Mag-log inNARA
I woke up with a dull ache in my head, my eyes throbbing heavily. The room felt unfamiliar until I remembered that I hadn’t spent the night in my matrimonial room. Placing one foot at a time, I managed to get out of bed, trying to keep myself steady. The room spun around me the moment I took slow steps toward the huge, floor-length mirror opposite the bed. Looking at the woman in the reflection, I could barely recognize myself anymore. Dried makeup coated my features, heavy bags sat beneath my eyes, and my face looked extremely pale. The bed stretched behind me, its sheets scattered as though I had spent the entire night making love on it, but in reality, my sleep had been plagued with nightmares of my new husband. Tears threatened to spill as I remembered how he had slapped me last night for addressing myself as his wife and daring to touch one of the portraits of his late wife. Subconsciously, my fingers brushed my cheek as I struggled to hold back my tears. What good would it do to wallow in sadness and self-pity? I could either stand here crying all day about my fate or clean myself up and face whatever this family had to throw at me. With that in mind, I took a deep breath and ambled out of the room, heading for my matrimonial bedroom. Pushing the door open, I was met with an empty space. Quickly, I searched the closet, hoping the chauffeur had already moved my clothes there yesterday—which he had. Taking out a floral gown, I moved into the bathroom to freshen up. Minutes later, I sauntered out with a towel wrapped tightly around my body, only for the door to be pushed open and Jared to step inside. At once, my breathing froze, and cold swept through my body. I clutched the towel tighter as he stared at me, his expression hollow. “Next time, change in the bathroom before coming out,” he said simply before stepping back outside. I heaved a sigh I hadn’t even realized I was holding and quickly dressed up. Was this what my life had become? I wished Mike could see the hell I was already wallowing in. Holding myself back from breaking down again, I walked out of the bedroom and made my way downstairs toward the kitchen. As I passed a few housekeepers, I could feel their heated gazes on me. I could already tell there would be gossip flying all over the house and the entire estate, about my marriage to Jared. Taking a deep breath, I kept walking until I reached the kitchen. My eyes wandered around, taking in the expensive cutlery and kitchen utensils. The aroma of food filled the air. Two staff members hurried past me, murmuring incoherent greetings as they turned off the induction stove and began arranging plates and utensils for breakfast. I had intended to prepare breakfast myself, but clearly there was no need, it had already been taken care of. “Mrs. Wilson…” That name. Was I really Mrs. Wilson, or just the shadow of a dead woman? “Breakfast is already ready. In the next two to five minutes, it will be arranged on the dining table,” one of them informed me. I nodded and ambled out of the kitchen. To my surprise, the living room door pushed open and Jared’s mother and aunt walked in. What were they doing here? While his mother wore a cheerful smile, his aunt’s face held a sharp, judgmental expression. Her eyes swept over my outfit from head to toe, as though assessing whether it met her standards. She was an extremely nosy woman, and I silently wished our paths wouldn’t cross too often in this estate. “There she is, our brand-new bride,” his mother said warmly, walking over to hug me. I stiffened at first, my body tensing at the sudden display of affection, before slowly relaxing and returning the hug. “Good morning, Mum and Aunt,” I greeted, mustering the most respectful tone I could, my smile carefully polite. “Good morning, my dear. You look well. How was your night?” his mother asked. I simply nodded. “A nod? That’s all? Are you a lizard?” his aunt scoffed, stepping closer. Her gaze burned against my skin. “No, I didn’t mean it that way,” I quickly apologized. “Then speak. You have a mouth for a reason, young lady. Use it, and stop nodding like a lizard,” she snapped. My cheeks burned with embarrassment as a few staff members passed by. I knew they had heard every word. “Let the poor girl be,” his mother intervened gently. “She’s still settling into the house. I’m sure her night went well, and they did the needful…” Her gaze returned to me. “You did do the needful with your husband, right?” Oh God. They were asking if we had consummated the marriage. But we hadn’t. My heart dropped to my stomach as a thousand thoughts clashed in my head. How could I possibly explain that I hadn’t even slept in the room because my husband wouldn’t acknowledge me as his wife? He had slapped me just for saying it aloud. “Well? Don’t keep us waiting,” his aunt pressed. “Did you consummate your marriage last night?” Without thinking, cornered by their intense stares, I nodded frantically. “Yes. We did.” Wide smiles instantly spread across their faces, and I released a breath of relief. At least this would divert their attention for a while. “I told you they would,” his aunt said smugly. “Jared isn’t foolish. He understands the importance of an heir, and this girl will definitely give us one.” “I had my doubts, but Nara, you’ve made me so happy,” his mother said softly, cupping my cheeks. “Now, let’s eat, shall we? Breakfast seems to be ready.” “Yes, of course,” I replied. I led them to the dining area, pulling out their chairs and serving their plates. I ate in silence while they chatted about household shopping, disciplining lazy staff, upcoming events, and other trivial matters. Then suddenly, I noticed a familiar figure approaching the stairs, and my heart sank instantly. Jared. Wasn’t he supposed to have left for work? His eyes locked onto mine as he descended the stairs, his expression dark and hollow. I quickly looked away and focused on my food. “Oh, Jared, good morning,” his aunt said sweetly, her earlier harshness completely gone. “How are you?” So she was cruel to everyone else, but just not him. He gave a brief nod and pulled out a chair at the far end of the table, beginning to eat. “We stopped by to check on how you both are faring,” his mother said. “Nara has been a wonderful hostess so far.” His gaze lifted slowly to meet mine before he turned to his mother. “Well, I’m glad she has at least some sense of how to behave,” he scoffed. Excuse me? My brows furrowed in disbelief. He had the audacity to insult me in front of his mother and aunt. I hadn’t asked to marry him, so why did he despise everything I did? Swallowing my anger, I kept eating in silence, forcing myself to stay composed. “We chose well this time,” his aunt said proudly. “Very soon, we’ll be blessed with an heir, a son.” I almost choked on my food. Oh God. Please don’t let her say it. “What?” Jared asked, slowly setting down his cutlery. “Jared, my boy, no need to pretend with us,” his aunt continued cheerfully, oblivious to the tension. “Nara told us you consummated your marriage last night. I’m certain she’ll soon be pregnant and give you the son you deserve.” It felt as though my world shattered beneath me. My heart pounded violently as my appetite vanished completely. Slowly, my eyes lifted to meet Jared’s once more. The anger burning in his eyes was unmistakable.DAYS LATERJared Wilson was literally the worst person at sitting still. He’d been stuck in bed for almost a whole week now, and he was totally going crazy from cabin fever.He kept moving his laptop from one side of the blanket to the other, and he kept looking at his phone, opening the same emails over and over. Every time someone from work called him with a problem he couldn't actually fix from his room, he would just grit his teeth. Instead of being the boss at the office, he was stuck in bed with his ankle wrapped in a bandage and propped up on three different pillows.He typed a super quick email back to his assistant, CC’ed his head of operations, and closed his laptop with a loud sigh.The bedroom was totally quiet, except for Nara folding clothes on the other side of the room.She had a laundry basket resting on her hip and was just moving around smoothly. She had been doing this all week. She’d shake out a shirt, fold it up nice and neat, put it in a pile, and grab the nex
CASSIEI waited until I was totally sure… I had parked outside the gate longer than I needed to, watching the front of the house, watching the staff move in and out with their morning routines. One by one they came out toward the back with baskets and cloths in hand, the usual rhythm of the place settling into its normal morning activity.I knew this house almost as well as my own. I had grown up half my childhood walking through these halls before everything changed, before Anna, before all of it.I let myself in through the side door.The bottle was in my bag, wrapped in a plastic bag of its own so it wouldn’t slosh and give me away. I had thought about this for two days.. I already planned how it would look, how it would play out, how easily a small accident could be explained away as nothing at all.That foolish Nara. She would get what’s coming for her soon.The hallway was empty and that was my cue. I crossed to the bottom of the staircase and crouched down, working quickly, po
NARAThree days and I still hadn’t figured out how to do it.I had run through every version of the conversation in my head at least a dozen times. The casual approach. The practical approach. The desperate approach. None of them ended well when I played them out. Jared was not the kind of man you walked up to and asked for money without a very good reason and a very clear answer ready for the inevitable follow up question of why.And my reason was not something I could say out loud.I was sitting in the living room with a book I had stopped reading twenty minutes ago when I heard the front door.Jared walked in and something about the way he moved was different. Not dramatically different, not warm and open, still Jared in every way that counted.. But the sharp edge that usually came through the door with him wasn’t as sharp tonight. His jacket was over his arm instead of still buttoned up, his tie was loosened. He glanced across the room and when his eyes found me he gave a short no
NARA I didn’t sleep well one bit. Every time I got close to something deep enough to count as rest, the text message pulled me back up. The words had lodged themselves somewhere behind my eyes and they were still there when the first grey lights of morning started pushing through the curtains. I lay on my side of the bed staring at the wall and listening to Jared breathe on his side and thought about Mike. About the version of Mike I used to know, the one who held my hand and made promises and asked me to wait just a little longer. By the time Jared’s alarm went off I had already been awake for an hour. I kept still and kept my breathing even while he moved around the room getting ready. The bathroom door, the wardrobe, the soft sound of a drawer sliding open and closed. I listened to all of it with my eyes shut and my chest tight while I said nothing, still faking sleep After awhile, the bedroom door clicked shut behind him. I waited another ten minutes before I sat up. I show
The bedroom was just so quiet in a particular way that made every small sound louder than it should be.Nara sat at the dresser, pulling the brush through her hair in slow strokes and watching herself in the mirror without really seeing herself. The tea party had left something behind in her mind.. a kind of residue she couldn't shake off no matter how many times she turned the evening over in her head. Cassie's voice and taunts, her friends laughing, the way everyone in that room had looked at her like she was beneath them all.Behind her in the mirror, Jared moved around his side of the room, working the buttons of his shirt loose with very impatient fingers. He pulled it off and dropped it onto a chair before sitting on the edge of the bed.. Then he just stayed there, not moving an inch, not even reaching for his phone or laptop like he usually would. He Just sat with his elbows on his knees and his eyes fixed somewhere far away.Nara watched him through the mirror without turning
NARAI stood outside the door to Aunt Ophelia’s sitting room for almost a full minute, smoothing my hands down the front of my navy dress over and over.. It had looked okay in the mirror at home, but now I knew it was all wrong.The soft laughter and chuckling coming from inside made my stomach twist into knots. These women were not going to be like me. I could already tell… I took one last deep breath and pushed the door open before I could change my mind.The room was full, more than a dozen sophisticated ladies sat around in elegant groups.Their dresses were seemed like perfect silk, tailored skirts, soft colors that probably cost a fortune. Their hair was so done just right, jewelry sparkling every time they moved their hands. They held their teacups with such grace, laughing lightly like this was the most normal thing in the world.I felt like a fish out of water the second I stepped inside as my dress suddenly felt cheap and plain.. everything about me just felt wrong in this r







