Adrian
My boyfriend, Nolan Reed, was in the running for head coach of the national open-water swimming team, and he was a sports streamer with eight million followers.
On a trip to Santa Catalina Island, he said he'd use a livestream to help me conquer my fear of deep water. The second the camera went live, Leah Morgan, the friend I trusted most, shoved me from behind.
An icy wave swept over my head.
I struggled toward Nolan and reached for him, but he took half a step back, dodging my hand.
"Don't pull her out yet. It takes real fear to unlock someone's full potential."
Leah thrust the gimbal and ring light so close they nearly touched my eyes as they rolled back. "Ivy, bigger reactions. We just broke our viewer record."
On the screen, virtual gifts and betting totals flew by in a frenzy.
Someone asked if I was dying.
Nolan glanced at the stream analytics and laughed under his breath. "I'm betting she swims back on her own. She's hard to kill. The longer she holds out, the more views we get."
Leah counted up the take on her fingers and laughed. "Then I'm betting she doesn't make it back up. Wait until the last minute, then jump in and play the hero."
But his last-minute rescue never came.
Before I sank for good, a stranger fought through the waves, plunged into the ocean, and dragged me up from beneath the surface.
I would later learn it wasn't the first time Nolan had taken bets on me.
Every fall, every injury, every time I'd been scared to tears, even every time I'd jolted awake from a nightmare, had become a wager in their group chat. They bet on how long it would take me to break, whether I would ever find out, and, if I did, whether I would dare to leave.
The man I'd loved for three years and the friend I trusted most had been treating my pain like a long-running reality show.
Since they loved taking bets so much, I would place one of my own.
I bet on myself. I would never look back.