Chapter 1

Evan Hayes’s latest Instagram Story showed a bank notification.

Fifty thousand dollars.

The transfer came from Claire Bennett. The note read:

Congratulations on becoming an attending. I’ll be there for every celebration from now on.

Comments appeared almost immediately.

That is one hell of a bonus.

Isn’t it Adrian’s birthday today? Looks like Evan is the real guest of honor.

Someone even tagged me.

I didn’t respond. I reopened the transfer Claire had sent me that morning.

Five hundred dollars.

Happy birthday. Love you.

At seven, she had texted to say the hospital had called an emergency consultation and she wouldn’t make it home.

Apparently, the consultation was being held at a rooftop bar.

In Evan’s next video, Claire sat at the center of the terrace, champagne in hand.

I watched her for a few seconds, and my mind slipped back seven years.

After Claire’s parents died, they left behind a table buried under collection notices and an old house the bank was preparing to seize. She stopped going to class and answered no calls.

When I reached her apartment, I found her sitting in the dark kitchen with an open bottle of sleeping pills on the table.

I took the bottle away and stayed beside her until dawn.

Later, I sold the apartment I had only just finished paying off and withdrew my acceptance from an architecture firm in London.

The partner who recruited me asked three times, “Adrian, are you sure?”

Each time, I said yes.

For years, I took small remote design contracts, covered our expenses, helped Claire prepare for exams, and drove to the hospital after her longest shifts.

There was no party when she secured her residency.

She wore a navy coat from a secondhand shop and stood behind the hospital, holding up her new ID badge. A passing security guard took our picture. It came out blurred, but Claire’s smile was brighter than I had ever seen it.

She rested her forehead against my shoulder.

“When I’m finally on my feet,” she said, “it’ll be my turn to take care of you.”

Claire had been on her feet for years.

She had simply learned to take care of someone else.

Laughter burst from my phone.

Evan had posted another video.

A woman approached Claire with a drink. “You’re spending tonight with Evan. Aren’t you worried Adrian will be upset?”

Claire leaned back in her chair.

“He won’t be.”

“You sound sure.”

“Adrian doesn’t like change.” She turned the stem of her glass between her fingers. “He’s comfortable with the life he has. He has no interest in starting over.”

Someone nearby laughed.

“So even when you don’t come home, he’ll still wait?”

Claire didn’t deny it.

“Honestly, if he left me, I don’t think he’d know what to do next.”

The camera shifted.

Evan settled beside her and stretched one arm across the back of her chair.

“If that’s what you think of him, why haven’t you ended it?”

The video cut off.

I locked my phone.

Seven years ago, I had stopped so Claire could keep moving forward.

Somewhere along the way, she had forgotten I once had a direction of my own.

The roast beef on the table had gone cold. Beside it stood an unopened bottle of wine. For dessert, I had ordered a lemon tart from the bakery where Claire and I had gone on our first date. A chocolate plaque on top carried both our names.

It looked ridiculous now.

I dropped the plaque into the trash and photographed the tart without lighting the candle.

Another year older.

Claire called a few minutes later.

“What was that post supposed to mean?”

She didn’t wish me a happy birthday or ask whether I had eaten.

“Nothing.”

“An empty table, dessert for one, and that caption.” Her voice dropped. “Were you trying to tell everyone I didn’t come home?”

“It was just a birthday post.”

“Adrian, don’t do this.”

The familiar impatience had already entered her voice.

“I told you I had work. I let you know in advance, and I sent you money. Do you really need to make everyone think I neglected you?”

Through the call, I heard someone say her name.

Evan.

Claire spoke before I could answer.

“I don’t have time for this right now. We’ll talk when I get home.”

The call ended.

On the bookshelf stood the photograph from the hospital steps. Claire, in that secondhand coat, held tightly to my hand as if she had finally found a way back into her own life.

I could no longer remember when mine had stopped.

I opened my laptop and found an email I had archived a month earlier.

Adrian, the St. Catherine’s Children’s Medical Center project has entered the design phase. We still need a lead architect with healthcare experience. That position was yours seven years ago. If you’re ready to come back, it still is.

Seven years ago, I had turned them down three times for Claire.

This time, I clicked Reply and typed one word.

Yes.