and I turned away, leaving the rest standing around. "Selena," Alan said, walking into the dimly lit room. I was pacing the length of the room. Amanda had cried herself to sleep before I even got back. "Don't. Don't tell me I am wrong." "You are right," Alan said, causing me to stop. "What?" "Even if Gabriel killed soldiers, we both know Alpha Cole is simply being cruel. Maybe this is a power trip for him. Maybe this is his way of putting everyone else in their place. He had no right to keep the other three. He had no right to declare public execution for Gabriel. Jackson had no right to hit you." He covered the distance and gently cupped my cheek, his thumb running along the skin. I swallowed hard, that familiar feeling of dread climbing in my chest, but I leaned into his hand, letting Alpha Cole's hatred win. He gave a small smile, then let his other hand settle on my waist. "Will you help me, then?" His eyes darted to my lips. "I could. What do you want?" "I want to enter Blackmoon on the night of the full moon. The security would be a lot more relaxed, and everyone would be distracted. Entering the palace through the servants entrance would be easy, since I know they normally have dance troops for the ball. I know where everything is, and I can use the underground exit meant for rhe Alpha's escape in cases of treason or war if anything goes wrong. Besides, it would be best to sneak then out through it. I will be able to bring them out." Alan nodded slowly. "Do you need me to come with you? What of Amanda?" I shook my head. "I should be fine alone. It will be quick. But I will need you to take Amanda. I can't just leave her here, and I trust you. Maybe bring her with us but you will wait outside the palace, in the omega settlements. Those places are unguarded and none of the violence will get to that part of the pack no matter what. We can leave fast once I have the others." Alan nodded slowly. "What happens if you see him?" I bit down on my lower lip. "That is why I intend to borrow your hunting silver gun. Mine is not enough." "Will you kill him?" He asked, leaning closer, his fingers tracing the edge of my waist. He looked almost expectant. I swallowed. I couldn't imagine killing Alpha Cole. I couldn't imagine... "Yes. If... If I meet him and he tries to stop me, I intend to kill him." Alan gave a small smile. "Fine, then. I guess I can forfeit the dance you promised me for that." He turned and walked away, and I stood there, feeling his fingers on my skin like a claim. The full moon night was in two days. Until then, Mila and Lily.SELENA'S P.O.V I rarely heard the rest of the things they said throughout the rest of the meeting. There was much less opposition now that Alphs cole had made it clear just how little patience he had for their nonsense.I blinked as the council members stood up. I looked up, unable to even remember what had happened. Alpha Cole have a wave of dismissal, and they walked away. Sylvia stayed sitting, Beta Alan stood behind her couch, the two men stood where they were."We have finalized everything, Alpha. We will start preparations immediately. Also, we have contacted the couture house in Silver fangs. They will arrive later, for measurements and your requirements." Alpha Cole simply nodded. "Good work, David. I appreciate you coming in at such short notice."The man, David, gave a small, almost shy smile. "You know I would stop whatever commitments I have for you, Alpha. You are that important to me."I raised a brow, and turned to Evan who looked almost annoyed. He met my eyes, then
SELENA'S P.O.V "Now that we have established that the entire pack will be invited to the two festivals and that the dignitaries will only be around for the main birthday banquet, can we have a full guest list? I have made a short outline of people we absolutely can not miss giving the gold scroll to."The man leaned forward and handed his tablet to Alpha Cole. Alpha Cole accepted it, his brows furrowed as he took in the list. He brought his right index finger and tapped on the screen, then seemed to make a few alterations before handing it back to the man.He accepted it, then looked down. For a tense second, he looked between Alpha Cole and then the rest of the council, who have still not managed to make peace with Alpha Cole's decisions yet."Alpha," the man finally said, his voice low. "Uhm... are you saying that the pack council are not to be invited?"I raised a brow in surprise, as a gasp filled the small space. Isaac leaned dangerously close, his brows drawn together in the so
SELENA'S P.O.V I lingered against the wall for a long minute, just listening. The room next door was quiet for a long while. I sat on the floor, my eyes closed as I listened to the sounds. Any sound would have satisfied me.I heard when Alpha Cole woke up. I heard when Evan told him to be careful. I heard the sigh he let out as the water hit his skin in the shower.As if compelled by a force, I pushed myself off the wall and went into the shower. I closed my eyes against the hot water, my chest tight as I felt the water run down my skin.I thought about how I would apologize to him. Do I go on my knees? Do I cry and break down? I thought of Amanda. She would probably be so disappointed in me for pushing her father away. It felt like my sins against the two of them were piling up, and I wasn't sure how much of it I could keep up with anymore. I wasn't sure how much of it I could atone for without losing my soul.I got out of the shower and changed into a simple dress. I left my hair
EVAN'S P.O.V.I let my hand rest under Alpha Cole's cheek, his warmth spreading through my palm, his pulse low but evident. A single tear still rested on his lashes, and I resisted the urge to reach out. Not just to his face or his skin. I wanted to reach out to his heart and kiss it a little better in the only way I knew how.But there was only one person that he would allow, and she was next door.I held my breath as I listened. She wasn't crying anymore. Maybe she had slipped into a restless sleep just like him. Maybe she had nothing else to cry out.I felt my heart clench, as my hand sank into his hair. I looked down. He was vulnerable. Not as vulnerable as he was when Selena had been nothing but a callback from the past, but vulnerable still.I leaned down close, my eyes darting across both of his closed ones. He was astoundingly beautiful. It was almost irritating just how perfect he looked under these lights, even with the thin red line that showed just how much the emotional t
ALPHA COLE'S P.O.V My head felt like it would split in two, and somehow, my heart felt worse. I sat on the edge of my bed, Selena's scent still engraved everywhere like a punishment, wrapped up in the last robe she had worn.I wanted to feel something. Anything other than the crippling fear that the ship might have sailed for us a while ago and she would never be able to trust me again.I wondered what I could do better. Explain better, allow her to have the mate bond back? Maybe have her around me all the time.My throat closed, the back of my eyes stinging a bit more."I think she trusts you. She is just... scared."I slowly looked up. Evan was standing close to the shower. His usual hood was off, his hair falling across his eyes. His arms were folded in front of him, his expression carefully blank.I looked away and took in a deep breath. "You should go, I...""I don't want to go anywhere. Not after I saw that."I met his eyes. "I am not that weak. I am not going to relapse and...
SELENA'S P.O.V I turned, my chest heaving. I did nothing to stop the tears that ran down my cheeks in slow, fast torrents. I hated myself for putting him through the hell of my own insecurities. Of my own distrust. My fingers gently wrapped around the door knob, and my knees threatened to give away under me. My body felt like it was supposed to belong somewhere else. Somewhere closer to him. I turned the door knob."Selena."My heart jumped, and I turned, my eyes widened with hope. Most of which crumbled the minute I saw his eyes. Still wet. Still exhausted. Still filled with the hurt I put in there.He took a step forward, then gently passed a first aid box, letting it fall to the space between us. I looked down, the tears tearing me apart from somewhere deeper than even I could reach right now."For the bleeding."I bit down on my lower lip so hard that I tasted my blood. Was it too shameless to say sorry? To say I was selfish and greedy and deeply, stupidly sorry, and that I nee
SELENA'S P.O.V I cleaned out the guns and daggers, laying them out on the floor in the room. I stepped back, my eyes taking in the weapons. Most of them were my hunting gear, as I have had no use for weapons in five years.The sun was already coming up, and tomorrow would be the full moon festival
ALPHA COLE'S P.O.V The council meeting was already making sure that no matter what I did, I would be in a bad mood. I leaned back on my seat, my fingers gently rubbing my temples, as I tried my best to keep the mounting annoyance in before I exploded on every single person in here."Alpha," Counci
SELENA'S P.O.V A second passed, and silence fell between us. Everyone had gathered around now, yet no one could say a word. Blackmoon. Alpha Cole. All of the things I ran away from.Jackson cleared his throat. He mostly did that when he absolutely needed to lean into his authority as one of the ol
SELENA'S P.O.V The dance troupe proceeded to the palace, and I joined, quickly learning their chants as we made the short journey to the palace.Soon enough, the palace loomed in front of us. I stopped for a second to catch my breath, my chest heaving. I still knew the palace like the back of my h







