LOGINELLIE
The dress Noir brought was a size larger, but it had tiny sashes on both sides that helped me hide that. It was black, almost as dark as the feelings that clawed their way up my throat. I didn't even have a say in my own brother's burial. I wasn't even given enough time to mentally prepare myself. To see him that way again...to say goodbye for good. I wasn't sure I had it in me. All of my anger and eagerness to escape was replaced by a heavy feeling I couldn't shake. It settled on my chest, making it hard to breathe, making it hard to focus on anything else but the weight. There was a sharp knock on the door, one that startled me from my thoughts and made me avert my gaze from my reflection in the vanity mirror, back to the door. I found the door open, Noir standing by the doorway, filling every inch of it with his large body. The man should be seven feet tall, if not more. His fervid gaze was trained on me, stealing the breath from my lungs as his eyes held mine. There was something about him, something about the way he looked at me that made me feel different. It was foolish of me to get distracted, considering the current situation but... I watched as his broad chest rose and fell steadily as he stood. He'd changed into a different outfit, a black dress shirt tucked into black plain pants. He leaned against the door-frame, arms crossed over his chest casually as he eyed me. The dress, I realized. "The dress is bigger." "It'll suffice," came his immediate reply. Unfurling his arms, he pulled out a simple strip of white cloth. My brows pulled together in confusion as I met his gaze, "What's that for?" "You," Noir gestured at my face, pushing off the door-frame and taking a few steps forward, the sound of his feet touching the floor kept me on high alert, my muscles tightening the closer he got. I didn't move. I didn't breathe. He stopped moving once he was behind me, so close I could feel his hot breath against the small hairs on the back of my neck. Part of me began to rethink the messy bun I'd put my hair in. I leaned down. I couldn't see it but I could feel it, the proximity of his breath, the slight brush of his chest against my back. It made my skin tingle from both anticipation and dread. I shouldn't have let him get so close, but I did. I shuddered when I felt his finger against my skin, gentle, careful, like he feared I would break from sudden movement. Then my vision descended into darkness. I gasped as I felt the silk blindfold cover my eyes, my hand immediately going up to stop his from moving any further. "What are you doing?" My voice took on an edge, the strange feelings he'd invited forgotten. All that was left was the clear reminder of what I was. A prisoner. "This is for your safety," He brought my protesting hand down and deftly fastened a knot behind my head, keeping the blindfold in place over my restless eyes. "And ours," he finished. His voice was all I could feel now, hear, see. I was in complete darkness and his voice was the only thing keeping me from descending into madness. "How am I a threat to your gang?" He took a step back, I heard it. I chewed on my bottom lip anxiously, frustration building up again from just how much control over myself I kept losing the longer I stayed here. "Family," he corrected with a tone that sounded rather amused, "And you're not a threat, not yet at least," he cryptically added and then took my hand in his. The warmth of his fingers slipping into mine came with a feeling I wasn't prepared for. My stomach lurched and flipped a few times before I managed a shaky breath. "Come, Goldie," he ordered, it was an order but the softness with which he relayed it... Foolishly a thought came to mind. I preferred him to the other men. "My name is Ellie," I ground out in annoyance. The nickname sounding condescending the more he said it. We weren't on nickname basis. He was my kidnapper, a criminal! A murderer. "Okay, Goldie," I felt a tug at my arm, he was moving and taking me along with him. I gritted my teeth and remained silent. I needed to control my emotions, not show as much as I was feeling. After burying Elijah, I'll think up a proper plan. I followed him. Walking slowly as we left the bedroom and weaved through what I knew to be a long hallway with two right turns. Then we reached a flight of stairs and we walked a moment longer until I heard the sound of a keypad, the front door I realized. It was password protected. I have to do everything to make sure I won't be returning here, or else leaving might prove impossible. Noir never let go of me, not even when we got into a car. He was seated beside me and I could sense the presence of someone on the other side. I was being sandwiched between two men yet again. Noir's fingers remained intertwined with mine as the engine started up and the car began to move. "How long do you plan on holding on to her like that? What are you, a Koala?" I heard an irritated voice ask. Not the man in the back seat with Noir and me but someone up front. It was Silas. I wasn't very good with faces, but voices and names were my forte. Dylan always said I could recognize a one-night stand from their scent alone...which was partially true. I could memorize scents if I deemed it necessary, but, I've never had a one-night stand. Or any kind of night with any man. And if this shit ends up hitting the fan, it also means I'll die a virgin. The thought momentarily crossed my mind before it was replaced by the realization that Lorenzo was the one next to me. "Mind your fucking business!" Noir snarled. His tone was different, more sharp, more...sinister. It made me sink deeper into my seat. "Fucking gorilla..." I heard Silas mutter distastefully, clearly pissed off by either mine or Noir's presence. "Now is not the time for this," Lorenzo finally said, his authoritative voice somehow lessening the growing tension. So, he's like their leader or something? The rest of the drive was quiet. My hand remained in Noir's while I plotted a meticulous but swift escape from these men. I had to say goodbye to my brother then but after that, I'm headed straight to the police. And then the embassy, because I have no clue where my passport is. Then I'm getting the fuck out of this country. The drive was roughly about thirty minutes, yes, I counted. Being kept in the dark for that long only heightened the rest of my senses further. It was why I could tell Lorenzo was tense and I could hear Silas' low sighs and huffs. Noir was deathly silent, just holding on to my hand. I heard the crunch of gravel beneath the car tires as the car pulled to a stop. Lorenzo was the first to step out, his side of the car opening without wasting much time. Then Noir helped me out and I heard Silas mutter something to who I imagined would be the driver, in Italian. He told him to keep his eyes open. I understood every word, but I played dumb, walking as Noir led me. We stopped when the gravel path ended. That was when Noir finally let go of my hand. He moved behind me and undid the blindfold. I held my now free hand with the other, inhaling sharply as warm light seeped through my lids. I opened my eyes slowly, they watered as they struggled to get accustomed to the sudden light. It was a crematorium. A low breath left me when I saw the coffin sitting right there at the entrance, waiting to be pushed in. They were going to cremate him? "He always said he didn't like the idea of rotting in the ground, said he deserved to go out in flames," Lorenzo's voice was quiet as he spoke, his eyes heavy, devoid of emotion yet holding so many as he looked ahead. At the coffin. A small smile stretched my lips as I remembered being told something similar. "He once told me the earth didn't deserve him, and that we should all be grateful for his birth," I chuckled, "Like he's Jesus or something." A sound left Silas, something between a snort and a chuckle. "Yeah, that sounds like Elijah." I didn't want to see him, not again. Looking at the three men, I realized something that shouldn't have hurt me but it did. While I spent the past decade being alone, navigating through life on my own, Elijah was here, having friends, being loved. I could see it in their eyes. They were hurt. They looked more human, more broken than I ever imagined a person could be. Yet. The manner in which they carried this, the strength in their stances, it was something I coveted, something I envied. A tear slid down my cheek, and then another. But I remained standing. "We'll find who did this to you," Silas began, "And when we do, they'll regret ever being born." That chill. He meant every word. The bloodlust in his eyes was unmistakable. It should have scared me, but it didn't. Because these men wanted exactly what I wanted, for the men who did this to my brother to pay. "Can you do that?" My voice was smaller than I'd intended, uncertain. "Can you bring him justice?" I felt their eyes on me in that moment, heavy, dark. "We won't just bring him justice, Goldie," Noir breathed, "We'll burn this city to the ground in his honor." And then the coffin was pushed in and flames engulfed it. Burning what was left of Elijah Knight. Birthing something far more dangerous. Three men out for blood. And a woman yet to discover just how far she'll go to get revenge.SILASThe drive back to the cottage was silent except for the sound of tires on packed snow and Lorenzo's ragged breathing from the passenger seat.I kept my hands on the wheel, knuckles white, jaw clenched so tight my teeth ached. Noir sat in the back, his mismatched eyes staring out the window at nothing, his long hair falling forward to hide whatever expression was on his face.Lorenzo had blood crusted in his hair from where they'd knocked him out. His hands kept flexing and releasing on his thighs, the movement compulsive, like he was trying to grip something that wasn't there anymore.We'd found him slumped over the steering wheel in the restaurant parking lot, the place completely empty, no sign of Ellie or Vittorio or anyone else. Just Lorenzo, unconscious and bleeding, and the absence of her hitting me like a freight train to the chest.She was gone.Ellie was gone, and none of us had been there to stop it.The cottage came into view through the trees, warm light glowing from
LORENZODinner tasted like ash in my mouth, though I couldn't say why until I looked up and saw Ellie's hands shaking as she cut her chicken.She'd been quiet all day. Withdrawn in a way that set off alarm bells in the back of my mind. But I'd written it off as her processing everything with Silas, with her father's organization, with the weight of secrets she hadn't asked to carry. She's been acting alright with it, but I know better than anyone the weight that comes with such a reality, the guilt that also comes with it. How part of you is always asking questions, wondering if you could've helped or save any of the lives that might been destroyed by your parent.Hating the fact that their blood will always run in your veins.Always.But this isn't that. Her eyes are unfocused, her gaze sometimes rests on me and I feel the intensity from it like a physical thing.Now, watching her fork tremble as she brought it to her lips, I knew it was more than that."I have to go to town tomorrow
ELLIEMorning light streamed through the massive windows, warm light came with it beautiful, almost peaceful. I woke up warm, sandwiched between Silas's chest at my back and Noir's arm draped across my waist from where he'd somehow ended up on my other side during the night. Lorenzo was already awake, sitting on the edge of the bed pulling on a shirt, his dark hair still messed from sleep."Morning," I mumbled, my voice rough.Lorenzo glanced back, his lips quirking in what might have been a smile. "Morning. Coffee?""Please."Silas groaned behind me, his arm tightening around my waist. "Too early for consciousness.""It's almost ten," Lorenzo said, standing and stretching. The movement pulled his shirt up, revealing a strip of tanned skin and muscle that made my mouth go dry despite just waking up."Exactly. Too early." But Silas was already shifting, pressing a kiss to my shoulder before rolling out of bed with exaggerated dramatics.Noir's eyes opened, green and silver finding mine
NOIRHer face shifted, that hurt deepening before she tried to mask it. I'd done exactly what I'd feared—made her feel rejected when this had nothing to do with her and everything to do with the demons living in my head."I'm sorry," I forced out, my voice raw and scraped. The words felt inadequate, pathetic. "I can't—I'm sorry."I was moving before I'd decided to move. Crossing the living room on legs that didn't feel stable, yanking open the front door so hard it slammed against the wall. Stepping out into the night.The cold hit me with brutal intensity, stealing what little breath I'd managed to recover. My lungs seized, the air so cold it burned going down. Snow crunched under my boots as I stumbled off the porch, away from the cottage, away from the warmth and safety and her.The temperature had to be below zero. Maybe significantly below. I wasn't dressed for it—just jeans and a t-shirt, no coat, no gloves. The kind of cold that could kill if you stayed out too long. Already my
NOIRFour days since I'd brought back supplies, and something in Ellie had changed.The others hadn't noticed. Silas was too busy making jokes to cover his own fear of being hunted. Lorenzo was buried in his work, trying to orchestrate solutions from this remote corner of the world. They saw what they wanted to see—Ellie coping, Ellie adapting, Ellie being strong.But I saw the truth.The light in her eyes had dimmed. Not extinguished, but muted, like someone had turned down the brightness and she was trying desperately to pretend otherwise. She carried herself differently too. Shoulders pulled back too far, spine too straight. The posture of someone holding themselves together through sheer force of will.She was drowning and pretending to swim.It was late now. Silas had gone to bed an hour ago, his bruised ribs still bothering him enough that he needed the rest. Lorenzo was in the study, hunched over his laptop, running traces on financial movements that might lead us to Elijah's l
NOIRFour days since I'd brought back supplies, and something in Ellie had changed.The others hadn't noticed. Silas was too busy making jokes to cover his own fear of being hunted. Lorenzo was buried in his work, trying to orchestrate solutions from this remote corner of the world. They saw what they wanted to see—Ellie coping, Ellie adapting, Ellie being strong.But I saw the truth.The light in her eyes had dimmed. Not extinguished, but muted, like someone had turned down the brightness and she was trying desperately to pretend otherwise. She carried herself differently too. Shoulders pulled back too far, spine too straight. The posture of someone holding themselves together through sheer force of will.She was drowning and pretending to swim.It was late now. Silas had gone to bed an hour ago, his bruised ribs still bothering him enough that he needed the rest. Lorenzo was in the study, hunched over his laptop, running traces on financial movements that might lead us to Elijah's l
ELLIE I watched as his entire demeanor shifted, the man who had been seconds away from kissing me disappearing behind the cold, calculating leader I'd come to know.His posture was rigid, eyes narrowed with a serious intense look that made him look like a totally different person. It was rather
LORENZOI had a lot on my mind as we drove through the barely lit up, but what weighed heaviest was the image of Ellie standing in that kitchen, trying to hide her fear behind a mask of composure. The way her hands had trembled slightly as she held her coffee mug, the vulnerability she'd tried so
ELLIEI remained standing despite his invitation, my legs trembling but refusing to give him the satisfaction of my compliance. The darkness around us felt suffocating, pressing in from all sides until it seemed like the only things that existed in the world were this table, this man, and the terro
SILASOf all the fucking assignments Lorenzo could have given me, teaching Ellie hand-to-hand combat had to be the cruelest form of torture imaginable.Three days. It had been three days since we'd decided she needed to learn how to defend herself, and three days since I'd volunteered—like the maso







