Dear Panashe.As I write this to you, I feel that for many vindication's we have gone through since I returned a month ago; I have so much to tell you. Most of all, I have tried but I fail to tell you in person. You're the closest, you have ever been to me yet so far, I feel we have drifted or rather... you have set a boundary that I can't seem to surpass. Evermore, it is the look of keenness that you give me whenever I try. It is the look of determination that makes me back away from saying all that I'd like to. I admire your devotion to only live for our son and only our son, nothing more. As much as I admire it, personally it scares me and brings me to a halt of blue devils. I want you to be happy, as sad as it sounds even if it isn't with me. There is so much more to life than being a mother. I do not mean to say abandon your duties as a mother or stop caring about our son... my reasoning is. You have built your life around Christian that absolutely nothing makes you happier. I wi

"Will...""I will be gentle...""William!!""I will pull out...""Uh—""A child wouldn't be such a bad idea at the moment..." He chuckled.Coming to halt but still entwined in between, her eyes went wide at the thought.This seemed to have William amused, he wondered if there was any angle or face that could ever make her look hideous, certainly not or maybe he was really deep in love. He never seemed to see any flaw, none at all."Did I say something wrong?" He asked when he saw a frown on her face.As she wrapped her arms around his neck, she was quick to say... "No, nothing to worry about!" She tried to put it off but William could see that the thought of a child scared her to death.The thought of her being sad or uncomfortable made his erection immediately deflate. She felt it as they were still corkscrewed together in the most intimate way possible. Pulling out he laid beside her and pulled her into his arms as he pulled the sheets over their naked bodies."I would never impregn

Distracted, blabbering a whole lot of anguish regarding letting their son know the truth.William out of impulse softly caressed her cheek, she stammered a bit as she came to a halt from talking. Silence accompanied with want, need, mixed emotions, unsaid words and a bit nervousness. They could both hear each other breathe. Panashe blinked a bit trying to calm herself.William's thumb softly caressed her bottom lip, like a volcano that had waiting to erupt for a long time... her clit immediately throbbed with need. Looking into his somber blue eyes, they had changed so much. They weren't as bright as they were six years ago. They looked exhausted... but a certain glimmer flourished whenever he was in her presence.She watched as his Adam's Apple bopped up and down. Pulling away would mean she did not want anything that was about to occur. The distance between them suddenly disappeared with a small step.The buds of her breasts felt rigid, her clit throbbed as if it had a heartbeat of

"She hates him so much." William told Panashe as she massaged his tense shoulders in the comfort of their privacy after a long day. Shirtless, William closed his eyes enjoying her soft touch and how good it felt."I hated you too." She replied."Not to the point of spitting in my face. I reckon Austin has not been the least gentle with her. He once found her with her supposed lover and dragged to the stable to give her a beating. If I'm not mistaken, he informed me of taking advantage of her, while her lover watched. I do not think we should take her words lightly.""Do you gather he likes her?""Without a doubt. I presume he is in denial. Austin has never been this maniacal..." William chuckled."He constantly talks about her whenever we meet. Mostly all about how much he exceedingly loathes her. He claims he loathes her but goes out of his way to constantly be at her back making her and the supposed lover miserable.""All this makes my head hurt..." Panashe replied.William smiled t

The lustful gaze of need between them was binding. Her hand caressed his bare chest admiring how beautifully sculpted it felt and looked. Panashe was caught in between cowardice and longing. She wanted William but she was scared. She was afraid... she constantly had to remind herself that he was the same person whom she loved—'Raped you too.' Her subconscious joined.—This had been the first time, a man had ever seen me in nothing but my nakedness. It had also been the first time, I had ever seen a man naked. Terrified, was a feeling close to home. He didn't touch me anywhere else. He tried putting it in but I flinched.. he told me to be quiet. He tried pushing it in but it just wouldn't get in.He spat on his hands multiple times. I didn't understand what he was doing. After spitting on his hand, he jerked it off on that thing... I was scared stiff. Looking at it made me very uncomfortable. It made me nauseous... especially when it released bits of colorless substance here and ther