Masuk
ALPHA MADISON EVANS POV
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I groan out loud as I turn over in my bed and slap haphazardly on my nightstand to turn off my alarm. It takes a few tries, but I finally hit it. I sigh in relief when it goes silent. I seriously contemplate just rolling over, burying myself back in to my covers, and going back to sleep.
Goddess I loathe the early mornings. Not that that has ever been enough to keep me in bed, enjoying my slumber. Nope. I always push it aside to get up and get going on the overwhelming amount of responsibilities that I have. It is legitimately never ending. No matter how much I accomplish in a day, there’s always just as much, or more, waiting for me the next day.
Yes, I’m wallowing, and I really don’t give a damn. I am staring at my ceiling while I wait for the drive and motivation to get out of bed to finally hit me, even though I know it won’t. I’ll have to push myself to get up and right now, I just don’t want to put forth that effort.
I sigh when the text alert goes off on my phone. I pick it up and read the new message. Today of all days, I should have known it would be from Mama.
Mama: Happy Birthday, my Sweet Pea!!! Daddy and I can’t wait to see you at breakfast today! I love you… bigger than Pi is infinite!
A tear slips out of my eye while reading her text message. Mama always knows how to make me feel loved. When she uses our love phrase, the one we’ve had for as long as I can remember, it makes me feel like a carefree kid again. Back when I used to enjoy the early mornings; the adventure of a new day and what I could learn from it.
I have long since forgotten what that feels like.
I miss coming into the kitchen to see her cooking breakfast in the early mornings. I miss her warm, comforting embrace and the wide, genuine smile I receive as soon as she sees me. I miss the intellectual challenges she used to give me and the way I could talk with her about anything without fear of a misunderstanding or her being intimidated by me.
My amazing Mama, I miss her being my rock and my shining star all in one. Now, I have to be those things for myself. And I have been, for many years. But fuck I’m tired. So, Goddess-damned tired.
I text her back a quick message.
Me: I can’t wait to see you both, too! Love you, bigger than Pi is infinite.
I lie in bed staring at the ceiling for another minute. ~Happy Birthday, Infinity. Will you be enjoying the day with me today?~ I ask my wolf, hoping with all of my heart that I hear her sweet but slightly gravelly voice. Instead my question is answered with a low, angry, snarling-growl. More tears slip from my eyes hearing her non-verbal answer.
~Okay. I understand. I love you and I miss you.~ I tell her, not knowing if she understands me anymore. But I still try. Every single day, I try to reconnect with her.
Reluctantly, I get up from my warm bed and head into the bathroom for my shower. I can hear the warriors beginning their sparring outside. The familiar noises of fists hitting flesh and the loud grunts of pain and exertion float in from the windows that I left open last night.
Normally, I would be with them, leading them as their Alpha. But not today. Today is my birthday. The one and only day a year that I take off. Completely and totally. I’m not available through pack link or cell phone and I stay off property until early in the morning. I take the entire day for myself. No one seems to have a problem with it, nor should they. I work hard for the pack the other 364 days of the year. One day of freedom shouldn’t be too much to ask.
I shower and get ready, dressing in a sexy black thong with a matching lace bra. I pair that with black skinny jeans and a deep V-neck purple sleeveless top. I strap on my black leather knee-high riding boots after I french braid my long dark brunette hair back and secure it with a tie. I grab my hot pink, purple, and black leather moto jacket out of the hall closet along with my matching gloves and helmet. I exit the Alpha suite, securing the door behind me and I make my way down to the garages.
I pass pack members that give me the surplus of usual greetings like, “Good Morning, Alpha,” and “Happy Birthday, Alpha”. I give them all a head nod or a thank you in return, but no one tries to interrupt me from getting to my destination. Everyone knows not to stop me today. However, that doesn’t seem to keep my beta from saddling up next to me and following down to the garage.
“So, Alpha. Any big plans for today?” Greta asks with mischief in her eyes.
“Yes, actually. I’m having breakfast with Mama and Daddy. Then, I’ll see where the day takes me.” Yes, I still call my parents Mama and Daddy. I get weird looks sometimes when I bust out with that, especially from adults. But they are my parents, and I will call them that until the day I die.
“Hunter is on standby at the airfield if you feel the need.” She tells me. I nod in acknowledgement.
“Thanks, Greta. See you tomorrow.” I say as I strap on my helmet and start up my custom painted hot pink and purple Ducati Superleggera V4. I was lucky as fuck to get one of the last produced models and it is the only expensive indulgence I have ever had.
I don’t shop like most females. I’m not into clothes or makeup, even though I used to enjoy those things. I do have some elegant dresses and periodically donning makeup is essential in my position. Despite that, all of my money goes into my savings, investments, or back to the pack. So, truthfully, I really didn’t bat an eyelash at spending over $100K on a motorcycle seven years ago. It’s been the best money I’ve ever spent on myself. I just wish I got to ride her more often than I do.
I rev the engine, smiling as I feel the powerful vibrations rumbling underneath me and I take off out of the garage. As I emerge from the false bright overheads of the garage into the darkness of predawn, I pop a wheelie then head for the pack gates. The orphan pups on their way to the packhouse for breakfast see me coming. They run to the edge of the road, waving, and laughing. I pop another wheelie to give them a thrill as I go by and they go wild, making me genuinely smile. I love pups and the ease of amusing them.
I pick up speed as I near the front gate that is already sitting open for me. I accelerate again and peel out of the gate. My patrol wolves howl in acknowledgement as I pass them.
MADDIE POV “I know I was never meant to be. Selene didn’t plan me like she did everyone else. She didn’t plan my birth, and my ‘destiny’ was really, just busy work for her. To make me feel like I was part of the group. Anyone looking at us as a family can tell I don’t belong. My green eyes cement that for anyone who meets us.” “I still did what I was told though. Because that’s what a good Alpha does, right? We strive for the betterment of our pack and species. Always for others. All I had to look forward to was finding my mate. Maybe I’d finally feel whole and like I wasn’t a mistake, a burden for the universe, if I could find him. “Then to find out on my birthday, at my Alpha ceremony that the man I’m in love with belongs to my best friend. It shattered me. I felt hollow and so incredibly alone, because then I didn’t have any of you nearby to help me with my feelings. It made me feel more freakish than I already did. I never, not once, blamed them
MADDIE POV I pull up to my pack gates and see Daddy’s Ferrari already sitting to the side, waiting for me. I told my gate guards that he wasn’t welcome, and they have adhered to my directive perfectly. I know he’s tried to see me numerous times, but they always deny him entrance. I roll to a stop next to the gate house and my guards exit. “Alpha.” They address me together and wait for my instructions. “Let my parents in. Alpha Tyson is now welcome on territory. At least for tonight.” They nod as I pull away and I see Daddy pulling in behind me after they wave him in. I park in my spot in the underground garage and slowly make my way inside and to my office. Mama and Daddy are already there on the couch, waiting for me. We always have our serious discussions at the couches in a more relaxed manner where rank isn’t a thing; but not today. I close the door and sit behind my desk. Not that I need to power play him, but this is reiterating th
MADDIE POV As the embers of the funeral fire are finally burning out, I give my last condolences and hugs to Nicolette and Francois; I need to get back to my own pack and begin making plans with my family on how we will proceed with the threat we can now see. Daddy will be coming back to Black Lake tomorrow with his and Mama’s things so they can begin the pack rebuild; Francois transferred his power to Daddy tonight, just before the funeral. Gamma Gaston gives me a two-finger salute as he helps a few pack members who lost family in the attack make their way back to the pack house for their overnight celebration of life. I am so glad he survived the fight, at least long enough for Nolan to arrive and help Gaston heal with his power. I almost chuckle at myself, which is really not appropriate right now, with the image of Nolan running around the injured with a pack member following with a wagon full of food and drinks. Nolan expends hundre
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MADDIE POV We race to the border, hoping to get to Black Lake in time to help Alpha Pierre’s warriors. During my momentary observation from the eagle’s eyes, I could see close to a hundred wolves, possibly more, making their way to his Eastern boundary line from no-man’s-land, the unclaimed land between our territories. And the wolves I saw clearly didn’t look sickly and weak. They looked strong and healthy, a much more formidable force than the last group we fought. I can hear my own warriors falling into formation behind me. Hundreds of paws pounding the earth in warning of our charge. It is exhilarating, and adrenaline inducing, yet a comforting balm too. I never have to question if my people will be there. That is part of being a good alpha and leader. Other than the random bad apple in the pack, the rest of your people support you because you support them and make them a priority. And I have, time and time again. As evidenced by my being here,







