Semua Bab Behind A Smile : Bab 151 - Bab 160

Waking up with a splitting headache had become a normal routine for Zynah. She yawned and stretched out, then closed her eyes again for a few more minutes, before the adhaan was made. Groggily, she got out of bed and ambled towards the bathroom to perform ablution and then offer her fajr prayer. It was already a quarter past seven when Zynah finished reading the Qur'an and had returned it safely to its place. The rays from the morning sun penetrated through the small opening of the window and shone on her - a reminder that a new day had begun. She sauntered towards the window and allowed her gaze wander around and linger on the beauty of nature; the sky was bright, flock of birds could be seen flying about. To Zynah, the morning seemed extraordinarily beauteous - she was having a good feeling about the day. Zynah heaved a sigh, breaking free from her trance. "What's this feeling?" She asked herself, as a smile crept its way up her lips. She shrugged it off, and sauntered out

After tucking Adnan in for the night, Zynah kissed him in the forehead and turned off the lamp before walking out of the room. As she opened the door to her room, she was surprised to find Bilal sprawled out on her bed. She definitely wasn't expecting him there. Carefully, she closed the door behind her and walked into the room, and towards him. He wasn't asleep. "Hope you've taken your medicines for the evening," she began, her voice soft. "I don't want you to get sick again." Bilal hummed in response, his gaze trailing after her as she moved to the walk-in closet. Zynah could sense his gaze boring holes in her body, but she chose to ignore. After changing into one of her lingeries, she walked back to the bed. Bilal's gaze hadn't wavered from her. Not even for a second. Zynah stood beside the foot of the bed and gaze skeptically at Bilal. "Do you plan to sleep here, tonight?" she asked, not in an offensive tone. Bilal hummed again in response. "Can I?" "Yes,"

Zynah's heartbeat skyrocketed when he remained motionless, her breaths coming in ragged pants. Not even a finger was moved. She shook her head disdainfully, her whole body trembling vigorously. The urge to scream at the top of her lungs was overwhelming, but her throat was constricted, a lump of fear lodged firmly in her chest. Every muscle in her body aches with tension, her mind racing with a thousand terrifying possibilities. Everything seemed like an illusion to her. Yes, it was exactly what it was. It couldn't be true. Bilal couldn't have possibly left her. He was too obsessed with her to do so. Zynah was supposed to take him to the hospital immediately, she knew, but she couldn't bring herself to do it. Perhaps she wasn't ready for the news that awaited her. The truth that would shatter her world. The fear was paralyzing. "Bilal!" She bellowed, her voice a hoarse, desperate cry. "If you don't get up right now, I'm going to...I'm going to hate you. I'm never going to fo

Dolefully, Zynah sat on the hospital bed, tears streaming down her face. In a matter of just few hours, she felt her whole world crumbling. She couldn't comprehend what Ramlah had told her. It felt like a dream - a nightmare. "What are you saying?" She choked out, her voice a hoarse whisper. "We were talking yesterday." "Ya Zynah," Ramlah called, softly, her voice filled with a mixture of sorrow and helplessness. "Please accept the fact that he has left this world and just like him, we're also going to follow the lead someday. I know it's painful, but you just have to accept it in good faith. He's gone for good." "No!" Zynah shook her head vigorously. "Don't you understand what I'm saying, Ramlah? He was with me last night!"Her voice quivered. "We were talking... laughing..." her viuce trailed off, replaced by a sob. "Ya Z—" Ramlah reached for Zynah's hand but she pulled back. "I know it's hard but we just have to accept it." "Don't!" Zynah yelled, raising a hand. "Don't

For two consecutive days, Zynah hadn't been herself. Bilal's death came as a shock to her. Had she known he would die so unexpectedly,, she wouldn't have stayed away from him. Not even for a split second. Had she known he would be gone so soon, she would have clung to him like a lifeline, would have made him know just how important he was to her. Had she known he was going to leave so soon, she would have let him know of his baby, growing in her. She had so many regrets. So much that she wished she could turn back the hands of time and rectify her mistakes. Five minutes - five minutes was all that was needed. Her parents had arrived two days ago and strangely, they were being so sympathetic. Her father's attitude surprised her the most, but she held back her emotions, her heart too heavy for words. Ramlah had been very supportive. She was always at her beck and call. When she had sleepless night, she would always stay up with her and try to lighten up the mood, by reminding her