LOGINADELINE
It lands square on his back before falling to the floor by the bed. The dead rat peeks out of the opening and the girl screams louder than I did when I first saw it. Both their reactions are satisfying to watch.The girl pushes him off her and while he struggles to keep his balance, she struggles to cover herself up but fails terribly so she runs past me anyway with more loose buttons on her blouse than I can count.
Cussing as he pushes his hair back, he stands before aggressively kicking the paper bag to a corner of the room. He covers up the distance between us in two long strides.
My eyes don’t waver even when James Sullivan Junior, self-acclaimed king of high school and my nemesis since the 9th grade stands chest-bare in front of me.
Now I know what you’re thinking. But no; James and Nora aren’t in any way related. Not even remotely. It’s just so unfortunate that my favorite talent shares the last name of a douchebag who thinks he owns the school because a huge chunk of his father’s wealth goes into funding it.
“What’s your deal, Caldwell?” He stresses my last name in a rather demeaning way, his voice dangerously low. It must be so painful to have been cock-blocked by me.
“What do you think, James?” The scowl that takes form on his face after I say that satisfies me greatly. You see, it’s our thing; he thinks he's degrading me by calling me by my last name and I rile him up by calling him by his real name knowing quite well that he detests it and prefers to be called Junior. Junior my ass.
“You could have knocked if you wanted in on the fun.” He taunts me.
I scrunch my nose, internally cringing at his words.
“Gross. I wouldn’t touch you with a ten-foot pole.” I say.
He clicks his tongue, “Believe me, half the girls in school will beg to differ.” The scowl is still very much present in his stupidly handsome features as he shamelessly hints at his sexcapades. I don’t let my fleeting thoughts of his looks distract me from my goal.
“It’s too early for Christmas presents, don’t you think?” I say and he surprises me with a sly smile that has the ends of his lips lifting up. My head reels in annoyance.
“Forgive Jackson, man must have grabbed whatever he could find at the flea market,” He casually talks about his friend serving as his errand boy and then leans closer, catching me by surprise and making me aware of the fact that he is still very much half-naked, “Do you want me to get you another one? I love gifting my friends, you know that better than anyone else.”
Mischief burns bright in his eyes. Not the look I’d hoped to see but I’m not even surprised that nothing ever catches him off-guard.
Okay, he won. One thing I can’t ignore is how devastatingly handsome James is. That is perhaps another one of the things(asides his brilliance)he has in common with Nora; that gorgeous face that houses striking blue eyes, a straight firm nose, full lips every teenage girl would die for and a head of jet black hair that falls roughly over his forehead and screams I just got laid every time or in this case: I almost got laid.
James is the perfect exhibit for the looks can be deceiving campaign. Underneath all of that gorgeousness is a devilish spirit that seeks only to ruin and lay waste to anything that crosses his path.
I would know because I have suffered through three years of high school for one accident that he is too childish to let go and now tortures me everyday since the first time I met him.
“Don’t you, Caldwell?” He says again, hinting at all the other times I’ve found a dead rat everywhere around me. I do not count myself as immune to his looks unlike the many girls in school who live for the very air he breathes but his wily ways are enough to set off a bomb inside of my head. Just like now.
I push back from him and he straightens up, flexing his muscles in the process.
“This has to end, James. I am not doing this with you anymore.” I say firmly, “It’s been three years, let it go!”
“Who’s counting?”
“I am!” I yell back, frustrated. “Just let me get through twelfth grade in peace and end this childish back and forth.” I can’t imagine struggling to graduate while also looking over my shoulders.
“I decide when this ends, Caldwell. You don’t.”
Words aren’t just getting to him and fists? One look at his toned body and I know I’ll lose.
“Is it fun messing with me?” I grit through clenched teeth.
He shrugs, “Unless I find myself a new toy to play with, I’d say yes. It’s fun.”
He starts to shrug on a shirt while I just stand there, unsure of what else to do. It’s as though I’m going to be the only one who ends up with a bad memory to keep me up all summer. Everything I do to get back at him just rolls off him.
“You ruined my night and I hope you spend summer break thinking about what you have done wrong and the right punishment you deserve once school starts again.”
He sidesteps me to leave the room but not without leaning in to whisper into my ear, “Enjoy your summer break, Caldwell.”
And just like that, he’s gone.
His last words ring in my ears till it peaks and I’m trembling with rage. I sure as hell won’t enjoy summer break now that it sounds like an order coming from him. That was probably his intention.
My only consolation is that I won’t be seeing James Sullivan’s devilish face for the next three months.
ADELINE“Alright, talk.” I say, as I sit across from my mother in the VIP section of a fancy restaurant she picked out for us to have this ‘talk’ that we have never had before. After all these years, it only just occurred to me on my way here that mum and I talk about everything; about our favourite shows, about school, about Cello and sometimes even boys, but never about her relationships. Halfway through dinner—it was always halfway, always—she would simply say something like, “hey, I’m seeing someone new. His name is Matt and he works in finance,” and depending on what kind of mood I was in at that moment, I’d either nod or ask what went wrong with the last guy. She would just shrug and then we would go back to our meal while I mentally prepare myself to start seeing Matt who works in finance in his boxer briefs, standing in the middle of our kitchen while sipping coffee from the ‘Best Mum in the World’ mug I got for mum on Mother’s Day. So yes, it is weird sitting across from
ADELINEMy forkful of pasta stops halfway to my mouth. I blink once, twice, set the fork back on the table, open my mouth, close it, words don’t form. Her words hang in the air and half of me expects her to pluck it right back so we can keep eating like the words never left her lips and I never heard them. But as random as they are, they’re also too real, too strong to be mere words that can be thrown around and taken back at will. Marriage?“You said you weren’t dating anymore.” I finally found my voice and those are the only words I can mutter in a quiet voice “I did.” She nods, twiddling her fingers. “But you just said you’re getting married!” My voice is anything but quiet now. My mother takes a defensive stance at the change in my tone. “Yes, I’m not dating anymore because I’m getting married.” She clarifies and I scoff, unable to believe how simple-minded she is, believing that is enough explanation for the bombshell she dropped. “You go to school Addie, dating and marria
ADELINEI hate James Sullivan but I hate mum’s bear hugs more. There was a time I used to love them; the time when it was just me and her after dad died. Whenever she pulled me into that tight embrace, I would smell dad all over her and in a way, it felt like he was still here with us and I didn’t have to miss him too much. Then she came home one day, smelling entirely different. For days, I tried and failed to figure out what changed. The new scent only grew stronger until the reason finally made itself known. It was the tall dark man I ran into in our kitchen one spring morning. He’d stayed the night and he was helping himself to breakfast from our fridge like he owned the place. Wallace, Mum’s first boyfriend. They broke up when I turned eight and it was one ugly breakup that had my mother secretly crying herself to sleep every night. I was too young to understand why she was always crying or why Wallace wasn’t lounging around our home anymore like the jobless prick he was. T
ADELINEIt lands square on his back before falling to the floor by the bed. The dead rat peeks out of the opening and the girl screams louder than I did when I first saw it. Both their reactions are satisfying to watch. The girl pushes him off her and while he struggles to keep his balance, she struggles to cover herself up but fails terribly so she runs past me anyway with more loose buttons on her blouse than I can count. Cussing as he pushes his hair back, he stands before aggressively kicking the paper bag to a corner of the room. He covers up the distance between us in two long strides. My eyes don’t waver even when James Sullivan Junior, self-acclaimed king of high school and my nemesis since the 9th grade stands chest-bare in front of me. Now I know what you’re thinking. But no; James and Nora aren’t in any way related. Not even remotely. It’s just so unfortunate that my favorite talent shares the last name of a douchebag who thinks he owns the school because a huge chunk o
ADELINEI stare down at the huge red F at the top right corner of my test sheet and dread pulls me into its icy waters, drowning me in it till I’m utterly frozen. “Just because you stare at it like that doesn’t mean the grade’s going to change, Addie.” It takes Cassidy’s snide remark to break the ice around me. Cassidy is my roommate; has been since the 10th grade when I moved out of my mother’s home in downtown Chicago and into the school’s dorm. My mother spent a shit-ton of money to get me a space here and it hadn’t mattered much to me then; after all, I was on a scholarship program and the school covered all of my tuition expenses. It was the least she could do to support me. I’d lied to her about the reasons I didn’t want to live with her anymore; told her I needed to stay close to school to practice better, to hone my Cello playing skills when in truth, I just got sick of coming home everyday from school to her and her lovers sucking faces. It pained her to do so but she let







