Cloudy Double
In our third year of marriage, Jillian Holt changed the name she had saved my number under.
It wasn't "Dear" anymore.
It was "7:00 pm to 7:30 pm".
She said she set aside only half an hour a day for personal matters.
If I messaged her a minute early, she wouldn't reply.
If the text was even a minute late, she wouldn't reply either.
Once, I had a fever of 102.2°F and was hooked up to an IV at the hospital. I called her seven times.
At 7:00 pm, she called me back right on time. "You have 29 minutes left. Get to the point."
I asked hoarsely if she could come pick me up.
She glanced at her schedule. "29 minutes isn't enough for a round trip. Get a cab yourself."
I had always thought she was just too busy with work, so I never dared waste a second of that half hour each night.
I would write down what I wanted to say ahead of time and keep my complaints brief.
Then, one night at 1:00 am, a clap of thunder woke me up.
No one was beside me.
In the living room, Jillian was leaning against the couch, revising a proposal for her project manager, Jesse Cohen.
On the screen, Jesse chuckled. "Ms. Holt, it's already 1:00 am. Am I taking up too much of your time?"
Jillian let out a soft laugh. "When have I ever kept track of the time when you needed me?"
Standing behind the door, I suddenly remembered knocking on her study door three hours earlier. I was doubled over with stomach pain.
She had said, "You've used up your time for today."
I returned to my room and turned off the alarm I had set on my phone for 6:59 pm every day.
At 7:00 pm the next day, Jillian didn't get a message from me for the first time.