C11

Every day that passes isn’t that easy to face, the guilt inside becomes a harmful weapon that kills silently.

“STOP” the sword in my hand flew elsewhere.

“Wait, what happened?” Confused, I look at kit asking the question. Some of the fighters are staring at me. What now?

“You could have told me before if you do not want to join the training” that strict and intense voice of his.

“What? I have been joining the training since then, of course, I am looking forward to it”

“Then why aren’t you focused? Yes, you are swinging the sword but in the wrong way, like a rookie who is just got lucky to hold a sword” am I?

“I am sorry Kit”

“You might be the next alpha in a few months but in my ground, you are just a trainee like others so pay attention” damn this is embarrassing.

“Sorry, again sir” since the day Sachiko left the world Kit took her position as the highest fighter of the pack and trained fighter every single day as Sachiko did. Every time he acts strictly on the ground makes me unfocused since it reminds me of how Sachiko trains her co fighters.

“Are you okay?” No.

“I am fine”

“No, you are not so please leave the ground if you can not stay focused on our training” he opposed and face the other fighters clapping his hands to get their attention.

“Back to training everyone come on focus”  he has a domineering emanation of a leader.

“Waving a sword is not that easy and not just a game swinging a tree bark,” he said facing me.

“I guess you are right”

“Leave the things of your heart”  what?

“Huh? What is supposed to mean?” he just pats my shoulder and leaves me standing here baffled.

“Hey, why are you here watching?” Scar approached just a minute after Kit left me here.

“Spacing out, swinging the sword the wrong  way, asked to leave the training ground, and then here I am in the side just watching them train”

“Once you step on the ground your focus should be on the training so I do not blame Kit for that” yeah yeah it is my fault.

“Kit said to leave the things of your heart, do you know what that means?” his right brow raised.

“Am I too advanced?” instead of answering my question he ask me a question? 

“To advance? What the heck does that mean ha? Answer my question do not ask me the one, you idiot”

“Dude I just said the answer before you ask the question that is why I am asking you if I am too advanced, get it?” Right, how is that possible?

“Don’t praise yourself it just happen that you said it” but his smile won’t leave the heck out of his face.

“Come on dude you are being hard to yourself. What I mean is right, additionally, you should keep the worries of your heart outside the ground. Training is training your matters has nothing to do with pieces of training” was it my fault thinking about her? Every action of them reminds me of her.

“Can’t help it” really.

“What made you space out anyway?” Oh, don’t ask.

“Ah, it’s nothing serious actually”

“You should focus dude, you might not know this but the elders are observing you” huh?

“Why would they?” Did I do something disgraceful?

“Dude you will become an alpha in the next few months of course they will keep an eye on you if you pass as an alpha” pass? Am I not that qualified to take the responsibility?

“How come I did not know about it?” No one told me even dad or mom.

“If they told you then for sure you already overwork yourself now and not standing here watching” he grinned looking at me.

“Tsk be thankful I know how to respect or else my skin already had contact with yours”

“You still need to go under training in that ground before you can make a contact with this skin” he even pointed to the training ground and his skin.

“Why do we even have to train with different weights of a sword if we can just stick to one weight?” Complaining will do you good Ralf keep on complaining tsk.

“Different weapons like swords have different weights and the handlers of them have different strengths. Just an example, you were in a battle and your opponent made your sword go out of your hand and you have to pick a sword. The sword you pick might not the same as your sword of course the rhythm, and posture of yours will not be the same” interesting.

“you quite know a lot, huh, it does not match your appearance and personality”

“Nah Sachiko taught me so I just know a few” here we go again.

“Is that so?” We never talk about this kind of stuff anyway.

“Anyway, how are you and Ariane doing?” Why ask?

“We are doing good of course nothing to worry about though” are we?

“Good to hear that and I am happy that you found your mate and are ready to become your luna. I heard she is quite good with her pieces of training too, you will not be left behind aren’t you?” Mate?  If only you know the truth all about these lies I made. Ariane is just another fighter and just like the others who look down against Sachiko she is one of them but I marked her as my luna and lied that she is a mate. Telling everyone about making them happy for me founding my mate which I did but not her.

“Left behind? Why would I of course not, I am an alpha” nice raise your flag self.

“Well, that is good to hear, and looking forward to being part of your future and plans. Kit and I will always be here on your side nothing’s gonna change”  always? If ever the time comes and a question appears like, what if? Why? Will you still be on my side? 

“Of course, I will not forget who you are and Kit, all this time both of you were there for me aside from that we have already sworn to become brothers until our last breath” but still the worries about them finding out what happened scares me. I didn’t want that to happen, I didn’t want her to be gone forever in this world.

“Then get your ass on that training ground and train and reminder do not to overwork yourself just because I told you that the elders are watching every movement of yours. I only told you that for you to help yourself not to make rush actions that could put in danger or what”

“Yes sire I understand thank you”

“No problem, anyway I have to go. Akira and I have a meet-up with someone else to gain some information about what happened the other night. That red blood moon is something disturbing, that kind of happening was witnessed before too and it says it is a blessing to the Blood Moon pack given by the Goddess herself” that night made chaos to all us not just in this pack but to others too.

“What do you think will happen next? First, the ambush of rogues to Evergreen. The second is the red blood moon. What is next?” I ask him and he just shrugs his shoulder.

“No one knows”

“How is that guy you rescued in Evergreen doing? Any progress ?” Those rogues are a pain in this world.

“He suffered so bad his body is physically damaged even his wolf isn’t the condition to heal himself. We wish for his fast recovery but even if he will recover soon another damage will be in him and that is emotionally finding out what happened to his pack” all of us will be like him if that happens to our pack. A pack is a family and a friend, losing someone important is so painful.

“Is he the only survivor?” Even if Evergreen is not that kind of big pack like us, they can not be all dead, aren’t they?

“I do not know, he is the only one that was brought here from there, maybe some survived and had escaped already” hoping so.

“Poor guy”

“Get yourself out there and train stop with the chit chat” I gave him a dirty hand when he pushed me but he only laughs and leaves so I also went back for the training of the day.

“What made you back here?” Kit quickly asked after seeing me joining the troops.

“I am truly sorry for spacing out while we are having training and it is my mistake. I assure you not to do the same mistake again” this is better than nothing, getting embarrassed in front of my subject because those elders are watching. Why are they even keeping an eye on me? Am I not that ready and was not enough to take over the title as the next alpha?

“Back to your position and continue training” before going back I wanted to ask something.

“Why are we having this kind of training? Why do we need it?” Didn’t I ask this Scar a while ago? Never mind I want to know his insight about this. Ever since then I never knew the reason, dad and mom never let me know. I barely hold a sword and whenever I do that is because of Sachiko when she forces me to hold one also that time when we had an argument and end up fighting.

“Sorry but I do not know either, many of us asked your parents but they can not answer us, they said that they do not know why but still doing it” what? If that is the case, why even bother?

“It is like you say this is a waste of time” I complained.

“Of course not, even if your parents do not have any answers Sachiko did gave us the answer we wanted to hear, or do we want to hear” her?

“What is it?”

“Well it is quite amazing since she is just you know but her answers are accurate. She said it is an advantage and disadvantage for us. We can fight in our wolf form or human form, this silver sword might be our weakness but it can be our shield and weapon and that is the advantage. When we are in human form we can fight our enemies even if they are in their wolf form”

“Isn’t hard to fight a wolf in a human form?”

“The trick of fighting in human form is this sword, we are werewolves and we can follow the direction of the wind. Human or wolf, advantage or not we know our guard, our position, our level, and our strength. When it comes to battle we know how to fight and that is the most important” it only means our success depends on us.

“You and Scar learned a lot from her no wonder you both have similarities to her” she is invulnerable and knowledgeable about werewolves one thing we do not know.

“We love to test her knowledge and ask so many questions, she does not complain though and taught us what she knows”  so grasping. Maybe if I had considered her and did not listen to my mom I could have spent a lot of time with her, with them.

“ Is that all the answers?”

“The other answer is I do not know, that is all that I have heard and I did not understand some of it what does it mean” 

“Oh okay thank you for answering”

“No problem” I did not ask any other questions again and joined the troops for the training. Yes, this may seem weird to me but then maybe it may benefit me and us.

Sachiko, you might not see the progress of what you have started but I know you will be happy about everything. All of your efforts and time, sweats, pains, and struggles won’t go in vain I promise to make it more successful with the help of our friends, Kit, and Scar.