Chapter 193

Ethan

I didn’t care how bad it smelled. I took a strong swig of the whiskey, if only to have something to do with my hands. That, and to keep them from shaking. 

It tasted horrible, burning as it went down. I thought of Kira. How could she stand this stuff? 

I shuddered, draining the glass as if the smell of the alcohol would calm my mind.

“Ethan?”

Justin’s voice was gentle and tentative. I wasn’t sure how long I had been quiet. Lo and he had both sat still, across from me in the giant living room of Justin’s suite. The sun had set long ago, but as if not to want to disturb me, no lamps had been turned on. Instead, my gaze had followed out over the vast city of the Aperture pack, list from below, while