The White Wolf: A she-wolf exception to all the rules

My high-pitched screams are ripping through my body and at an alarming rate, the tree bark and leaves I've stuffed into my mouth doing little to muffle the sounds. It's hot. Everything is so freaking hot. My skin feels like it's melting off, so slow and too fast all at the same time. My hair feels like it's being yanked from my scalp one strand at a time, and I swear I can feel my organs ready to burst with a loud pop any second. Pain. So much pain. I have to stay quiet. There is a voice in my head shushing me, lulling me, begging me to keep my agony a secret. "They can't find us." She says, her voice full of dread, pleading with me to stay quiet. I feel like she is stroking my head from the inside, trying to ease my pain. "It's going to be okay Roo, I’m here with you. You are not alone. Never alone. Shhhh."  Her sweet but pleading tones keep me off the edge of darkness. "Please, I can't take anymore." I cry to her in my head. "It hurts,

We were miles away from our cabin, which wasn't uncommon when we were in our wolf form. Ness and I like to run and don't usually pay attention to how far we go. I don't mind walking in human form either, so we casually stroll back to our cabin. My senses are just as heightened in human form as they were as a wolf. I can smell, hear, see, and feel everything to such specificity, it makes me wonder what it would be like if we were to evolve again. Once we get to the cabin I shower and change into some jean shorts and a white t-shirt with a small V for the neckline. My human form is nothing extraordinary, not like I am as a wolf. I 'm 5'3, with small features. I'm thin but not fragile. I wanted my human body to be just as strong, so I spend a lot of time running, and eating well. Nessa tends to be quieter while I'm in my human state. She likes to rest, and just go along for the ride. I throw on my slip ons before heading out the door to

I wake up, drenched in sweat to the sound of my alarm. I rub the sleep from my eyes as I trek to the shower to try and wash off the feel of him that still lingers over me."It was just a dream." I tell myself and Nessa scoffs. "Don't start." I chide her."What?" She retorts. "It felt good, even if it was just a dream and you know it. Imagine how good the real thing would be." I can practically see her raising her eyebrows suggestively at me."Stop it. It's just the mate bond." But even I don't believe myself.  Nathaniel is hot. So unbelievably hot. It's stupid and unfair how good looking he is. And while I am being honest with myself, I can admit that he's actually a really good guy, a good alpha. He just wants to have the one thing from me I don't want to give. Control.As alpha, he runs his pack fully and completely. If I would be accepted into the pack, my life would no longer be my own. If the alpha says stay, I literally would ha

The day is boring and slow for the most part, tuning out people's emotions and turning in on myselfinstead. I’m having a hard time focusing because my mind keeps going back to the Alpha. Specifically, the differences.“Why would he smell different, Ness?” I just can’t shake it. It had to of been him.“I don’t know.” She replies. “His woof was…”She doesn’t finish and that piques my interest further. “What, Ness? His woof was what?”She doesn’t say anything for a few minutes, and I begin to wonder what she could be feeling that she isn’t ready to share.The bell rings, signaling that my class is over and it’s time for lunch. I gather my things and start heading out with the rest of the class. I’m not really paying attention to what’s going on, until I smell it.Cinnamon… and firewood.I look around, trying desperately to

He’s standing in front of me, naked. I keep eye contact, not daring to look anywhere else. But damn why did he have to be naked. ‘Oh come on, just a little peak.’ Nessa wines. ‘Nessa. No.’ I masked the mate bond the second I sensed someone coming, partially out of habit, and partially out of assumption. I’m not sure who else would come out here, if not one of the twins looking for me. “Who are you?” I ask again. Nothing. “Listen, I know you aren’t Nathaniel and I know that It was you talking to me at my locker yesterday. So just get on with it already.” Again. Nothing. “Are you going to say anything or just stand there, staring at me…. naked.” He smirks. He goddamn smirks. “Okay. Well, this has been fun, but I’m going to go now.” I salute him and start walking away, with no destination in mind, just somewhere away from here. “You aren’t the least bit curious?” He asks. I stop, but don’t t