Fish Cares
On New Year's Eve, a crowd crush broke out, and I was carried into the field treatment tent along with Maya Bellamy, the underprivileged student my family had been sponsoring.
My own brother, Derek Calder, the incident commander, glanced at me. My ribs were caved in, and I kept coughing up blood.
Then he called every medic over to put ice on Maya's slightly twisted ankle.
"Maya's dance final is coming up. Nothing can happen to that foot!"
When I weakly begged him for help, he gave me a stern, self-righteous lecture.
"I'm your brother. If I'm the first one to give you special treatment, what will all the injured people out there think of me? Act your age, and don't make trouble for me right now!"
The pain had me on the verge of passing out. All I could do was grab my boyfriend, Ethan Kessler, when he rushed over.
"Ethan, I can't breathe..."
But he pried my hand off him, his face full of impatience.
"You've had asthma since you were a kid, and you don't even carry your inhaler. How can you blame anyone else?
"Maya was in the most dangerous part of the crowd, right in the middle. You were stuck out at the edge by the planters. How could you be hurt worse than she is? Why do you always have to compare yourself to her?"
Then he carefully scooped Maya up in his arms and ran to the ambulance that had just arrived, without looking back.
But he seemed to have forgotten that when the crowd went down, he was the one who shoved me into the surging mass of people, just to clear a safe spot for Maya.
And my brother never noticed that the strange heaving of my chest meant my broken ribs had already pierced my organs.