Mag-log inBella’s week dragged on like slow...motion. Every lecture felt longer, every classmate’s voice blurred into background noise
Ang utak niya, parang loop ng memories ng nakaraang gabi...Raf’s lips, his touch, his teasing smile She tried to focus on her assignments, pero hindi niya maiwasan ang pagbabalik-tanaw sa bawat moment nila And every time her phone buzzed, she hoped it was him. Finally, Friday came. Maya tried to convince her to stay in and study, but Bella’s mind was already elsewhere She glanced at her phone Raf: “Pick you up at 8. Don’t be late. Wear something… fun.” Her stomach did a little flip “Fun? What does that even mean?” she muttered, but she couldn’t stop smiling At 8 PM, a sleek black car pulled up outside her apartment. Raf stepped out, looking effortlessly handsome in a casual white shirt and dark jeans, hair perfectly messy, grin dangerously charming “You ready?” he asked, holding out his hand Bella hesitated, heart pounding, then took his hand “I guess I am… but Raf, this better not be… crazy.” “Crazy?” he laughed “Bella, life’s boring without a little crazy.” The car ride was filled with teasing, laughter, and subtle touches. Every time Raf brushed her hand or leaned just a little too close, Bella felt shivers. But this time, she didn’t pull away. She let herself enjoy it, even knowing it was dangerous Their destination? A private beach resort, far from the city lights, where the ocean whispered promises they weren’t supposed to hear. Raf had booked a secluded villa, candles lit around the terrace, soft music playing “See? Told you you’d love it,” Raf said, holding the door open for her “Just you, me, and the waves.” Bella’s chest tightened. It was beautiful… almost too perfect “R-Raf… this is… wow.” “It’s all for you,” he whispered, pulling her close “Tonight, forget everything. Forget rules. Just… feel.” They sat on the terrace, legs brushing, hands slowly intertwining. The fire pit flickered, casting warm light on their faces. Raf’s eyes held hers, deep and searching, like he could see into her soul “Bella… you know I can’t stay away from you, right?” he said, voice low and serious “I… I know,” she admitted, heart racing “And I shouldn’t feel this way… but I do.” “Good,” he murmured, leaning closer “Because I feel the same. And tonight… we forget the world.” Before she could think, Raf kissed her again. This time, it wasn’t just playful or teasing...it was raw, full of need, full of hunger. Bella melted into him, every nerve alive, every thought gone except the fire between them Their kisses deepened, hands exploring, hearts racing. The ocean waves echoed their moans, the moonlight painting their skin in silver. Every moment felt suspended in time, dangerous, thrilling, and unforgettable “Raf… wait—” Bella gasped, but he only hushed her, fingers tracing her jaw, pulling her closer “Shhh… no thinking. Just us,” he whispered Hours passed in a blur of passion, whispered confessions, and skin on skin. For Bella, it was intoxicating and terrifying all at once. For Raf, it was addictive, consuming, and everything he never admitted he needed As the night faded into early morning, they sat wrapped in each other’s arms, the sound of the ocean a soothing lullaby. Bella rested her head on Raf’s chest, listening to his heartbeat “Raf…” she whispered, voice trembling “I don’t know if this is right… or if I should even want it.” “Bella,” he murmured, fingers brushing through her hair “Sometimes, the wrong things feel so right. And maybe… that’s why we can’t stay away from each other.” Bella’s chest tightened, tears pricking her eyes. She knew he was right. She also knew this was dangerous, forbidden, and could destroy everything. Pero kahit ganoon, kahit alam niya, she wanted him “I don’t want to stop,” she admitted quietly “Neither do I,” Raf whispered, pressing a gentle kiss to her forehead “And tonight… it’s just you and me." For the first time, Bella let herself truly surrender. Not just to his touch, but to the thrilling, intoxicating, dangerous pull between them She knew it was wrong, she knew it was risky… but for the first time, she didn’t care The night was theirs. And in that moment, Bella realized… sometimes, the best things were the mistakes you couldn’t resist.Hindi agad gumising si Bella kinabukasan.At nang magising siya, ang una niyang naramdaman ay hindi sakit....kundi kawalan.Parang may hinugot na parte sa loob niya habang tulog siya.Parang may namatay, at hindi niya alam kung paano iluluksa.Nakatingin lang siya sa kisame, pinapakinggan ang katahimikan ng apartment. Walang “good morning.” Walang kamay na hahaplos sa buhok niya. Walang presensyang magpaparamdam na may naghihintay sa kanya sa mundo.Siya lang.At ang bigat ng alaala.Unti-unti, bumalik ang lahat.Ang story.Ang reaction ni Lena.Ang katahimikan ni Raf.Ang salitang confused.Confused—parang hindi siya ang nasaktan,parang hindi siya ang minahal,parang hindi siya ang ginawang tahanan kapag walang ibang mapuntahan.Umupo siya sa gilid ng kama. Nanginginig ang mga kamay niya habang kinukuha ang cellphone.May 17 missed messages.May 9 missed calls.Lahat mula kay Raf.Hindi niya binuksan agad.Parang may takot sa dibdib niya—takot na baka isang mensahe lang, bumigay
Hindi agad napansin ni Bella ang pagbabago.Hindi dahil bulag siya—kundi dahil pagod na siyang magduda.Pagod na siyang maghanap ng mali sa bawat ngiti ni Raf, sa bawat mensaheng mas maikli kaysa dati, sa bawat “busy lang ako” na paulit-ulit niyang tinanggap nang walang tanong.She told herself she was overthinking.Na hindi lahat ng katahimikan ay pagtataksil.Na hindi lahat ng distansya ay paglayo.Pero may mga bagay na hindi mo kailangang hanapan ng ebidensya para maramdaman.At iyon ang pakiramdam na unti-unti siyang pinapalitan—kahit hindi pa umaalis si RafNagsimula ito sa mga maliliit na bagay.Mas bihira na ang good morning messages.Mas madalas na “mamaya na tayo mag-usap.”Mas maraming oras na hindi niya alam kung nasaan si Raf—at mas kaunti ang paliwanag.At kapag nagtatanong siya, laging pareho ang sagot.“Pagod lang ako.”“Marami lang iniisip.”“Don’t make it complicated, Bella.”Pero paano hindi magiging komplikado ang isang relasyon na unti-unting nilulunod ka sa katah
Minsan, si Bella lang ang nakaupo sa kanyang kwarto, nakatitig sa bintana habang ang ulan ay bumubuhos sa labas. Ang bawat patak ay parang sumasalamin sa nararamdaman niya...malamig, malungkot, at walang direksyon.Simula nang makita niya si Lena at marinig ang mga sinabi nito, hindi na siya makapag-focus sa kahit ano. Kahit ang mga mensahe ni Raf, na dati ay nagbibigay kilig, ngayon ay nagdudulot ng pangamba.He doesn’t leave. He replaces.He tells everyone they are special.Paulit-ulit niya itong binasa sa isip. Parang mantra na hindi niya matanggal, isang babala na unti-unting sinisipsip ang kanyang katauhan.Kinabukasan, nagkita silang dalawa sa coffee shop, neutral ground. Matao, maliwanag, safe.Ngunit kahit ganoon, hindi niya maalis sa isip ang mga alaala ni Lena at ang mga salitang iniwan nito.Pagkakita niya kay Raf, hindi na tulad ng dati ang excitement niya.Bawat ngiti, bawat halik sa kamay niya, may kasamang kaba—takot na baka may parte pa siya sa puso ni Raf na para sa n
Hindi na nawala sa isip ni Bella ang mukha ni Lena.Hindi ito galit.Hindi rin pananakot.Kalmado siya—masyadong kalmado para sa isang babaeng may dahilan para magalit.At iyon ang unang dahilan kung bakit natakot si Bella.Nagsimula ang lahat sa isang message na hindi niya inaasahan.Isang pangalan na matagal na niyang naririnig pero hindi kailanman nakita.Lena.“I’m not here to fight. I just think you deserve to know the truth.”Matagal na nakatitig si Bella sa cellphone niya. Paulit-ulit niyang binasa ang mensahe, parang naghahanap ng mali, ng bitag, ng galit na hindi niya makita.She shouldn’t reply.Alam niya iyon.Pero mas malakas ang curiosity kaysa takot.Bella: “Anong katotohanan?”Ilang minuto ang lumipas.Limang minuto.Sampu.Bawat segundo, mas bumibigat ang dibdib niya.Hanggang sa nag-vibrate ulit ang phone.“That he doesn’t leave. He replaces.”Parang may malamig na kamay na humawak sa puso ni Bella.Nagkita sila kinabukasan sa isang coffee shop—matao, maliwanag, ligta
Bella should have knownHindi puwedeng maging ganito kasimple ang lahat. Hindi puwedeng walang multong hahabol sa isang lalaking tulad ni RafThe message came on a Sunday afternoon, habang nakahiga siya sa kama, trying to convince herself that choosing Raf wasn’t the stupidest decision she’d ever madeUnknown Number: “So ikaw na pala ang kapalit.”Nanlamig ang mga daliri niyaBella: “Sorry, who’s this?”Matagal bago dumating ang replyUnknown: “The one he never told you about.”Her chest tightenedThat night, nagkita sila ni Raf. Bella didn’t mention the message agad. She wanted to see him first. To read his face. To check if she was imagining thingsPero bago pa siya makapagsalita, may babaeng lumapit.Matangkad. Makinis. Confident in a way that screamed history“Raf,” sabi ng babae, parang walang kahirap-hirap bigkasin ang pangalan niya“We need to talk.”Nanigas si BellaRaf’s body tensed instantly“…Lena,” sabi niya, mababa ang boses.And just like that, everything made senseHind
Hindi agad nawala ang bigat sa dibdib ni Bella matapos ang gabing nakita niya si Raf kasama ang ibang babaeKahit anong pilit niyang magpakatatag, parang may malamig na kamay na humihigpit sa puso niya tuwing naaalala niya ang eksenang iyonYou’re the only one I wantPero bakit parang may kulang? Bakit parang may hindi tugma?Sa classroom, wala siyang maintindihan sa lecture. Paulit-ulit lang bumabalik sa isip niya ang ngiti ni Raf...yung confident, yung mapang-akit, pero ngayong iniisip niya… parang may itinatagong lungkot sa likod nitoThat night, tumunog ang phone niyaRaf: “See me tonight. I need you.”Hindi miss you. Hindi want you.Need you.At doon pa lang, may something nang bumigat sa dibdib niya. Pero tulad ng mga nakaraang gabi, nanaig ang damdamin kaysa isipBella: “Okay.”Nagkita sila sa isang tahimik na restaurant—malayo sa clubs, malayo sa ingay. Hindi ito ang tipo ng lugar na inaasahan niyang dadalhin siya ni Raf. Walang malakas na music, walang alak na umaapaw. Soft l







