"I'm still a virgin." He pulls away from me and appears surprised. "No, then we'll have to stop," He pulls away from me. I don't want this to stop. Something about this feels right. I'm not repulsed by a man touching me for the first time. I resume kissing him. "No, no, we don't." I mumble as I lock my lips with his and ease my hand into his trousers. Emily Adams needs money to afford surgery for her critically ill brother Liam, in her attempt to find another job she stumbles upon an ad offering to pay $350,000 but the only catch is she has to become a surrogate for a stranger. Billionaire Jacob Collin doesn't have time for women, he is only concerned about the family business, persuaded by his grandmother he agrees to have a child but when he meets the woman who has agreed to be his surrogate he begins to fall in love. Their encounter leaves them both yearning for the other, as Emily start getting attached and is unwilling to pull through with the contract and Jacob takes it upon himself to discover the identity of his surrogate but there are forces that wants to keep them apart. Can they find each other and kindle their love or will they never be together?
Lihat lebih banyakEmily's POV
The gloomy glare of the overhead lights fills the waiting room. I can hear them above me, the small zaps of electricity going from one light to the next. They certainly skimped on the decor for a hospital owned by a billionaire.
A nurse approaches me. She looks at her file through her way too thick glasses.
"Miss Adams?" she inquires hurriedly.
She motions for me to follow her, and I nod. She leads me down a long corridor, her heels clicking on the floor as I trail behind.
We come to a halt in front of a room with the words "Kidney Dialysis" printed above the door. My brother, Liam, is inside, hooked up to a dialysis machine. His doctor, a huge man with bulging eyes and a waistline to match, stands behind him.
"Ah, Miss Adams," he says as he shakes my hand firmly. "My name is Dr. Brook, and I'll be Liam's doctor while he's here at Saving Grace Hospital. As you are aware, dialysis does not appear to be working for Liam. And you don't present as a suitable donor because you're not related by blood," Dr. Brook says.
"So, Doctor, what do you recommend as the next step?" I inquire, my gaze fixed on Liam.
He appears pale, almost iridescent; I have the impression that if I held a magnifying glass next to his skin, I would be able to see the blood rushing through his veins.
"I recommend that we start him on antibiotics and then have the cysts removed surgically. We're hoping to find a donor following the surgery."
"Please don't be concerned, Emily. I'll be fine," Liam says, his voice scratchy. His lips are cracking, and his brown eyes beg me to listen. "We'll come up with a plan," he says.
Liam means that we don't have enough money to pay for his operation. Our health insurance expired several months ago. We went bankrupt from kidney dialysis alone. And now we have a stack of bills and final demand letters. My waitressing job isn't enough to support both of us--we can barely keep the lights on in our flat.
I'm only 22 years old and have no official qualifications. I dropped out of college while studying visual arts, expecting to find my way back. My aspirations and funds had run out after two years. Liam is my top focus right now.
Dr. Brook and the nurse walk out of the ward. I walk over to the large bay window and take a seat. The sun begins to set, lighting the sky with a spectacular orange blaze. This was always my favorite time of day. It now only reminds me of sorrow.
I close the blinds and take a seat next to Liam. He's slept off, his faint breaths making his chest to heave up and down. He appears to be smaller.
On my walk home that night, I reminisced about Liam when he was still healthy. He was always an active kid, and seeing him strapped to that machine crushes my heart.
My phone rings as I climb up the small stairs to my apartment, it's Olivia.
"Hey, how did it go?" In a low, sad voice, she inquires,
I open the cold, empty apartment door and slump into a worn-out armchair.
"Not so good. He needs surgery, and he needs a donor, like, tomorrow, I really don't know what to do," I sob, needling the pillow that Aunt Evelyn bought as a housewarming gift.
"How about your health insurance? Isn't that enough to cover some of the expenses?" Before I can speak, she has already figured out the answer. "How about if I come over? We can drink some cheap wine and I'll get some sushi from the place around the corner," she proposes loudly.
"I don't think I'll be good company," I admit, my eyes welling up with tears. "I think you should go have some fun. Spend your time with your fun friends, not with me," I joke. "Go get laid. Make poor life decisions and live with the consequences."
She chuckles. "No, that was done last weekend. Wasn't it a lot of fun? I have the STI to prove it." She jokes back.
We both start laughing, and she tries one more time to entice me.
"We could get shitfaced drunk, find a seedy bar, and you could lose your virginity in a toilet stall, it'll be epic," she mumbles before hiccupping.
Olivia, it appears, has a head start and is probably two beers in.
"No problem, I'm fine. I need to tidy up and take out the garbage. I'll only get in the way." I say.
"All right, but promise not to mope. When you mope, your mind goes crazy, and you panic," she begs.
I respond with a promise and end the call.
I'm sitting alone with my thoughts right now. The one that bothers me the most is how I'm supposed to pay for Liam's operation. We're like dogs who won't let go of a bone when more shifts at the restaurant come up. Everyone is in the same situation, and we're all struggling to make ends meet.
I feel so sorry for taking him from his old school, his old classmates, and Aunt Evelyn. Every now and then, I wonder if he would have had better treatment and a better shot in life if I had left him. If I lose him, I will have failed him as his older sister. I'm the one who is meant to guard and keep him safe, yet I'm incapable of doing so. Now it's late-night trips to the ER or me holding him in bed as he writhes in pain which had become the new normal.
I open my laptop and pour myself leftover wine from last night. There has to be something out there that will keep us afloat for the time being. Scrolling through Craigslist becomes a headache... Perhaps it's the wine.
I'm already two hours in when I go through the "escorts wanted" listings. Then I notice an advertisement that says:
"Surrogate Needed. Will be well compensated. Complete discretion is required. Fill out the form below."
The blood rushes to my brain, and I feel a tingling sensation as the synapses begin to connect. Who would put anything like this on their list? I burst out laughing and ask aloud, "Universe, are you playing a trick on me?"
The email address is from a normal G***l account, so it has to be a prank, right? But a part of me wonders, "What if it's real?"
I was looking for work as an escort just now. This is essentially one step below the depths of desperation I will reach.
With nothing to lose, I type a quick reply and hit "send."
Hope starts clapping at the sound of her name, getting Charlotte’s attention. “Oh my gosh, she’s beautiful,” she gasps. “What are you doing here, Mother?” asks my dad. His agitation is a sign that he’s done playing a welcoming party. “I’ve missed so much, haven’t I? And I only have myself to blame,” she says. Hope clamors to get out of Jocasta’s arms and she puts her down on the grass. Slowly, she lifts herself up and her chubby legs begin the unsteady walk to Charlotte. Charlotte breaks her fall with outstretched arms as she comes crashing down. “There’s a good girl,” she says. “You’re a feisty one, just like your mother.” “You haven’t answered Matthew’s question, why are you here?” asks my wife. Charlotte looks at her, “I suppose I’ve come to make a mence and ask for your forgiveness.” “Don’t you think you’re a few years too late?” asks Matthew. “You’re right, I am. But I wanted to say sorry for all the horrible things I’ve done to all of you,” she coughs. “I know my words of
Epilogue (One year later) Jacob POV Jocasta cuts up paper-thin slices of watermelon, Liam’s favorite. “Thanks, Mommy,” he says, grabs the bowl from her and dashes outside. The house is quiet and I take advantage of having her to myself for a few seconds. Switching on the old kitchen radio, a slow song plays across the static. She’s clearing up the watermelon peels on the kitchen counter, and I take her by the hand and give her a twirl. She has a daisy in her long hair - a gift from Hope who insisted on putting it in her mouth instead of giving it to her mama. “What are you doing?” she smiles. “I’m serenading my wife,” I say and hold her close while we slow dance with the song. She giggles, “We’re going to be late.” “They can wait,” I say and inhale her sweet scent; she smells like the ocean and baby powder. While the soft male voice is singing about giving a little love this time, I dip her low and kiss her on the mouth. A moan escapes her lips and she kisses me back. Little
Jacob is stunned. It’s the first time he’s heard this too. We don’t say anything for a few seconds and wait for the heartbreaking news to settle in. “We have Liam and Hope,” I say. “They’re more than we could wish for.” He takes Hope from my arms and cradles her, whispering into her ear, “Yes, much more than we could wish for.” Liam wants a piece of the action and attaches himself to his dad’s leg, “My turn.” We laugh and Jacob bends down and grabs Liam by the scruff of his T-shirt, “Okay Buddy, your turn.” With both of them in arms, Jacob is finding it hard to balance them, “Yep, I think two are enough.” That night I dream of my mother, the dream as vivid as an oil painting. All my past memories are coming back. It’s as if being given a second lease on life had somehow unlocked a part of my brain I had buried for years. I remember playing in the courtyard garden at Mellon Estate and going on holidays with my folks. And then there’s the memory of that photo - it’s the very first
Emily/Jocasta POV Imagine a door opening between life and death. Which one would you choose? The answer’s not that simple, is it? Death would finally bring me peace, stilling the chaotic world around me. Life is for the living as Liam once told me. But where would that leave me? My fate has been assigned - I am to die from a disease that will ravage my body. Soon, my limbs won’t obey my commands, and I’ll slowly start to lose my mind. That is no way to live. The incessant wail of a baby is calling me, beckoning me to make a decision. It’s the sound of my little girl telling me time is running out - choose now or forever hold my peace. I’ve made up my mind - I choose love. --- I’m laying on a cold, steel table. There’s a commotion all around me. Someone shouts, “We’re losing her!” and I feel something hard putting pressure on my chest. The shock of an electric current jolts my body back to life. I’ve returned to the land of living. “She’s awake! She’s awake!” When I look around m
I’m in the conservatory with Liam. Dust motes are floating in the sun’s rays while we sit side by side, both of us with a notebook.He’s making squiggles on a page, round and round until the pencil pierces through to the next page. “Do you think Mom loves us?” he asks.“Why do you ask that?” I glance at him and stop drawing. I’m trying to sketch gladiolus flowers from memory but I keep on getting stuck on the intricate detail of the petals. This is my third attempt. I tear the page from the notebook and throw it onto the heap of pages collecting next to me.“Last night she told me I’m not a good boy after I wet the bed. I can’t help it, Emily. Sometimes, it just comes out,” he grimaces.“It’s not your fault, you do know that?” I add. “Mom just gets upset really fast.”“I know, it’s that when she gets like that, I get scared,” he says.I move closer to him, “Do you know, when I get scared, I just tell myself that soon it will be over. Mom doesn’t stay angry for long. You just have to w
Emily/Jocasta POVYou know when people describe their near-death experiences as walking towards a bright light? Mine was nothing like that.For me, it was falling into a vat of creamy liquid and being suspended between space and time. The protection of the womb-like state offered me comfort and reassurance that I would be fine.Why would I want to go back to a world of uncertainty and sorrow when everything I want is right here?Memories are flashing through my mind, firing off like sparks from a fire, But they are muddled up and confusing. I can’t tell which ones are Emily’s or Jocasta’s. It’s hard to concentrate on just one at a time.I close my eyes and focus on one in particular; it’s of a beautiful woman cradling a baby in her arms. She’s standing in a nursery, and there’s a quilted blanket in the crib.She starts singing a lullaby, and it’s the same one Ophelia sang months ago when I first discovered my real identity. I gasp in recognition - it’s my mother.She can’t see me, but
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