All Chapters of The Devil Who Claimed Me (M x M): Chapter 131 - Chapter 140

NIKOLAIMy left eye twitches slightly even as I try to remain calm.If he sees how affected this makes me, he’ll only do more. He’s only a little worse than Caleb in that area.Julian looks between the two of us, his confusion evident.Derek and I have a weird stand-off for a few minutes, but I end up looking away first.I can never hold his gaze for too long.He smiles as he takes off his glasses, setting them down on the space beside him.“Aren’t you going to introduce us?” he asks, that little smile, that looks anything but reassuring, still on his face.As if you don’t know who he is, I mutter internally.Perhaps it was a bad idea bringing Julian over. But this was going to happen at some point.It’s inevitable.I sigh as I step closer to the both of them.“Derek, this is Julian, my boyfriend.”Julian’s eyes widen at the label and his mouth opens as if to speak, but I shoot him a quick look, imploring him to shut up.If he knows what’s good for him, he won’t try to argue with me

JULIANI spend most of the morning in a fog, unsure of the current trajectory my life has taken.I don’t know exactly what’s going on with Nikolai. I don’t know what I want from him. Or why I keep going back to him despite stating I want him to leave me alone.The fact that last night, I willingly went home with a murderer because the alternative was returning to the place I'd once considered home, should already be a huge pointer to how messed up everything is currently.Things with Theo and I are even worse.It’s funny how we both share a major and spend almost all our time in the same spaces, both at home and at school, and yet we don’t talk.We sit on opposite ends of the classroom and pretend the other doesn’t exist. Which is funny because just a week ago, we were sitting right next to each other in classes and doing everything together.I try to pretend everything is normal.I attend my first lecture. Then the second.I grab coffee between classes and sit in a corner of the stud

JULIAN My voice echoes through the room. A couple of students glance curiously in our direction. I lower my voice. “You made me hate someone I’d never even met. You convinced me I was doing something right. You made me believe I was helping my best friend.” “You were helping me.” “I was helping you get revenge.” His jaw clenches. “And what exactly is so wrong about that?” I stare at him. “You really don’t see it, do you?” “See what?” “That you used me.” His expression flickers. “You keep saying that like I forced you or something.” “You knew I’d do anything for you.” “Because you love me.” The words hit me like a slap and I go still. He knew. He knew the whole time. Theo seems to realize what he said and he freezes. He looks away. “You’ve always loved me, Julian. You said you’d always be there when I needed you.” My throat tightens. “And you used that.” “I didn’t ask you to feel that way.” “No. But you knew I loved you.” He doesn’t respond. “And you let me keep be

JULIANI should have expected that Nikolai wasn’t going to let me leave that easily.Although, to clarify, I don’t think I was fighting that hard.I let out a sigh when I see him leaning against a pillar as I step out of my last class.He straightens when he sees me, a pleased expression on his face.I should probably not ask him how he knows my class schedule. I think we’ve already established he’s a stalker.An annoying-but-not-so-annoying one at that.I only pause walking for a second before I resume my steps, acting like I didn’t see him standing there.“Oh, come on,” I hear him say behind me. “Don’t be like that, babe.”I stop so abruptly that another student nearly walks into me.I turn around. “Don’t call me that.”He pushes away from the pillar, looking amused. “Why? I think it’s cute.”“It’s anything but cute. It sounds disgusting.”“I knew that was the only thing that would get your attention and it worked. Why did you act like you didn’t see me?”I fold my arms. “Because I

JULIAN I don’t know what time it is when I wake up. The room is still dark. For one disorienting moment, I have no idea where I am. Or even what triggered me awake. Then I hear it. “Stop…” The voice sounds angry, irritated, yet there’s an underlying edge of vulnerability. It’s enough to make my eyes open. Nikolai is still asleep beside me, except he doesn’t look peaceful. His eyebrows are drawn together. His breathing is uneven, coming out in harsh pants, and his hands are clenched tightly into the sheets. “Stop…” The word comes out again. “Please…” My chest tightens. “Nikolai?” He doesn’t wake. His head shifts against the pillow. “No…” I sit up and call his name again. “Nikolai.” His breathing becomes heavier. “I don’t want to.” The words are barely audible. I don’t know what to do. I’m not used to seeing him like this. The man who always seems like nothing ruffles his feathers is lying beside me looking terrified. I reach out and touch his shoulder, shaking hi