Letter Rain
During my wedding, someone suggests that we play the game "one dollar and 50 cents".
The host will call out an amount that the players will have to match by forming groups.
I draw the 50-cent straw, and so does my best friend, Rebecca Cross, who is also the group favorite.
My fiance, Ian Chilton, his childhood friend, Richard Price, his older sister, Anne Chilton, and my stepsister, Chelsea Whitmore, all draw one-dollar straws.
For the first round, we need to make up a total of 1.50 dollars.
I make a beeline toward Ian, but he gazes distractedly at Rebecca.
It isn't until he is assured that she won't be eliminated that he finally loosens his painfully tight grip on my hand.
Before I can truly feel my disappointment, the second round begins. This time, we need to make up a total of five dollars.
Everyone instinctively surges toward Rebecca.
I don't pester Ian this time, and he naturally fails to notice that I've been left out.
It isn't until the host reminds them that they're 50 cents short that they reluctantly let me into their group.
For the third round, we need to make up 2.50 dollars.
It's clear that the six of us can conveniently form two groups of said amount, yet they debate heatedly over who gets to be in the group with Rebecca.
As time is running out, Richard and Chelsea finally walk reluctantly toward me, having lost in a game of rock-paper-scissors.
In the final round, we need to make up 4.50 dollars.
As soon as the whistle is blown, they crowd together merrily.
Ian even considerately wraps his arm around Rebecca's shoulders out of fear that she'll be jostled.
Meanwhile, I'm knocked to the floor by the crowd, my palms digging deeply into splinters sticking out of the wooden floor paneling.
From start to finish, nobody spares me a glance.
In that instant, everything feels pointless to me.
When we played hide-and-seek as children, they only realized I hadn't been "found" after nightfall.
When we visited the amusement park as adults, they would always forget to buy my ticket.
All things considered, it simply isn't polite to keep trying to fit into a small group that doesn't have room for me.