GIANNAI wake up alone and the panic hits before my eyes are fully open. Old wiring from Ryan's programming, buried in my nervous system like malware that survived the reformat. Waking up alone in a man's bed meant I'd done something wrong, talked too much, moved wrong in my sleep, failed to be whatever he needed me to be that night. The punishment would come at breakfast: silence, coldness, a remark disguised as concern that was designed to shrink me back to the size he preferred.I sit up clutching the sheet to my chest and force myself to breathe. In. Out. The heart beats fast, not the borrowed heart responding to Sean, but my own animal fear, the prey instinct that Ryan trained into me over three years of intermittent cruelty.Then I see the note.On his pillow, written on monogrammed paper in his sharp handwriting are nine words."Breakfast is downstairs. Don't let Elena burn the eggs. — S."The most mundane note in the history of human communication. No declarations, no apolog
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